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mmmmm lowkey feeling inspired to design a 5th sleep token-related tattoo (still have to get the other 3 tatted lmao)

damocles be hittin so good. i can’t stop listening to it. it is 100% my favourite of the singles

anyways. i need a sword. on my chest. with a fancy, stylized sun behind the pommel (my mom’s very first tattoo was this super cute tribal looking sun and she wants it touched up and i want to get a similar one because i love hers so much)

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This is what Rasputin would've wanted.

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ooooohhhhh i am gonna crash tf out

firstly. horrendous experience at the movie theatre today which is really upsetting because that’s like. a safe place for me to decompress and i didn’t get that today

second. i have got so many clients being ridiculous and difficult at work right now (it’s literally only 2 people. but i am ✨not okay✨ rn so i’m being dramatic) and i am actually about to just walk away. i can’t make enough money to break even/survive so like. what’s the fuckin point anymore?

desperately need a new job but there is just. nothing. idk what to do. i feel so so so trapped and lost and i’m so burnt out and scared and angry

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lmao so on the way to the bush concert my sister and i were talking about how attractive gavin rossdale was in the 90s

get to the show, he walks out on stage, and the first thing out of my sister’s mouth- “he’s still hot” and she was so real for that. he really is. and a total weirdo in the most endearing way possible. what an excellent show!!

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YOOOO THE SUMMONING PLAYING BEFORE MY CONCERT STARTS?!

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All Canadians:

(or at least all Canadian citizens, which isn’t quite the same thing)

There is an election Monday, April 28th. That’s tomorrow. You need to vote.

If you received a voter card, it will have your poll location on it. If you didn't, you can find the location HERE (français). Elections Canada does not call voters - if someone called or texted you to say the time or location has changed, that’s fraud. Check the website for accurate information.

In order to vote you need EITHER a driver’s license or provincial ID card, OR two pieces of ID, one of which has your current address. A letter from your University or residence counts. (Proof of address is more important than proof of citizenship.) The full list of ID accepted is HERE (français).

If you didn’t receive a voter information card, you may not be registered to vote. But that’s okay!

YOU DO NOT NEED TO REGISTER IN ADVANCE TO VOTE IN CANADA.

You can register at the poll station on Election Day. It’s not hard and it doesn’t take very long, and you don’t need extra ID.

Voting is quick and usually simple. Polling hours depend on your province (français), but all polls will be open until at least 7:00 pm, usually later. (Note that in the Eastern Time Zone polls open late, at 9:30 am.) Your employer is required to give you time off to vote (français) if you need it.

Information for voters with disabilities is HERE (français). If you have feedback on accessibility or other issues, there will be forms you can fill out at your polling station.

If you got a mail-in ballot and you have not sent it yet, you can drop it off in person at your local Elections Canada office (français) or the address on the envelope, anytime before the polls close.

Here’s the acceptable ID list again (français).

EVERYONE GO VOTE.

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the one thing i really miss from my elementary and high school days is that as we got older, our mom implemented what she called “mental health days”.

basically she gave us sick days for when we just *couldn’t*. we could wake up any day, mentally feel absolutely in the gutter, and she wouldn’t question it or argue, we would get to stay home that day. mom would call the school, tell them we were sick, and then we’d have a gentle day at home (as gentle as it could be when your mom ran a daycare lol)

i really miss being able to wake up, know my brain is not in a good place, and saying “you know what, i need today for myself” without feeling guilty about it. because as an independent contractor that’s not an option. i do not get sick days. if i’m sick i still have to show up and walk dogs (unless i’m legitimately physically incapable)

just. today would’ve been nice to have for myself. and my job is the reason i feel like i need a mental health day. because i need to work on my coping mechanisms lmao. lost a $170 booking today because the client felt there was no communication. for the record- our company, when we have provided care for a client before, we do not send anything beyond whatever messages go through about confirming the booking. we only contact and meet first time clients so that we can verify info/be shown where the necessary equipment is.

but now i’m stuck sitting here trying to convince myself that losing this booking is not my fault. i didn’t know the client was freaking out until my contractor reached out. but also i could’ve been proactive and confirmed- even though it’s not standard procedure!- to keep them happy. idk. it feels like it’s my fault for not being proactive enough. especially because i have reached out to clients i had not seen in a long time in the past. so i feel like i’ve set a double standard within myself- why do i reach out to some but not others? but i usually only send those extra, unnecessary messages when something doesn’t feel right to me. if everything is normal then i follow procedure. i like having a protocol and i like sticking to it. idk. i’m just trying to cope with the guilt, and also the frustration over money because we changed our booking strategy and now it’s getting hard for me to get enough work.

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me at any given time: can we just buckle down and focus on the task at hand please???

my brain:

my brain: ……….ranibow sprimkle……………

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finally caved and made a side blog for my food!

if anyone’s interested it’s @exieskitchen

i made a bomb ass soup today and had to share and i feel like i need a space just for food so yeah. no pressure to follow i just wanted somewhere to document my kitchen successes because it’s my happy place :)

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i love love love how damocles has the most traditional song structure from a sleep token song.

like most of the time there’s no super clear distinction between verse/pre-chorus/chorus etc, the song just kinda jumps wherever it feels like. but damocles?? very straightforward. very structured. and obviously that’s a very clever design to really drive home the lyrics but man. i love it

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oh excelsis?!

mr. ghost man you can’t just throw a momento mori waltz at me in the closing song wtf

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i will forever love the fact that ghost is keeping hair/glam metal alive

as a religious watcher of the rock of ages movie i am so so so obsessed with this sound. my dad always put on hair nation if he was driving growing up, so like, hair metal was all i knew lmao

and ghost never fails to bring back those memories/that nostalgia. i love this band so much it’s so much fun

skeletá is a certified banger of an album

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I want you to remember:

The fascists hate you too and they just will pretend otherwise until after they've killed the rest of us, before they turn on you.

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listen as fans we need to be able to Hold Space for vessels emotions without catastrophising that every song is a goodbye

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tiny little thing but i adore the fact that they don’t edit out vessel’s breaths in the recordings

hearing a vocalist breathe while they’re singing is one of my all time favourite things. just makes it all feel like so much more to me. feels more real. grounded. authentic.

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the fact that they actually put in the sound of a (cassette) tape stopping running and being flipped after “the tape runs out on me” is just. fucking genius

again- vessel! vocals!! the enunciation is rocking my world. the melody on “nobody told me” is gorgeous

the piano. the guitar. i am really obsessed with the guitar without any heavy, chunky distortion. and i know they’ve done that in lots of softer songs but it’s different in this one and it sounds more like what i generally listen to outside of this band.

and just. “who will i be when the empire falls? wake up alone and i’ll be forgotten” those lines are gonna haunt me.