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My Body is a Tree (Trigger/Sensitivity warning: chest dysphoria discussion)

I was having a contemplative moment a while back and decided that my body is like a tree. What grew on my chest is natural, sure, but I don’t feel a connection to it. Shelf mushrooms are also natural, but are not a part of the tree.

Just because my body, my trunk, grew these... doesn’t make them mine.

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Words

Some words are acknowledgement to me, they say “I see you.” 

Others are meant as a kindness, but feel wrong.

A gendered word is kindly laid on me and it slides off, like fabric off of glass. 

It’s so wild, this feeling... It cements that this really is integral to me. I didn’t pick it up and put it on like a pair of shoes, this is a part of me just as much as the color of my eyes. 

To those who gender me with kindness, thank you. I hope one day I can share my full self with you so that you will know my words. 

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Greetings

Welcome!

This blog is for the purpose of posting various different thoughts about existing in a body as a nonbinary person. These are my own experiences and feelings; that said, I hope that some will find a space to feel seen and others a new perspective. 

-Existing