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a relationship where we both have the same sense of humor

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i be like “idc” and then stare at the wall for hours with alternative sad music playing in the background thinking about how i ruin every good thing that comes my way

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And if you call me at 4 am, too sad to even say hello, I will listen to your silence until you fall asleep.

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If the person you’re with never changes, will you be happy with them for the rest of your life? Because if they haven’t changed by now, there’s a very good chance they never will. You’ve told them the things they need to work on, you’ve told them what they do that hurts you, you’ve told them how they could fix the problem, probably multiple times, and they’re still actively choosing to not correct that behavior. That is them disrespecting your boundaries and not giving a fuck about how they’re making you feel. Is someone like that really someone you’re comfortable being with? Or have you been settling? I ask you again, if nothing in your relationship were to change, and it were to continue on forever as it has, as it is now, would you be happy with that life, truthfully? With that person? Is that something you can gladly accept? If the answer is no, I urge you to please quit seeing their potential and consider if they truly are the partner for you and if you genuinely see yourself completely satisfied with them based on what they’ve shown you so far. Don’t look at what they could be or what they could do. Look at what they are and what they are doing. Prioritize your contentment; if the voice inside your head is telling you that the person you’re with isn’t right for you, please pay attention to that. Intuition exists for a reason. Don’t stay if you know you’ll probably regret doing so later. You deserve the love you’ve always dreamed of having, and it’s somewhere out there waiting for you. I promise.

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Sometimes you have to accept that everything happens for a reason. Sometimes you have to bear with the fact that your life is a series of phases. Sometimes you have to leave the questions unanswered. Sometimes doing nothing is your best endeavour. Sometimes all you have to do is to give it a go. Sometimes you have to take risks. Sometimes you have to respond with grace when others do not. Sometimes you have to celebrate it with some friends, your trusted circle. Sometimes it is all up to you. Sometimes your happiness is to embrace your imperfections. And sometimes can be the day you will be certain. You have to wait for it. You are moving forward. So hang on there.

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You have no idea how it made me feel when I am with you tonight. The sky does not look empty even though it is starless, you are there, everywhere, you are here in my heart beating spontaneously, even just the reflection of your face I see in the fluorescent light, is the same as the moonlight guiding me home. Perhaps, you are my home. You are the river of stars dancing in my veins.

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I smiled because i knew she’d have so much to tell me when i saw her again.

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And she smiled, maybe not at me, but after all this time she still smiled, so I smiled too.

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someone once asked me what is the hardest choice that I've ever made. I said something trivial like:"honestly, I don't know what was the hardest of all but probably the one where I had to choose who I wanted to become." but from a young age, I knew exactly what I wanted to do and I always wanted to work in criminology, so it's clear this wasn't the hardest choice I had to make, but this is how I managed to thank my friend with a more convincing answer. the question made me wonder for myself, what was the difficult choice I had to make. honestly speaking, I knew for a long time what it was, but I didn't want to be aware of it. from the moment I made this decision I started to take up my time so that I could not think about the answer to this question. I think that's the moment when I should clarify you too and tell you what was the overwhelming choice I had to make because you're most likely bored with this introduction that seems to have no end. the hardest choice I had to make was to give up the girl I loved and be honest I don't think I've ever loved a girl so much. you're probably wondering "why would you do that", I'll tell you in the following. I'd like to mention that she didn't give me any reason to do that. she was wonderful, she loved me even in the moments when it seemed like I didn't even care about her, and she endured all the nervous outbursts and periods when I disappeared and appeared after a week as if nothing had happened. she gave me all the love in the world even though I didn't give her anything. she was content with the simple fact that she could talk to me. the reason why I gave up the girl I loved was me. I couldn't sit and watch how I hurt her even if I didn't do it on purpose. she was not responsible for the pain I was feeling. she deserved a person to protect her instead of hurting her. all I was doing was destroying her and bringing her to the point where I had reached. when I discussed with her I would see myself. not the one now, but the one then, which still had hope. who still felt happiness and love. I couldn't take everything that was left of her because, she, too, went through hard things and she was hurt by the unsuitable people. so you can judge me or understand me but even though it was the hardest choice I think it was a good one. I think it was much better to free her from that cage. that cage was represented by the fact that she depended only on my moods. I love her and I hope she is happy even without me.

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"mi-e dor de tine și îți caut chipul, în fiecare margine a firii"

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O pată de culoare a dispărut din cadru. Ești fericit și e totul bine dar lipsește ceva, lipsește ea și-o resimți în golul din piept la fiecare bătaie a inimii. Imaginează-ți că te întorci în timp, că o îmbrățișezi iar pe nebună, că o săruți, că e acolo, că nu te lasă să dormi noaptea și te aduce-n culmea disperării, doar imaginează-ți de data asta, fiindcă nu se mai întâmplă. Acum îți dă fiori, te simți ca și cum te-ai întors după război acasă și deși totul e întreg, oamenii-s reci. Un suflet colorat nu se mai repară odată ce culorile i-au fost șterse și spălate de nopți de lacrimi.

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Dell:I feel like I'm in the wrong world, 'Cause I don't belong in a world where we don't end up together. I don't. There are parallel universes out there where this didn't happen. Where I was with you and you were with me And whatever universe that is, that's the one where my heart lives in.

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I like being myself. I love who I am and what I do. I don't need to impress people or anyone else. I don't care what people say about me, I know who I am, and I live it. I like being independent, showing other people that I am tough and strong. I could handle anything.

But sometimes my dearest love, I want you to hold me. Share your coat with me when you see me shivering, because I won't admit that I'm cold. Hold my hand just for the heck of it. Pull me in the rain and dance with me. Hear me cry, scream, shout, laugh and sing - smile at me.

I don't like being with other people other than my family and friends. I enjoy staying in a cafe or at home reading a book or watching a movie alone. But I'd love to have someone to share the book with or share the popcorn and sheets with. God will let us meet someday, and I know it will be worth the wait.

My dearest love, don't worry about me and don't worry about the wait. I am making myself better, not just for you, but for us someday. I will be with you just you wait.

If you're out there, know this, when I love I love so true. I give my all and I will love you. My love, I am done going out on dates and looking for my future someone. When the time is right, I know you'll come running to my side. My love, I love you. I'm right here, waiting for you.

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I know you’re out there, and I know you exist. The only problem is that I don’t know who you are, and you don’t know who I am. If I should be lucky enough to meet you, I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you. Making up for the fact that I wasn’t there to hold your hand when you needed me most, to talk to you at night when you couldn’t sleep, to wipe away your tears when you were sad, and to be there for you no matter what because if you were like me you thought you’d never find the one for you. Just stay strong, for me and more importantly for yourself. Let’s prove we can do this, let’s prove that we are more.