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Buck 🤝🏻 us

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I know this gonna make some people mad I do not care at all. But this is my opinion so.

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he was crazy for that

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Another day, another round of "Booker should've never been mad at Nicky and Joe amidst his grief!" bullshit that once again centers all this shit on Nicky and Joe when it's not about them.

Grief is a monster. It digs its claws in you in ways that leave unimaginable scars. And losing a child is a *far* different monster than losing family or losing friends. I recently lost my dad and, while the grief was overwhelming, the thought of losing my son is earth shattering. Losing a child upsets the natural order of things and, if you listen to anyone who has lost a child talk about it, it's a pain that never heals. Not after five years. Not after ten years. Not after twenty or thirty.

And Booker had to do it not once, but three times.

And Jean-Pierre, his youngest and last son, dies at 42 years old. The same age Booker was when he suffered his first death. He dies of cancer in a time where there is no treatment, no way to ease his pain. Jean-Pierre dies a horrible, slow death and Booker has to watch it, knowing that his son hates him with every fiber of his body. There is no reconciliation, no forgiveness, no closure.

And that wound inside his soul bleeds. And bleeds. And bleeds. Because there is no way to heal. Grief ebbs as time passes and you're able to try and move on with your life, but when time has stopped at a stand-still for Booker? There is no way to move on.

We can see the complete and utter devastation on Andy's face when Quỳnh is simply mentioned, and this is 300 years after losing her. The pain that Booker is carrying around from the loss of his sons, after a little more of half that time? Unimaginable.

Joe and Nicky got off light. And it's not about them. Because, as Booker correctly pointed out, they had each other.

All he had was his grief.

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Forgiveness

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I WAS WAITING FOR A REUNION! A WORD! SOME FORM OF ACKNOWLEDGMENT! ANYTHING!

WE!

WERE!

ROBBED!

Yeah, I think I'm still bitter about this…

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What the hell was that

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I feel like as a fandom we dont talk enough about the fact that Simon literally killed the dude that touched Baz against his will. Like... I'm not saying he was wrong ... but HE LITERALLY KILLED HIM?? BY STABBING HIM?? WITH A WAND ??!

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I love how Baz knew he was madly in love with Simon, and he still thought Simon was annoying as fuck. And was even more annoyed at himself for liking Simon. Like really? The kid I'm in love with eats fucking 17 scones for breakfast everymorning, goes after butter like an addict trying to get his fix, can't even do magic and he's the greatest Mage alive, and I'm IN LOVE WITH HIM?? And worse of all he's so fucking dense he doesn't even REALIZE it??? Like Baz thinks Simon is a fucking idiot– and then he doesn't kiss anyone until Simon because he's worried he'd accidentally bite someone, except he knows he'd never bite Snow. He thinks about Simon constantly while being held captive by the numpties because IT WAS THE ONLY THING KEEPING HIM ALIVE??

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“Tommy is too old for Buck!”

Buck was MILF chasing in s1 and you think the second he realizes he’s into men he wouldn’t immediately go for Thomas Daddy Kinard??? Ok…

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How I feel about Buddie...

You guys have been warned, this is a long post.

I've always liked 911 and was a casual viewer but never got involved in the fandom or anything. Of course I knew about Buddie, but I personally never saw it. Buck and Eddie have always acted like best friends and do stuff best friends do. I have never seen any scene that could be interpreted as romantic, except maybe for the "you want to go for the title" scene. But to me it wasn't enough to ship them, especially since it was the only scenes in their hundreds of scenes together that could be seen as romantic.

That being said, I've always thought the ship was cute, and I understand it because who doesn't like a good friends to lovers storyline?

I just never got involved in the fandom because their behavior reminded me of the Stucky and Destiel fandom, which were chaotic experiences for me. Some people just don't know how to handle non canon ships and act entitled, complain to the showrunners and harrass the cast. I've always tried to avoid fandoms like that, but wasn't against the idea of Buddie as a ship.

The 911 Lone Star crossover episode for me was the confirmation that Buck was into men. To me, it was obvious they confirmed he was into men but hadn't set up a storyline yet. So naturally I thought... if they set up a storyline it will be with Eddie. There was no doubt it my mind.

So fast forward, a few years, I wasn't really watching season 7 and then I see all the fuss from Buddie shippers I follow, and it makes me watch the sneak peek video from 7x04 and I'm like....For sure Buck is being jealous right? (it was the scene where Eddie interrupted Tommy giving Buck a tour)

So I decided to watch the episode convinced this was going to be the episode where they confirmed Buddie, but I was also very cautious because Buddie shippers had cried wolf too many times before.

So I was careful, but I was also convinced that this was it: "Buck was going to get jealous of Eddie hanging out with Tommy and then confess his feelings or the other way around".

And that's actually what was happening until the end of the episode, we saw Buck get jealous, and most of us assumed he was being jealous about Eddie.

We didn't figure out until the end of the episode that it was all about Tommy.

And that's the beauty of that episode because you think you're watching something when in fact you're watching something else and when you rewatch some scenes you understand it, and that plot twist was written so beautifully.

So we have Buck and Tommy have a heart to heart in Buck's kitchen and they kiss. And what a kiss... the kiss itself was Nice but the look Buck gave Tommy after the kiss was breathtaking.

From that moment on, I was rooting for them.

But I still had Buddie at the back of my mind because I was thinking, what if this is all temporary and they're planning to break them up to set up a buddie storyline? So I shipped it but didn't want to get my hopes up.

This feeling got bigger when I started watching 7x05 and I saw the way their first date ended. I thought... this is it, we might not see Tommy again, what a shame. But then Buck talked to Maddie about his date and confessed it was with Tommy. And Maddie asked: "so tell me about the hot pilot", and I thought this isn't how they'd talk about a character we never see again. But I didn't know for sure.

Maybe they were setting up a Buck x Eddie storyline....

I changed my mind when I saw Buck's coming out scene to Eddie, the scene was beautiful and at that point I still was thinking Buddie was a possibility. But one line made me think that Buddie wasn't happening: "I can't stop thinking about him".

No writer would put a line like that and have Oliver say it like that with that look, if they were thinking Buck and Eddie would have a romantic scene in the future. And if you do write that, you would get a jealous reaction from the other character, not a "You should call Tommy".

And then I was conforted in my feelings when the writers doubled down and had Buck invite Tommy to Maddie's wedding. Buck could have just apologized and asked Tommy on antoher date, but no, he invited him to his sister's wedding.

There has been absolutely no hint of a romantic relationship between Buck and Eddie throughout the season. There has never been a sign of jealousy from Buck or Eddie's side when they were dating Tommy, Marisol. If they had been setting up that storyline, the writers would put some hints here and there. Instead, they shared meaningful scenes like best friends do.

I never had anything againdt Buddie as a ship, I was even open to it, but all the times I thought Buddie was going to happen, it was because of the fandom, not because of something I saw in the saw...To me Buddie is and will stay a fanon ship.

TL:DR: I don't hate the ship, I find it cute but the behavior of some shippers has made me want to stay away from the fandom. And when I thought Buddie might be happening, the writers showed us they had long term plans for Bucktommy.

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The more I see crazy, unhinged anti-Tommy/BuckTommy/Lou takes from a certain subsection of the 911 fandom, the more I feel like Buck in S5 as he watches Chimney spiral over the video Maddie left as he desperately searches for hidden clues and meaning in every blink and head tilt.

In the words of Buck, "Do you really believe anything you're saying right now?"

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911 will simply never be queerbaiting under any circumstances. End of. A popular fanon ship not happening does not and will never outweigh the multiple queer romances that have been part of the show since day zero. Now, is there an argument for shipbaiting? Prior to this year’s midseason I’d have said no, but I do think they played a little too much pattycake with certain shippers in the midseason stretch this year, either not anticipating the inevitable backlash or not caring. So shipbaiting is a possibility. However never not once has the show itself or the video advertisement promo led anyone astray on this. ONLY some of the press articles and interviews, and it should be noted that the actors involved have always been noncommittal and vague, up until Ryan did folks the kindness of outright stating Eddie is straight. The shipbaiting is on the interviewers using a fandom for clicks, and the network allowing it for similar reasons.

That’s it.

It was not, is not, will never be queerbaiting. I honestly don’t think fandom in general even knows what that means anymore, I see the word being overused in my other fandom WWDITS a lot, too, where again it’s simply not true. “Queerbaiting” is not short for “my specific queer ship didn’t happen and I’m disappointed about it, which I’m allowed to be, but I want to rationalize my upset into an offense done against me so I can be angry instead of sad.”

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buck: *gets a paper cut*

bobby: *tears up the paper* HASNT HE BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH?!?

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I just pictured Buck getting into bed, ready to be the big spoon, when Tommy is quicker and big-spoons him and Buck brain just goes all "I have never felt like this before! What is this magnificent feeling? Is this what love feels like?! 🤯" and thus Little Spoon Buck was born.

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Tommy Kinard is that kind of guy who's always there for his friends, even if that means risking his life flying into a hurricane. he's that kind of guy who tries his damnest to show up to the hospital wedding after his shift just to be there for his boyfriend, because he cares.. ❤️‍🩹

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Buck appreciation post because he’s just so fine🤤🩵