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Sounds about right. There’s this story that I’ve visited 1299 times in 4 months alone. It’s pretty much the only thing that’s keeping me looking forward to the next day.

There’s this fic on AO3 that, according to my history page, I have visited 176 times.  Which means I alone am responsible for 176 hits on that fic.  I commented on some of the chapters, but only a few, because I feel like a stalker when I comment every week.  I gave it kudos, but I can only give it one, even though it’s one of my favorites.

So just remember, when you’re looking at that hit count and wondering why you don’t have that same number of kudos (divided by the number of chapters, because each one of those also counts as a hit), it might be because some people out there love your fic.  They read it when they’re feeling down.  They open it in the waiting room at the doctors office, or in the lonesome dark of night.  They turn to it in celebration when they did something right.  They open it over and over so they can send the link to their friends, or just to revisit the characters that they love.  They checked it ten times in one day, hoping that you had updated.

A disparity between hits and kudos does not mean that your readers didn’t like your fic, or that they were too lazy to hit the kudos button.  It means that some of them came back, and there’s nothing that makes me happier about my writing than that.

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Hell world

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help

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knock knock, are you at home brain? its time to start working hellooooooo!?!?

the great british bake off always comes through with the relatable content

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Ao3 writers are the strongest Avengers

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They really should teach people how to cook in school.

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Ao3 writers are the strongest Avengers

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BLACK WIDOW (2021) dir. Cate Shortland

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Natasha, Yelena, bucky, how do you get away with murder?

Also, Loki, we stan a Bi king

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You’re a regular office worker born with the ability to “see” how dangerous a person is with a number scale of 1-10 above their heads. A toddler would be a 1, while a skilled soldier with a firearm may score a 7. Today, you notice the reserved new guy at the office measures a 10.

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MCU Breakdown: Black Widow, Part 1

I can’t believe this is happening 😭

First of all, congratulations to all of you who’ve been here all these years. We got it. We begged for years, and it’s finally here.

For once I wasn’t dreading revisiting this film to write down what I got from it. I felt more like I might not do it justice. This film is so special to me, but here it is, the MCU Breakdown of Black Widow, part 1 (of who knows how many).

I remember back when I started running this blog and talking about a hypothetical Black Widow movie that had never been announced, always “yeah, we would be happy to do it, maybe, someday in the future”, and arguing that it would be important for women and girls, no matter its content. I’m so glad we got it like this. So, so glad.

The rest under the cut.

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#peak sibling behavior

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My last rant about black widow: all these fans complaining that the villain in this movie was weak and they didn't care about him enough when he died...I think that the mf point. The man was abducting, abusing, killing, mind controlling, and conditioning girls and women in what is supposed to be an allegory to the horrors of human trafficking. He's not meant to be the star of the show, he's exactly what he needs to be: a cockroach that's hard to kill because they always are. You don't need to care about him, there is nothing redeemable. Sometimes people are evil and that's it. If you felt nothing when he died, good. You should feel nothing except vindication for the girls whose lives he's stolen. Not everyone is a Killmonger or a Thanos or a Vulture. Sometimes bad guys are part of a system or institution, which means they're clinical and sterile because that's what you get out of monsters that "recycle" stolen girls.

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You know what I can't stop thinking about after seeing the Black Widow movie? The fact that Natasha was 8 when she got put on the Ohio mission. She already had years of training in the Red Room. Her innocence had already been stripped away.

And then she was placed on this mission with two strangers who she knew would probably keep her in check with Red Room expectations.

And with a toddler. A small 3 year old child who she knew had probably just been either taken from her family or picked up off the streets. A girl who had not yet experienced the same horrors that she had and still had a brightness in her. And Natasha probably knew that this small little blonde girl was eventually going to be subjected to the same horrors as herself. But at least she would get a normal childhood first.

I can't stop thinking about the mental gymnastics and trauma that young Natasha must have gone through during those three years. Having to pretend not only for strangers, but also Yelena. Constantly wondering what Melina or Alexei would do if she made a wrong move. Having nightmares. Wondering when the paradise would end.

I can't stop thinking about how as time went on, Natasha probably lowered her guard. Began to pretend that this was real. Began to believe that she had loving parents and an innocent little sister. Began to think that maybe the Red Room was just a horrible dream and maybe she wouldn't have to go back.

I can't stop thinking about how the day when it all came crashing down and she was separated from her parents, and then her sister, that was the day that all of her walls went back up, stronger than ever.

Yelena didn't understand that her life in Ohio was fake and wasn't prepared for the horrors of the Red Room. But I can't stop thinking about how traumatic it would be to have a taste of a normal childhood only to be thrown back into hell, never to see your pseudo family again for 20 years.

I can't stop thinking about how strong that makes Natasha Romanoff.

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chosenprat:

I punched a guy bc he was making rape jokes and one of the things he said was “what’s the difference between yes and no? Nothing” so I asked him if he’d care if I punched him in the face and he said yes but I did it anyway since there’s no difference between yes and no and that’s the story of how I gave someone a bloody nose

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My roommate and his girlfriend got in the shower together and they’re… Talking about politics?

I was expecting to hear “OH GOD, HARDER,” not “George Washington was entirely correct in his prediction of what distinct parties would do to politics as a whole.”

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i need feminism because when jesus does a magic trick it’s a goddamn miracle but when a woman does a magic trick she gets burned at the stake