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Just Me And You

Summary ~ You’re having a bad week which leads to you taking it out on your dad in the training room.

Warnings ~ Angst, swearing, mentions of depression, fighting

Everyone in the compound has noticed your sudden change in moods. Sometimes you’ll wake up sad and won’t speak or sometimes you wake up annoyed and ready to kill someone. Some people have spoken to your dad about it but he told them to give you space.

This week as been hell. You failed your mission which got you suspended, your grades have dropped massively, your eating as been bad and your night mares have been more frequent.

Your dad came back from his mission and made his way to the training room as everyone said you were having a bad day.

“Hey baby what you doing.” Your dad asks you walking over to you. You don’t bother to look at him “What does it fucking look like, your smart enough.” Your dad frowns at you and grabs your shoulder so that you look at him “I don’t know what’s been going on with you but sort your attitude out I am your dad you do not talk to me like that ever understood ?” You walk away from him making your way to your bag. “Whatever dad.”

“WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TALKING TO Y / N ?” You turn around to see you dad staring at you crossing his arms. Your roll your eyes and make you way out but Bucky grabs your wrists and pulls you into his chest. “GET THE FUCK OFF ME DAD.” You begin to kick him and hit him so that he looses his balance. He lays you down on the floor and pins your hands together above your head.

“Hey hey calm down baby it’s okay let it out. It’s just me and you.” You try to fight him off but he’s more stronger than you. After a few minutes you begin to calm down. He lets go of you and pulls you onto his lap.

Steve and Sam come in and walk over to you and your dad.

“Hey kiddo what’s been going on.” Your uncle Sam asks you. You sign sadly and shrug. The three men give each other glances and then look at you. “You know you can tell us anything but this isn’t healthy you shouldn’t bottle things up and take it out on others.” You look away from Steve and bury your head into Bucky’s neck.

After sitting down for 20 minutes Bucky picks you up and takes you to your room and lets you sleep.

“So what’s going on with her then.” Tony asks the three men. “We don’t know she won’t say anything to us, i’ll speak to her again when she wakes up.” Bucky responds to Tony.

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Look After You

Summary ~ You are Steve and Bucky’s daughter and they find out about your self harm and depression.

Warnings ~ Self harm, suicidal thoughts, depression, bullying, mentions of abuse, swearing.

Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes have been your dads since you were 5. They found you in a HYDRA base, alone, cold, beaten. So they took you in and treated you like their own. After you adjusted to your new life, they decided to adopt you. Your life was perfect until 10 years later.

You couldn’t remember when it first started, but you were getting bullied at school no one knew not even your dads. You would come into school and hear abuse being shouted at you and would also see it on your phone.

Your family could tell that you weren’t yourself anymore. Once school was over you would go straight to your room and wouldn’t say anything to you aunts and uncles. Your dads were concerned more than anything. They tried to talk to you but you isolated your self from everyone.

“Have you noticed something off about Y / N recently ?” Bucky asks his husband making his way to their bed. Steve signs and lays down next to the brunette “I’ve noticed it for weeks now, I thought it was girl problems but it’s something else.” They both look at each other sadly trying to think about what’s going on.

While your dads try to figure it out, you’re sat at your window watching the stars while holding a sharp knife. It’s the knife you always carry around with you in case of an emergency but now it’s used for something else.

You can hear thousands of voices in your head screaming at you. Tears stream down your face as you cry quietly so that no one can hear you. You begin to cut. You can feel the relief in you. You lean your head against the wall and thinking about ending it. You move the knife towards your wrist when you hear your door open.

“Y / N WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING ?!” You look up at your dads with tears streaming down your face you try to speak but nothing comes out instead you drag the knife towards your stomach.

Bucky rushes over to you and grabs the knife out your hands and pulls you on his lap so that your facing his chest.

“LET ME GO DAD LET ME GO.” You try to fight him off but your too weak, you attempt to kick him punch him hit him but he just holds you. You start to sob loud enough that everyone is awake. Steve shouts for Bruce and comes over to you.

“Hey hey sweetheart it’s okay Bruce is going to take a look at your arm okay baby ? It’s okay me and dad are here.” You can feel Bucky crying into your head. After a couple of minutes you begin to fall asleep you can feel Bucky picking you up in a bridal style taking you to med bay.

You groan as the light shines in your eyes. You look around the room to see a bandage over your arms and hand cuffs on your feet and hands. You look over to your side and see you dads looking at you sadly.

“Hey baby doll how do you feel ?” You can see that Bucky has been crying but don’t mention it. “ W - what happened?” Steve comes over and strokes your head. “We found you in your room, you were going to stab yourself and we noticed that your arms were bleeding so we rushed you to med bay. We didn’t know how you would react when you woke up so that’s why your restrained.” You can feel your eyes water as you turn away from your dads. “Why didn’t you tell us baby, we could have helped you ?”

You still don’t look at them but respond “You’re never here anymore. You’re always on missions and when you are here it’s like you don’t want me around. You only noticed what was going on because people told you, if they hadn’t then it would have worked.” Bucky and Steve look at each other is disappointment and guilt.

“Baby -

“Please leave me alone.” Steve and Bucky look at you sadly and attempt to try to speak to you.

Bucky comes over to you and squats down so that he can see you. “Baby doll i’m so sorry. I’m sorry if we haven’t been there for you. I’m sorry that we went on so many missions. I’m sorry you felt like that. I’m sorry for not being your dad. But remember this me and Steve love you from the bottom of our hearts okay ? I’m sorry this is the way you had to tell us how you were feeling. We are going to help you okay ? No one else just us three.”

Steve begins to take the cuffs off and lays down next to you and makes room for Bucky. They both hold you and whisper sweet nothings in your ears.

“I’m sorry baby girl.” Steve whispers to you.