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Also I didn't want to make this a recovery blog because it was meant to be fandom related lmao

Hello wonderful people, I just wanted to say that I’m going to be inactive for probably quite a while because I want to focus on my recovery. Often while just scrolling through Tumlbr I stumble across some triggering stuff that I just simply want to avoid as much as I can until I’m strong enough to resist the urge to relapse. So goodbye i guess? x

(I know that no one cares lol)

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Hello wonderful people, I just wanted to say that I'm going to be inactive for probably quite a while because I want to focus on my recovery. Often while just scrolling through Tumlbr I stumble across some triggering stuff that I just simply want to avoid as much as I can until I'm strong enough to resist the urge to relapse. So goodbye i guess? x

(I know that no one cares lol)

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Has this been done yet

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me, beating myself with a stick: stop *smack* crushing *smack* on *smack* every *smack* person *smack* that *smack* shows *smack* you *smack* the *smack* smallest *smack* amount *smack* of *smack* affection *smack smack smack*

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Let’s take a minute to pray for Phil Lester’s hearing. It must be pretty fucking terrible by now

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little things i’ve learned:

one: pay attention to the music you’re relating to. sometimes it’s a clear indicator that something is wrong. other times, it’s an indicator that something is very, very right. when the latter happens, pay extra close attention.

two: true control is subtle, not obsessive. you may not even know that you have it when you do. people who are in control do not question it. they just are.

three: never pass up the opportunity to stick the tips of your fingers out the window of a moving car. feel the wind carry you to the sound of your favorite songs. this is a reminder that you’re alive.

four: thoughts don’t have to mean anything. you can just let them be there.

five: notice when you’re struggling and allow yourself some leeway when you do. however, learn the difference between giving yourself leeway and enabling your struggle. 

six: you cannot build self-love from a foundation of self-hatred. first, work toward self-acceptance. love will follow.

seven: do not love others simply because they love you back. do not expend your love on people who won’t love you back. 

eight: don’t forget to stop and look around. take a moment a day to stop doing and just be. the mindfulness hype isn’t overrated. there’s a reason for it.

nine: setting limits and saying no will not end any relationship worth keeping. 

ten: friendships built on moments of competitive misery are not healthy. if you find that you’re having the urge to constantly showcase your misery around someone, take that as a red flag. sadness is not a competition you want to win.

eleven: recovery is not about being happy. some days you will feel bored and flat. but these days are still better than those you built around destroying yourself. these days are still victories. recovery is about being alive.

twelve: when you’ve built an identity around being sad, the concept of happiness may scare you. giving that sadness up will strip you of most everything and leave you feeling empty. embrace this emptiness and fill it up with exploration. you’ll find that it’s worth it.

thirteen: you will not come out of your coldest days the same as you were going into them. this is not a bad thing. someday, you’ll be warm enough to feel the sun on your face again.

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asking for help is not selfish

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HYPED for spooky week on danandphilgames! 〣( ºΔº )〣

@danielhowell @amazingphil

Please don’t repost, reblogs are appreciated!

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happy international phannie day

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I’m antisocial, yet social. I don’t talk to people first, but when someone talks to me first I’m up for talking to them. Some days I’ll be really talkative and friendly and other days I’m just in my shell like nah today ain’t the day for socializing.

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Phil talking about how he’s more sensitive and emotional now that he’s older? 

we love a man breaking down toxic masculinity

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Happy National Coming Out Day to those who cannot come out. You are loved. You are valued.

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There’s two types of Autumn:

the bright, colorful, happy autumn with pumpkins, apples, candles, and great food

the dreary, dark, creepy autumn with overcast and rainy skies, scary forests, cool temperatures, and halloween

And I love them both!