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Two days ago, I went to the University doctor to have a consultation with my mental health. I knew something was wrong; that I can’t handle it anymore. I was having a hard time seeping, my memory is becoming poor, my cognition gets worse every day, and I breakdown and cry almost everyday at any time and anywhere.

It wasn’t easy but today I must say that I am happy that I took the courage and consulted a professional. I got an anti-depressant prescription and so far, I feel better. Though I am not sure if it’s placebo effect or really the medicine working. Regardless, I’d say that this a great feat for me! #ProudOfYouSelf #MentalHealth

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Is the quarter life crisis? It feels like I made the wrong decision.

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Have you ever experienced:

- being confused with life?

- you have achieved your goals but you ask yourself, “so, what’s next?”

- you push people away but you want them in your life?

- saying “sorry” or opening up is the hardest thing to do?

- achieving success to make others proud of you?

— MN

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Sleep is my biggest struggle rn

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I hate why I am like this... fuck myself

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Why can’t I just quit or stop? Why is it so hard for me to tell people that I’m done..

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Note to self: Do not be selfish

If you are unsure, do not pursue.

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Last letters.

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Emotionally unstable in times of unhealthy physical condition and vice versa

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I am dying but no one notice.

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My heart got severed just now.

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I am really glad to see you again earlier. Gustuhin ko man makalimot at umiwas, tadhana na yata talaga ang nagtatagpo sa ating dalawa. 

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Nakakabaliw mag-assume.

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This is the first day of the sem. 

Just on first day, I already have numerous problems to solve. So many extra curricular responsibilites I need to attend to. I went to school earlier to settle a document required for my CWTS2 class. I wasnt able to fix it though. Not just that, I attended a meeting as well where I have gotten additional loads to carry, and responsibilities to take action on.

First day but it is physically and mentally exhausting given that there are no lecture classes yet. :(

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Current state.

I am being forgetful nowadays. 

I haven’t been able to remember things I am passionate about thinking/doing. I most of the time go skeptical when construting sentences cos I feel that it is incorrect. I can’t think of basic vocabularies I have very well used these past years. 

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Detaching.

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Forgive someone because you believe they are truly sorry, not just because you want to keep them in your life.

- Unknown (via thelovenotebook)