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March will be filled with happiness.

March will be filled with positivity.

March will be filled with progress.

March will be filled with opportunity.

March will be filled with kindness.

March will be filled with love.

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my sex drive needs to chill tf out

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2018 is the year of recovering from the past 5 years in every possible way

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I know why i have so many frustrating thought patterns and calls to suicide as my end all be all. It feels like I can’t help but trust the wrong people and they end up fucking me over when it matters the most. And it hurts. Like... REALLY fucking hurts. I don’t really get it. And its such a fuck over that it eclipses any semblance of a blessing that I might have come across prior to the fuckery. I don’t even know how to just be legitimately happy for more than a few days before the hodge podge of bad judgement rears its ugly head and reminds me that i aint shit. It’s crazy. I’m supposed to be animating.

I’m not. 

Supposed to be doing commissions.

I’m not.

Supposed to b applying to more of these fuck ass assistant manager positions.

I did one, but fuck that place and fuck me.

I used to think that at least journaling it and putting it somewhere that I can look and decide how irriational these thoughts sounds would kinda bring me back around but I don’t even care. Not in the slightest. 

I can’t even write good raps nowadays. I don’t even know what i’m saying half the fucking time. Im just rapping to rap or what the fuck ever. I was listening to some old music the other day and it was so inspired and I sounded like a reAL person as compared to the hollow piece of shit i’ve become. And it’s wild because it was only like 2 years ago. Making sonds about fixing my hair and how i don’t smoke but i appreciate what cannabis can do for people and all types of unique and inventive shit. Nowadays, I just dwell on that piece of shit duck adn his stupid whatevcxer and write about a bunch of scenarios im completely making up because my actual life is trash.

Can’t even trust people to go move in with them because they’re all coke addicts and potheads and fuckbois and dumbasses and it sutpago n;aoiwrmq 980vu b c798 hvbvmb v9maes879d. I don’t usually flip out on my keyboard often enough for me to break t tv his damn thing byt my god i have a lot of pent up rage and frustration that has no outlet.

NOTHING IS WORNOIUGnfrveuias 9uvdqt2 v9q38n wc. NOTHING IS WORKING. and I’m tired of nothing if I can’t actually BE NOTHING.

I was reading this article today about a machine for euthanasia being developed in Europe in a region that legals allows it. And my immediate thought was “bitch, let me 3D print that shit right now so i can handle my scandal right fucking now cause fuck life”. 

I reiterate, 

THIS

DOES

NOT

MAKE

ME 

LESS FUCKINGNGPDbaerbbreuoib irritated at all. 

It used to .

I don’t know what the fuck happened. They say happieness is something you work on daily and somehow you’ll end up reaching it if you’re dilligent in pursuing it or what not, but I just don’t believe that. I still don’t have a job that can sustain my independecny and i’ve been actively pursuing that for YEARS. Still not much of a real person to myself. I try and believe that I have friends but what is a friend that you come out the gate hiding things from? I’m just as trash as the fucks that keep entering my life.

I’m generalizing but my insecurities aren’t. They hate everyone.  I say

maybe

juuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuust maybe i’ll make it another year

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another eyes averted poost. this time i’m gonna at least leave them open and kinda stare in my peripheral because last time i was doing this shtit a damn window came up and i thought iw as typing but i was really just getting lit on windows otification panel. i’m highkey fucking heated that this. okay hol up. i  trust fairly largely everybody that’s in my circle. okay. okay??? i do. if you tell me something happened, i blieve you and i hoe that shit gets better if its unfortunate. and if it’s tight, i hope that shit happens to you again but forever. a friend of mine said he got jumped in east la walking to a friends car and they stole his wallet and debit card. now, i knoe easst LA is a tough place but this dude fought somene on hallowween and shit and he’s always like “yeah man, im a fighting ass mother fucker” and for some reason, i knew when I loaned him the money... he was gonna fucking lose it. like FUCK. i didn’t even need the money necessarily but you couldn’t just hold my shit down? like what the actual fuck. i know i should have just waited and picked my first choice but i was impatient. If you’re reading this, you should know i’m actually very annoyed that you’ve turned out to e such an untrustworthy mother fucker. I wish I could do people the way that they’ve done me ovwr the years. like, sympathy is beomcing overrated the older i get. whatever. i’m gonna go see the last jedi on friday and that’s basically the only thing i care about right now. fuck everything mostly. 

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All Star but it’s in a minor key so it makes you question life and realize the years start comin and they don’t stop comin

aka, the theme song to Shrek 9: Shrek’s Third Divorce

FEATURING THE AMAZING @allicatttx

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Sometimes, I like to close my eyes and type. I’m not even sure if what i’m writing is correct or whatever but I like to do it. I’m lying. This is the first time i’ve done this. No wait, I did it writing a verse once. I don’t know if that counts but I don’t like ling. I don’t like mispelling things either. I’m pretty sure I misspelled lying. I hate that I don’t wanna use the word hate nowadays. I’m proud that i’ve had a very good year in my opinion. And there’s kinda evidence it was good too There’s been strides made but in reality, I haven’t gone far enough forward. Like, my most exciting future endeavor is being an assitant manager at a pizza place. I don’t understand why exactly i’m okay with other people having jobs at maybe unfavorable places and me becing okay with it but if it’s me, i’m ashamed. There’s a lot of shame in my body. Permeating my soul. I still rap from time to time. People don’t ask for features anymore though. And if they do, i’m singing. I posted one video a couple days ago and the overall consensus was that it was liked. Even outside of the social media constraints or whatever. But I got a message from my mom, because she’s the hilarious detractor to all the stuff I do, and it asked me wy I made facial expressions when I rap. And I really had to think about it. One reason is because i’m trying to remember a verse I just wrote and it’s subconscious. I don’t do it on purpose 89 perscent of the time. In general though, i’m expressive. I wanna be more expressive next year. I wanna be able to show myself making imstakes. I want a following so I can teach them all the lessons that I seem to have a really hard time learning. I’m still gonna make faces in all my videos but I will try being statuesque in the next one for shits and giggles. I know my siblings are doing well. I know my biological  pops is good too. And his kids. I’m so out of place everywhere. That’s okay.A friend got jumped in LA. Or at least that’s what he said happened to him. And he lost the eighty bucks I loaned him. And I believe him because I like to think that karmafuck you too. Paing for your child is not care, caring for your child is care. I’ll never subsitute money for my kid. I don’t even know if i’ll have a kid. hit.  It doesn’t really matter if your parents 

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If net neutrality dies we aren’t getting it back. I just hope you guys know that. This government never fixes it’s mistakes until decades later if at all, and especially under Trump, they won’t ever fix their mistakes.

The BEST thing you can do is to call your members of Congress at 202-224-3121. Call three times, because you have two senators and one House representative.

Congress has oversight over the FCC, and they have stopped their votes before. Its vital you call them now, go to their local offices now (chances are there is one right next to you), and pressure them to take action. To actually go over there and stop them. To bring up all the lies the FCC is saying about net neutrality, about how they’re ignoring the lawsuit against them. WE ONLY HAVE 6 DAYS!!.

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This is the money pentacle. Reblog and unexpected money will come to you!

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you have been visited by the seven magic dragon balls your biggest wish will be granted but only if you reblog

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thats my only reason of keeping a tumblr tbh

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sometimes i go on my ex’s blog and like random stuff

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Self care has been staying off Tumblr, low-key.

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A look back on the times Republicans said Obama was disgracing the dignity of the presidency. 

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i applaud the follow thru