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You couldn't even name my real friends.

The pall bearers they pick for me could never tell you anything correct about me.

I have sat with so many versions of myself.

Past, present, heaven and hell.

You couldn't even name my real friends.

The ones who told you to mind your business when you attempted to plant seeds filled of hate.

The ones who called you out on your bullshit when you tried to tar my name.

The ones who called me and played the conversations you were so venomous towards me in.

I can name my real friends. By the names they hold sacred.

Yosei and mirakle, you missed the sorta tall one.

I would say you can name yours, but mine say otherwise.

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I never got by on planning things.

I always let the cards fall and scrapped together the best hand I could.

Sometimes it worked out.

Sometimes it was functional.

Very rarely was it bad.

I believe in luck, I believe in love.

I believe the universe will give back what you put out.

I believe in universal exchange.

Despite that.

Lately I have been planning.

Call it what you want to call it, maybe it's moving on.

Lately it's our room, our meals, our bed.

I would like it to be our house, our stuff, our dance, our life.

Call it what you want to call it, I call it falling in love.

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Not everything is for everyone.

But I fucking hope you're the one.

More and more everyday

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Everything over the last year crumbled away and claimed things without spines.

My current times are surrounded by those who are foundations.

You couldn't even name my real friends.

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Everything over the last year crumbled away and claimed things without spines.

My current times are surrounded by those who are foundations.

You couldn't even name my real friends.

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I would dissolve into you and repair every part of you, you didn't like.

You're smile is my favourite home.

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I would dissolve into you and repair every part of you, you didn't like.

You're smile is my favourite home.

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"I'll always find you."

I'm pretty sure I've known you for longer than I've been here.

There's something about you, that's so timeless.

I'm sure I'll always find you, no matter the time, the place, the aeon of existence.

I will always find you.

You bring peace and I will always look for you.

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I only just got home.

You should be safely on a bus.

I miss you already.

I'll keep missing you to you come home.

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I like holding you.

You stop me tumbling through time and space.

There's something about you.

That makes me want to stay.

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I like holding you.

You stop me tumbling through time and space.

There's something about you.

That makes me want to stay.

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I don't have anyone to carry my casket.

I'm sure they will find some people too.

People I don't know enough to trust to carry me home.

They'll tell lies about everything they thought I was.

Because they would never ask the people I hold so close to me to be that close to me.

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One day I'll fold away into this tiny box people try to force me into.

I'll be left on the shelf like everyone else.

They don't love me for me, they love me for them.

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I got burn holes in my memories.

I have no short term memory.

This needs to last so I can confidently look and feel this way again.

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I got burn holes in my memories.

I have no short term memory.

This needs to last so I can confidently look and feel this way again.

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Life hurts,

The closest I'll get to true happiness is a landon show.

Life hurts,

I take it back, I still have memories of you in my shirt.

Degeneracy means nothing to me.

I just want to spend the time with you.

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All I ever wanted was simplicity.

Then you showed up.

And silence with you has been the most fulfilling thing to ever touch my soul.