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i think one of the most interesting things about jean vs neil is that neil is so incredibly used to lying, that being able to cover up his past and the stuff that’s happened to him comes fairly easily, he only finds himself wanting to be honest because he cares about people

jean on the other hand, has never had to lie. he’s never had to speak to anyone worth lying to. so all of his secrets come flowing out of him unprompted after a certain amount of provocation

jean was taught to keep quiet, not to lie. and even then, his skills at denial and silence are put to the test when he has to face more people who ask questions than he ever has before.

every one of jeans secrets was revealed by himself. he doesn’t know how to keep it in when someone actually cares enough to keep prodding. :(((((

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"I will love them enough that it changes the narrative" but it's Nicky's love for the twins finally giving them a stable home where they could heal, Jean's love for Kevin giving him the chance to escape Evermore, the twins' love for each other saving them from their abusers, the foxes' love for Neil making him into a real person, Andrew's love for Neil giving him something to build a life around outside his promises, Renee's love for Jean saving his life, Jean's love for Elodie convincing him that he doesn't deserve everything that happened to him—

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something about jean dying in all the other drafts really gets me like wdym no one would ever have known how soft and caring he was underneath it all or how he had a sister or how he put away the leftovers without asking and cared enough to ask about the safety of someone he barely knew and how he was desperate to love and be loved all along. ofcourse kevin and renee and neil wouldn't have forgotten him but they did not know all the pieces of who he was and what he survived and what he was trying to be, in his heart of hearts. jeremy will know, eventually. but what if he never did? what if no one ever ended up truly knowing him and loving him and saving him? would they piece the deepest parts of his heart by the postcards and magnets and memories of a too soft boy in a too cruel world?

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jeremy saying he's always wanted a dog and comparing jean to a starving dog vs andrew saying he wants nothing and calling neil nothing

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jeremy asking jean to tell him about his issues when he himself keeps dodging his own issues.....dude at least jean talks about his trauma in his inner monologue what about you?

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Jean & Cat & Open Roads

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The Sunshine Court Spoilers

Look Neil and Jean lied to the Feds about being old friends and current besties so imagine they have to keep up the lie and go from Fake best friends to real best friends

Let's make this fun twist on fake dating trope a thing, Fake Friends to Real Friends with Neil and Jean

The Feds track their social media so they have to send each other memes daily and call each other at least once a week, etc.

The twist was that they were meant to be bestfriends all along

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love going on callout posts for "thinks cnc is okay" and seeing people talk about how us freaks need the electric chair. fantasizing about violence is okay as long as its not sexual, funny that

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depicting sexual assault in media is not an endorsement of it 🤝 it's reasonable for audiences to expect a certain level of care and awareness in its presentation 🤝 there is oftentimes an over-reliance on sexual violence in creating the backstories, trajectories, and conflicts of fictional women 🤝 sexual violence is prevalent in society and stories about it do need to be told as a reflection of our reality 🤝 sometimes male writers and directors are extremely bad at telling these stories and audiences are justified in demanding better

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in chapter 11 of the raven king (thanksgiving), neil says, ‘kevin was staring at andrew like he’d seen a ghost’. i’ve always kind of wondered what that meant, but now with the added perspective of tsc, and all the parallels between andrew & jean … maybe the ‘ghost’ kevin’s seeing here is jean’s. and the implications of that- jean says in tsc that ‘even kevin didn’t know the full story, only the jagged half-lie riko fed him’, so jean doesn’t think kevin knows the truth about the ‘rumors’. but what if he does? what if when kevin heard andrew say ‘don’t ask what’ and ‘you know better’, he finally realized: riko lied. and kevin should have known better than to believe him.

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all of the jean/kevin implications are giving kevins "its easier to be straight" a whole different meaning. fml

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my friend just told me that there's a secret second dashboard that solely contains posts from people you've turned on post notifications for, and when i click the link in the messages it opens it within the tumblr app, so the tumblr app also has a secret second dashboard for post notification blogs, and the only way to access it is to open the link for it within the app.

i literally love tumblr

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Is anybody else still thinking about

"You are the captain of the sunshine court. In no universe could you be anyone's villain."

Vs

“You already destroyed the family. Don’t destroy my future, too."

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When Jean officially addresses some of the rumors about him, whether to the public or just the trojans, I genuinely think he should just remind people that he was just a kid.

“How old am I,” he asks the people watching.

Everyone is silent, not a single response is heard. Not even a whispered guess.

“I am” a pause or a breath, no one can be sure, “I am 19 years old.”

A mummer is heard as the crowd tries to do the math in their heads but it’s immediately silenced when Jean starts speaking again.

“My freshman year, I was 16. 14 when I moved into the nest with the other athletes.”

Yet another small break. Jean is looking at the floor, unable to see all the people watching.

He looks back up “knowing that. Knowing those numbers, I want you to ask yourselves if the rumors are true.”

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just a reminder to COMPLETELY boycott Eurovision this year; Azerbaijan and Israel, despite committing genocide, are STILL allowed to compete & have NOT been banned. by refusing to ban both countries, Eurovision is profiting off of the genocide of Palestinians and Armenians.

do not listen to the artists. do not pirate or stream the artists' music, and this applies to ALL the artists who are competing and performing this year. do not listen to the songs on ANY platform, do not give them ANY attention.

write to your broadcasters and tell them you REFUSE to watch the channels until they recognise the Armenian and Palestinian genocides & that you find it disgusting how they are allowing Eurovision despite Azerbaijan and Israel's entries.

do NOT give eurovision OR the competing artists ANYTHING but silence.

boycott ALL of eurovision.

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OKAY, so I just learned about the Ichirou and Allison shenanigans, and have many thoughts. But mostly, I'm just thinking about how if it were to happen, then Kevin, Neil, and Jean can get away with anything and Ichirou won't do shit because they're his girlfriend's friends.

Ichirou: "That's it! They've undermined my authority for the last time! I will get rid of th - "

Allison: "Babe."

Ichirou: "...eir attitudes with a strongly worded email. Again."

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And it was on this day that Rhemann finally understood why Wymack was renowned within the NCAA for being a heavy drinker

(The Sunshine Court, ch.16)