everythingwithinthemind

[everythingwithinthemind]

Third time's a charm

It's hard to tell what's right or wrong

My feelings for her are so strong

I've been feeling this way for so long

I feel like I could talk to her forever

However I don't want to be too forward

The last thing I want to do is scare her away

Still, I catch myself thinking about her every day

Maybe it's time to take a step back

I don't want to come onto her like an attack

Still, I don't want to lose her interest

I don't know how much time to invest

I don't want her to feel ignored, I want to see her and talk to her more and more

I just want someone to give me some advice

This feeling is crushing me like a vice

Whenever I talk to her, it feels so right

I wish I could be talking to her every night

Unfortunately, that isn't a possibility

Honesty, it's the most important thing to me

If I overstep these boundaries surely she'll flee

Yet, I could see myself with her so easily

She's so similar to me, we have so much in common

Her feelings for me make her so nervous that she feels nauseous

She hasn't been with a man in over six years

It's no surprise that I might be what she fears

I'm a risk to her, but one I hope she's willing to take

I want to talk to her now, but I've been leaving it up to fate

I was hoping that today was going to be our first date

The weather clearly wouldn't allow that to happen

There's a storm outside, and one inside my mind

Funny how things like this happen all the time

I wonder if she read this, how would she respond?

So much is beyond my comprehension

For all that I've written, she's been my inspiration

This must be so difficult for her

She would need to leave her lover

I'm worried about it, but I know this isn't a passing phase

I could see the way she was looking at me for all those days

I know she feels the same way when I look into her eyes

There are no lies between us, but she has to hide this from her girlfriend

When we're at work, I feel like we have to play pretend

There's so many ways that this could come to a bad end

Still, we both know that we want more than to be a friend

I know I could be more to her than just another lover

Moreover, I don't want to be a guy on the side

Evidentially, what's getting in the way is my pride

This must be so confusing for her, it's confusing for me too

If she is just doing this for attention, I would feel so used

What should we do? These feelings are so new to us

I'm lost in my feelings, but it must be even more difficult for her

I want to comfort her, but I don't know if she needs to figure this out on her own

Regardless of her choice, she will never be alone

Only I am the one that could be left on my own

I don't know if she understands what I've done

I'm just hoping that she's the one

I didn't know if she was the one until I saw that smile on her face

Eventually, everything will fall into place

No need to race, just let her set the pace and our feelings will never be erased

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Farewell

I've known this for way too long

I was right and you were wrong

With me, you did not belong

This feeling was always so strong

Please don't ever feel bad

I'm not even close to mad

Strangely, I don't even feel sad

He's the one for you

I know this is true

What you had will always remain

Still, our love will never fade

What we had was not in vain

No, I'm not in that much pain

As we laid there in my bed

These thoughts ran threw my head

I saw it in your eyes, I could not look up

Back then, the truth was a bit tough

In many ways, you helped me grow up

For some time, life felt unfair

But when I needed you, you were always there

You were honest, I needed your tender care

Farewell to you, you'll always be my friend

Farewell to you, I wish you happiness, even in our end

-EverythingWithinTheMind

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Masked

Bottle these emotions that suffocate

Open them up later to intoxicate

The more that you repress

The less that you confess

It's messed up in your head

You will try to forget

All that you regret

Bet, our stories are alike

Fight it with all of your might

Write it down, or try to hide

Protect yourself and your pride

Pieces of your heart, lost and scattered

Pieces of your soul, broken and shattered

Pretend that you are brave

Insecurities taken to the grave

-EverythingWithinTheMind

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Right Here

I'm grateful for everything that you do

I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you

It's true, you're always on my mind

You've helped me see when I was blind

I wished that you'd be more kind

That's not what I really need

That won't help me succeed

Tough love is what I was given

I was time to make a decision

I gambled and chose to go all in

If you don't try, you can never win

Within a year, it became clear

That I belong right here

With you my dear

Never fear, for wherever I steer

My life I know I'll be right here

That is, so long as right here

Is somewhere near you

-EverythingWithinTheMind

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Self Absorbed

Ive always been an artist at heart

I've felt this way since the start

I don't want anyone to see a working progress

I want to show nothing less than my best

Nevertheless, I must confess that I hide

I'm hidden because I have too much pride

I don't want to admit that I've lied

I thought I could do more than this

I took a chance, a shot I knew I could miss

I made a promise that I couldn't keep

The more I failed, the more I'd weep

It's been a dark time for me

So dark that I couldn't see

So dark. I've wished for my final day

No ray of light, no might, no hope

I've thought of grabbing a rope

Or overdosing like a dope

I'm only here altruistically

In reality, I know my limitations

I can only grow so much, and it's never enough

I can only get so strong, but I'll never give up

No matter how rough life gets

I'll try to tough it out

Even if I have to go without food

I'll do my best to fight my moods because

All I want is for you to approve

-EverythingWithinTheMind

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I Will Be Better

For weeks I've been fighting this depression

Repression of my thoughts continues

However, it's not my intention

I want my loved ones to feel happy

Even though I still feel crappy

I don't make enough to get by

I'd tell you I'm successful

Though, that's only be a lie

I strive to do better

But I don't make ends meet

Grief, I feel it everyday

I wish there was a way

To give you the support you need

I wish it wasn't hard to succeed

I need to feel accepted

I'm frequently reprimanded

I simply don't make enough

I knew it would be rough

I didn't think it would be this tough

I've never felt so low

Clearly, in my greatest foe

From here, where should I go?

Evidentially, I still don't know

I guess I'll just take it slow

Or try to go with the flow

-EverythingWithinTheMind

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Happily Addicted

I'm an addict, I'm addicted to training

I've been trying to recover, but I know I'm going to relapse tomorrow

I can barely last a day

What can I say?

I love metal

I love feeling it dig into my skin

I love the rush, the endorphins, the epinephrine

I'm addicted to that adrenaline

It's my heroin

I train legs till I run outside to vomit

You can tell me to be careful, I'll listen, but I'll never stop it,

Everyday is a new challenge and I'll continue to raise the bar

I'll keep pushing myself, but never too far

It's my favorite endeavor

Join me, I promise to make you better

-EverythingWithinTheMind

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Paranoid

Toxic thoughts are running through my head

Literally from the time I got out of bed

Hours I spent waiting for you at home

You were at the bar, you left me alone

Did you go far, where did you roam?

Stone cold, you clearly didn't care

I still wonder if you were even there

Arguing with me, let me see your phone

Turns out there's more, I should've known

No name, it's just someone's number

Who is this? I don't know, I can't remember

Clever, something's being kept a secret

Leave me alone, I already feel like shit

Threaten to break my stuff

That's it, I've had enough

I'm done with this, I'm done with you

For your remiss, I say we're through

I only wish you could've been true

-EverythingWithinTheMind

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Let Me Be

Some relationships are good, but others are toxic

You think the issues are acute until you realize they are chronic

They will want you to themselves, they want you to forget about family and friends

When they make mistakes, they're never responsible, they never make amends

Try to help others, because at heart you're empathetic

Your partner only wants you, otherwise they'll call you pathetic

If things don't go as planned, they'll make you feel sad

Al the while, they're upset with you, always getting mad

If you're open about you're relationship, surely they'll hate you

The reason is they'd become embarrassed, they hide what is true

They isolate themselves from others, they always put up walls

They want you to do the same, they want you, and that is all

-EverythingWithinTheMind

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I'm Yours

I love you endlessly, I always want you by my side

I care for you continuously, my feelings will never subside

I will always tell you everything, my thoughts I will never hide

I tell everyone that I'm with you, it's part of my pride

I can be more than a handful at times, take it all in stride

Through the good times and the bad, I've always tried

When I get lost within my mind, you've been my guide

I don't know where life will take us, I'll let you decide

If you move, I want to be with you, with you along the ride

For one day I hope to marry you, will you be my bride?

-EverythingWithinTheMind

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You're My Weakness

I want to be the one to brighten your day

When you feel hurt and can't think of what to say

I want to be the one there for you when you feel let down

The one to lift your heart when it seems as if nobody's around

I want to be the one that shows you day after day how much I care

Especially when it seems as if life just isn't fair

I want to be the one holding you when you're crying

When everyone around you if fake and they just keep lying

I want to be the one to give you all of my love when you're in need

The one that helps you through hardship, the one that helps you succeed

I want to care for you when you're feeling lonely

Even though it may seem at times that you have nobody

I will always be there

I will always care

My feelings need to be expressed, they must be shown

I love you more each day, more than you've ever known

-EverythingWithinTheMind

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Letting Go

Everything around me is falling apart

I wish there was a way to hit restart

Everyone around me is in so much pain

I know these people will never remain

I wish that I could keep them all

I resent the events that led to this fall

It's unbearably difficult to just let go

I guess I'll try to focus on my goals

No one's ever with you forever

Everyone focuses on their own endeavors

Family, friends, even the lovers

I know that they all will leave

I hope that they all succeed

If by chance, they never left

I'd be there to witness their death

Watch them as they take their last breath

Nothing lasts forever, this we know

No matter the circumstance, we must let go

-EverythingWithinTheMind

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Second Love

You know I think of you when you're away

You know I think of you everyday

You're eyes are blue and thoughts are clear

You know that I love to see you here

You love it when I hold you close

I cherish this time, and make the most

Of the moments I spend with you

We share our thoughts, our hearts are true

I know I'm not a flawless guy

I've made mistakes, I've made you cry

I promise if we make this last

In retrospect, we'll love our past

I'm here for you, I'm on your side

I'm here for you, for you're my bride

-EverythingWithinTheMind

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Because

You light me up

I burn you out

You're feeling down

I'll lift you up

But not for long

You're not that strong

You're not in control

So why not roll

Another joint

But what's the point

You want success

But you're a mess

So here you stress

And never the less

You look to me

To set you free

I'll show your greed

I bet you need

Another bowl

Until you roll

Into your bed

As I wait

I know you'll wake and look to me

Because

[repeat]

-EverythingWithinTheMind

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Prospective Progress

I've heard this time and time again

She won't change and that's the end

Can't you see where that path leads?

She doesn't want a man that will succeed

She just wants another deadbeat dirtbag

Whom she will later "love" and always nag

The aforementioned is not what I see

I see someone that will be with me

One that can learn and turn it all around

Never again bound to an abuser

Moreover a user with no real future

Her drive toward redemption begins with intervention

Suspension of doubt motivated by a desire to workout any issues that may arise

It's no surprise that change is on her mind

Blind, her ambition may seem

However, a dream becomes reality with training

Remaining focused, clarity overpowers the haze

Days pass by and at no surprise she found herself

No longer dependent, rewarded and commended

Sometimes the only thing a girl needs is the right guy to show her the right way

Not necessarily a nice guy, but a sentimental gentleman that pays attention to her needs and understands how to help her succeed

Retrospecitve Reflection (part two)

How could I tell her that I feel this way

Where her emotions are so hard to sway

I'm just another guy, is that what she thinks?

I guess I'll hide my feelings with another drink

Never mind, maybe that's a sign of insecurity

Over time, I'll learn the meaning of maturity

Is it as simple as learning how to trust?

Am I just chancing her due to lust?

I hope by now you can see the reasons

I lack the faith to continue another season

Yet, is it too much of someone to ask

Can we move on and forget the past

Even if things could never be perfect

We might find out later that it was worth it

If the answer is yes then just do your best

Not to be a pest and turn things into a mess

We can all find each others imperfections

However, struggle to make our own corrections

Attempting to be oblique is a weak sign

There are so many flaws within the mind

Revoke your sence of pretentiousness

Only if to expand your consciousness

-EverythingWithinTheMind

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I Am The One Who Knocks

I am the last trace of hope left after being conquered by fear

The emptiness and insecurity familiar when no one's near

The hollow creek in the walls that follows you

The sound you hear when no ones around

I am the falling darkness while happiness waits till morning

I am the shadowns on the lense of your eye

Lying in bad, awake, you shake, but no ones there

I am the one behind you when you're feeling scared

The invisible presence when you feel as if someone's watching

No ones there, it must be your imagination, just overreacting

I am the sense of doubt, the reason you scream and shout

The essence of rejection, the feeling of being left out

I am the truth you believe without evidence

There's no prof; yet, I still exist in your mind

I am what blinds you, I regulate your actions

The one that reminds you of your bad decisions

I am in your heart when it begins to race

I've been there from the start, anxiety that can't be erased

You hate me, but need me more than you know

I am here to stay, I will never go

-EverythingWithinTheMind

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Greed

Explain why we work like dogs while you live lavishly

Our pain, we try to save while you hog cash happily

Plain and simply, this aeristocracy is a travesty

A mockery to those who rose above and worked hard

Scarred by a life where we stand all day, work with our hands and still have to take shit from the man

Who planned this structure? Makes me wanna puncture their lungs with a shank then fuck their skanks

Thanks, oh no, this life is so great. I bet you create debt since you dictate the cost of everything.

You're pretending, lying, telling us there is a happy ending.

The market collapsed, while you stuffed your pockets.

Go home, while you're alone, put that money in your safe and lock it.

Stop it, this can't continue, do you have an ounce of compassion in you? Or is your only passion personal gains?

Distribute your wealth to those in need. As they say, our soldiers bleed while you live with greed

Indeed, it's time to digress. Maybe one day we'll live as one and progress, leaving behind this social mess.

-EverythingWithinTheMind