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[everyonehateserik]

today, i am very proud of myself.

i went properly bathing in the fjord for the first time in three years.

when i was a kid, i was like a bloody mermaid. i loved the water. it was where i felt i belonged. i was a great swimmer and loved being below the water’s surface. it was as if time slowed down down there.

but then i got older. and i started hating my body. and hiding from the sun. and losing the joy in absolutely everything. i was severely depressed for a long time and was struggling to keep myself alive.

i’m better now. but not being in the water for three years has resulted in me being strangely uncomfortable in it. in a way i never used to be.

sure, i have gone knee deep a couple of times to keep people company while they bathe, but no more than that.

but i long to get comfortable in the water again. like when i was a kid.

the entire summer this far has been rainy, grey and cold. but today the sun showed itself.

so i changed into some shorts and went to the beach (i don’t even own swimwear it is that bad) and i tried to walk straight into the water and swim.

didn’t work. i gave up navel deep. i sat down on the dock and let my feet dangle in the water for a while, trying to convince myself to just drop myself into the water. that also did not work.

so i went down the ladder. submerged almost my entire torso. and then i took some deep breaths and just did it. let go of my grip on the ladder and released myself into the ice-cold water.

i immediately lost control of my breathing, but i managed to somewhat regain it. i swam to the nearest boat, touched it, and swam back to the dock.

it was only a small swim. i probably did not even spend a whole minute in the water. but i have not done anything of the sort in years, so this was a massive accomplishment for me.

i i think my next goal is to swim all the way around the boat. tomorrow is also meant to be somewhat sunny.

i want to learn to be human again.

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Solarpunk, realism, dystopia: a rant

Hopefully this is helpful to someone out there 🌸

You can find the Prompts podcast here, I drew some of the covers :D Also check out this digital library full of Creative Commons Solarpunk art (neither of these are sponsored).

🦗Somewhat shameful plug🦗

I would highly appreciate if you threw me a couple bucks on Buy Me a Coffee or bought a commission, my money number is only getting smaller these days 😔🤙

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i hate hospitals

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Space Rocks!🤘But Also ️Space Rocks!☄️

Asteroids: they’re ancient, rocky, and way cooler than you might think. June 30 is International Asteroid Day, a global event to raise awareness about asteroids and what we’re doing to study them. Here’s why we’re obsessed with them (and why you should be, too).

What are asteroids?

Asteroids are leftover building blocks from the early solar system, orbiting the Sun like planetary time capsules. Most hang out in the main asteroid belt between Mars and Jupiter, but some—called Near-Earth Objects, or NEOs—orbit closer to home. They range in size from 329 miles (530 kilometers) in diameter to less than 33 feet (10 meters) across.

Why do we study them?

Studying asteroids helps us unlock the origins of our solar system. 

In 2023, our OSIRIS-REx mission collected a sample from asteroid Bennu that could reveal whether asteroids delivered water and other ingredients for life when they collided with Earth billions of years ago.

Lucy in the sky…with asteroids? Our Lucy mission, which launched in 2021, is named for a fossilized skeleton of a human ancestor, which was in turn named for the Beatles song “Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds.” Lucy is the first mission to explore asteroids that share an orbit around the Sun with Jupiter.

A timelapse of the asteroid Donaldjohanson taken on NASA’s Lucy spacecraft. The images, captured approximately every 2 seconds beginning at 1:50 p.m. EDT April 20, 2025, show a white, irregular, elongated shape rotating slowly. Its surface is covered in small craters and has a rough, uneven texture. The asteroid appears bright against a black background. Credit: NASA/Goddard/SwRI/Johns Hopkins APL

What if an asteroid hits Earth?

NASA’s Planetary Defense Program uses telescopes to keep an eye out for asteroids and other NEOs, in case any get too close for comfort. Although a catastrophic collision is highly unlikely for the next 100 years or more, the telescopes detect smaller objects on a collision course with Earth a few times per year. No need to worry—these objects are just a few feet (meters) in size and cause no damage.

Rock on!

Hungry for more? Check out our asteroid portal for a cosmic crash course, or explore a real-time visualization of every known asteroid and comet classified as an NEO with NASA’s Eyes on Asteroids app.  

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[everyonehateserik]

i think i am being replaced again

maybe if i was prettier or less fucked up or less of a fucking downer you would like me more

i don’t wanna lose you

please you are the best thing that has ever happened to me i can’t

i love you

[everyonehateserik]

Your blog, for me, is like reading a newspaper before bed but instead of wordly atrocities, its filled to the brim with all the love, warmth, and comfort you could find. You go out into tumblr and trough the parrading abyss of thoughts fellings words and meaning you scavenge for all the little pices of people souls and trinkets they tossed out into the world hoping someone would find it. You careful pick up and collect everything here on this newspaper. That hugs me like the softest blanket, tucks me in gently to bed, and tells me that the world's full of love and lovely people like you. And its okay to be sensitive and small and feel everything like ocean waves because everything will be okay. And for now I can rest easy in peace. I love you friend. Sweet dreams <3

aditi:( u don’t know how much this means to me right now….. left this to sit in my inbox for like a day so i could like. let it sink in in my brain . literally don’t even know what to say … u give me so much motivation and hope 2 keep trying to love life in its Monstrous entirety i could actually explode. thank u :’) i will be rereading this !! at least 15 times this year !!!

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hey man, you are my favourite person.

hey man, when i see you happy i start smiling like an idiot.

hey man, thank you for existing.

hey man, you’re the best thing that has ever happened to me.

hey man, i never took off your bracelet.

hey man, i love you.

hey man, are you okay?

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having a resting bitchface is so funny because i'll be doing something relaxing, and really enjoying myself and my face will look like this

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Sometimes i might not look like it, with the way i’m expressing my misery here, but i love.

I love <3

[everyonehateserik]

sister, the difference between you and i is as follows:

when i fuck up, i try to find out what i did wrong. then i apologise for what i did wrong and i never make the same mistake again, or try to change for the better.

i never demand forgiveness. i accept that the person i have wronged may be mad at me for a long time, and i accept that as the consequence for my action.

when you fuck up, you never even try to find out what you have done. you just start apologising profusely and upsetting the person even more by doing so.

demanding forgiveness. starting to cry and scream like a small child when the person is not able to grant it immediately.

how come you are almost double my age and yet i have to be the bigger person in every single situation?

“quit being so rude, you will upset your thirty year old sister who has never done anything but sit on her ass all day and complain!!”

i’m sorry but i’m a sixteen year old trans boy with a lot on his shoulders right now.

i also have limits, and i also get upset when they are broken.

but i don’t seem to have the right to be upset.

i have to be nice and smiley and kind and funny all the time.

otherwise i tear the fucking family apart at the seams.

because my job is and always has been to be the industrial adhesive that holds the entire family together.

and although i love my job, being glue is fucking exhausting sometimes.

i’m sorry i raised my voice at you when you were being annoying.

i don’t expect you to forgive me.

but grow the hell up.

seriously.

[everyonehateserik]

i just need warmth and a fucking break right now okay i’m good i swear

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i love you ciabatta i love you brioche i love you focaccia i love you challah i love you sourdough i love you rye i love you multigrain i love you bagel i love you pita i love you pretzel bun i love you baguette i love you english muffin i love you naan

[everyonehateserik]

i am afraid i will become an alcoholic.

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again i am in that weird stage in life where i feel that i am either not myself at the moment, or that i am changing for the worse.

and i don’t know what is more frightening. not knowing who the hell i am, or not liking who i am turning into.

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my friends r so talented. rb if ur friends are talented

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wow i’m like kind of fucking annoying

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need mercy from everyone and everything in my life right now. why aren’t people kind ever…..