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throwback to when i said i wouldn't be a regular blog

but rewatching nrb's old videos (particularly deception 2 in zoom and another one i forget) adam says "chaotic neutral" so much that i can't think the channel's name is a coincidence

it was made and named quite a bit after he left but still

also laurie is my demon

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palestinian love poem by Fargo Nissim Tbakhi

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saw a post recently describing the marauder’s era fandom as ‘the worst mass delusion since the dancing plague’ and i was wondering what u think of all that? i don’t think we give jkr more traction which is what the post accused us of so i was just wondering your take is. i saw so many ppl agree with it and i was so confused (i realise u prob won’t answer this publicly but i’m too scared to ask off anon and i’m sorry for polluting ur ask box with this sort of negativity) love ahb! it changed my life

hi!! you caught me at a time when i had my computer handy so we're gonna have a little chat. you are NOT polluting my inbox and i think that these are important conversations to be had, so i'm gonna do my best to articulate my thoughts under the cut <3

i haven't seen the post so i can't really get into the thick of what that person was saying, but based on the context you've provided me here, i do wanna hit a few points.

i definitely grapple with the fact that my participation in this fandom can/could/and does lead to more traction (increased relevance/visibility/revenue) for jkr inadvertently. i think that the very nature of being in this fandom, in whatever capacity, but especially for me as a fic writer, means that i cannot sever myself entirely from her views and actions and act as if i am operating in a sphere completely free from her influence and traction.

i can make my stance clear. i can denounce jkr and her views, i can take actions to counteract the harmful rhetoric and real violence she seeks to enact on the trans and other marginalized communities. i can use the power of my dollar to ensure that she never sees a single cent from me. not from merch sales, or theme park visits, or new book editions, or lego sets.

but, at the end of the day, i can't agree with the sentiment that "we don't give jkr more traction" because we do. and i see it happening all the time. people in the marauders fandom still go to the studios, still buy official merch, still give her money. and the part where i struggle a lot....is in the way that fics and fic reading has become more promotional in content w the rise of tiktok fandom spaces. which, inevitably, may (and does) encourage people who once liked harry potter to re-enter the fandom in a new capacity. and i can't control what they do and how they spend their money and where they go etc. all i can do is make my stance clear, and put my money where my mouth is.

but i am always aware of it. that i have a harry potter fic out there and it's an easy read and an au so not hard to get behind if you're new to the fandom. i'm not out here recruiting people into this space, but sometimes, with tweets and tiktok posts that anyone can view, i know that it happens. and if someone stumbles across my fic and gets into the marauders and decides to watch the marauders reboot??? that's not something i can control. but it IS something i think about. a lot. all the little ways that being in this fandom can lead to more jkr traction.

i would love to be like "no! fuck jkr and i wash my hands of it,,, i'm not giving her traction." but i think that would be disingenuous and superficial. just because *I* am not giving her money doesn't mean that the collective *we* aren't. because *we* are. and my fics may help that along in minute but unignorable ways. i do my best to mitigate and counteract the potential harm, i'm starting to add notes in my fics and on my navigation asking ppl to keep comments/thoughts/opinions in my tumblr ask box and ao3 comments only and off twt/tiktok/ect but i also cannot confidently say that my presence in fandom doesn't provide jkr any traction. i was talking to a friend abt similar topics a while ago (s/o rae) and they were like "in an ideal world harry potter fandom would be like a closed practice and die out eventually" and yeah. exactly. but as it stands today, it's not a closed practice, and i think it's important to be mindful always of the impact you're creating. i don't think most if any of us here sit down to "promote" harry potter or the marauders but obviously, with the reboot that's happening, there is some influence happening there.

i love writing in this space, i love writing in this fandom. i love this little corner of the internet that we've carved out, i love the friends i've made in it. the stories that are being created in this space are kinder and more diverse and more reflective than the source material, and the fandom has brought me and many others a lot of really great experiences. but that contradiction (i reject jkr and her politics but i still create fics/art/videos rooted in her works ... or even if you eschew canon and work strictly in au's you're using her characters from the original text) is always there. and there are always going to be ties back to her. and i don't think it negates the value of the stories we're telling, but i also don't think it's something we can just ignore and pretend to be be innocent/ignorant of either.

okay this was so long and rambly but those are my thoughts. i think the topic is messy to grapple w for me <- girl who is horrendous at being articulate but hopefully this lays it out somewhat?? <3 kk love you never feel bad abt sending me asks like this beloved <33

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Just in case it’s not abundantly clear where I stand- fuck JK Rowling, and ace/aro people, you are so SO valid and loved.

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i think the reason i like jegulus and wolfstar together is because i love the dynamics that come from the four of them interacting. james and sirius? pure chaos. remus and regulus? judgy motherfuckers. black brothers dynamic? i eat it up every time. remus and james? commiserating about the quirks of dating a black brother. sirius finds out and remus already knew? a classic. just great dynamics all around, imo.

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kind of weird how parts of your soul are left in various locations without any warning… like yes i’m always at the top of that hill, sitting at the bus stop, in the cool light of the Japanese restaurant, standing at the pier etc etc

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prompt: friends ༉ @moonwater-microfic ༉ word count: 445

cw: mild sexual content, mdni, credit to @indigostation for the ‘little dove’ nickname, regulus is down bad (as he should)

“this means nothing,” regulus mumbles as he tugs remus’ gryffindor tie to his chest as their lips meet in a searing kiss

remus smirks into their kiss, “whatever you say little dove.”

his voice is teasing and amused yet it has regulus weak in the knees.

he doesn’t do this. have hookups, he’s a pureblood raised in a ‘date to marry’ culture.

it’s unimportant that it’s subsequently also the same culture that holds a special preference to such incestous pairings.

nevertheless, regulus had always planned to be a ‘one and done’ man.

he watched as his brother paraded around his own flavours of the week and any idea that seemed to be dubbed the ‘sirius black way’ had thus removed any will he once had to commit such acts.

which is why it was so suprising to find himself thrust against the bookshelf’s in the hogwarts library being quite decently snogged if he did say so himself.

by one of his brother’s gryffindor friends no less.

remus lupin was an enigma, a quiet, witty and sarcastic enigma that regulus stood no chance against.

the taller boy has him caged tightly against the bookshelf’s, old hardcovers wedging themselves into his vertebrae yet the slightly chapped lips meeting his own cause him to lose all sense of reality.

he knows he is well and truly fucked as soon as remus’ arms travel from where he leans down to meet regulus’ kiss to thread his hands through his dark curls.

regulus lets out a squeak that is equal parts embarrassing and arousing as remus growls into their kiss before tugging his hair.

let it be known that regulus black has never claimed to be a person with a strong sense of authority when stood before a tall, pretty boy.

regulus shamelessly hooks his legs around remus’ hips and arches his back to curl himself further into remus’ body.

remus detaches their lips which has regulus whimpering at the loss, breath hitching however as remus trails his lips down to his neck before sucking what he knows will be a prominent dark bruise tomorrow morning.

“still mean nothing?” remus whispers as he nips regulus’ ear with suspiciously sharp teeth.

regulus takes a moment to come out of his lustful daze, blinking his eyes owlishly before shaking his head without talking.

remus tugs regulus by the chin to lock eyes with him, “words, little dove” remus says, confident yet with a flicker of hesitation in his gaze.

“no, this means something” regulus whispers, lips glossy and pupils blown.

remus smirks wickedly before regulus pulls him back into a teeth-clashing kiss that leaves them both breathless and giggling like children.

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schrödinger's flirting. i mean it as much as you do

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in these trying times i want to go over all of the joy and growth that has happened in the nrb community recently:

little blogus gracey, teri joining blampco, botc live, the us cruise, holly's pokemon day, dan's acting career, rekha's kickstarter, grubbs, and i'm sure there is so much more going on behind the scenes with these wonderful humans.

i'm a us fan and this channel and these people have brought me so much joy over the past 2 years. with everything so ugly over here i wanted a reminder that it's beautiful elsewhere and can stay that way.

sorry to be a sap

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As transgender people continue to suffer and records are being erased in the US' fascist administration, remind yourself and others of this:

Trans people have existed as long as civilization has. Trans people have always been the largest advocates and fighters for human rights. Trans people have touched all the art, music, and cultures that bring color to our lives. And of course- trans people (mostly trans women of color) were at the frontlines at Stonewall, and they are the reason we have come so far with queer rights. If you can't recognize the intersection between trans rights and human rights as a whole, then you stand for nothing.

It's LGBT with a hard capital T, fuck anyone that tries to erase history.

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Love love love

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actually if we’re mutuals we are valentines. no takebacksies.

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hey so i probably won't become a regular blog but i just wanted to say i've been seeing people putting videos up from the live botc games with jon, adam, sully, holly, ken, and tilly and i love them all so much. i was also able to catch jon's stream with adam and teri and it was so wonderful.

adam genuinely seems so overjoyed just to be back with his friends in this setting and it warms my heart so much. the sully x adam relationship is going strong with the live proposal and wedding and it seems that he is healing which i love for him.

regardless of how you feel about the whole situation, adam blampied brought so much joy to all of us in his tenure at nrb and he deserves that joy.

remember he is human and so is everyone at nrb and co. i cannot sign up for his patreon atm and i doubt any of the crew would see this but i felt it needed to be said.

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can we normalise drawing marlene in crop tops so short that you can see some underboob

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"that trope is so overused in fanfiction"

no. i have never once looked at fanfic and thought "i wish there weren't so many amortentia Aus" "i wish they didn't always have that Oh, Oh moment" "i wish there weren't so many jokes alluding to canon"

in fact, i want more. make more silly little jokes about reg drowning. give me the oh moment again.

i will read the same trope over and over again, that's what fanfiction is for

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charlie dalton: maybe in another universe my best friend isn’t dead.

another universe…

the poets and the marauders, different world same heartbreak