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Love Letter

P.S

My First love letter to the man who complements my muchness and voidness.

 Hello,

My lover, who continuously flirts at me, ( but sometimes you could be so lame Hon )

My bestfriend, who I can confide silly and gruesome stuff that we both get to laugh and mad at, ( well, mostly I’m the one who easily boils up )

My support, who finds the strong-willed woman in me,

My Man-whore, who can unleash the naughty side of me, *winkwink

My sunshine, who brings light to my gloomy days ( Oh well, you bring some gloomy days in my life too hahaha  )

My eternity in this finite world.

My anchor, who keeps me grounded at all times,

My sanity in my madness, ( we could get too INSANE, often )

My happy pill, who brings color to my life,

My soulmate, who can feel my abundance even at the opposite end of the world,

My Yin to my Yang, a total opposite, yet we go along just fine, so fine,

My gay friend, who radiates too much manliness I couldn’t even contain, ( consider me calling you gay this time )

My man, who I can envision establishing a future with ( let’s get filthy rich )

These and so much more, you are to me my love.

I’m glad you are mine and I could call “ mine & mine ALONE “ so Bitches, Get lost!

*flipshairbackandforth

 Even at the other side, I do hope that you’ll have the truest essence of a merry Christmas and you’ll feel the warmth of my love.

  Love me like mad in this sane world.

- xoxo Chloe

*flipshair!

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Always keep the Red Flags at bay

Lurking Thoughts 

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Discreetly haunting

I’ve been a daydreamer of a a romance that would totally sweep off my feet.

However, for the past relationships I had, it ended or more like it started off in the midst of a whirlwind, foreseeing the tragedy ahead. And it did. Sadly.

I am devastated, blaming myself, rewinding the events that lead to this, shaking off the haunting thought of his face, his voice, his laugh, smile, facial expressions, and body gestures that I was once fantasizing the whole day.

Another thing is my helplessness, I was in a long distance relationship with him for over a year. Trying to mend things with him would definitely not work out, if I was the only one trying, of course.

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How to keep a relationship

Talk about things, the good and the bad.

Be honest

Be faithful

Be there for one another

Make time for each other

Leave the past in the past, especially ex’s. 

Know that arguments are normal

Know that you always won’t get your way

Don’t expect change

Appreciate the flaws

Appreciate each other

Become best friends

Lastly, love each other unconditionally. 

(c) Thoughts of a Real Man 

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Quantum Leap

Loving oneself is easily said than done.

Detaching oneself from the firm grasp hold of a venomous relationship, person, or lifestyle can be liberating once you take the first leap of doing so. 

 It can take you farther, set you further, and bring forth peace and serenity. 

 It’s not easy. It won’t be easy and there’s no easy way out.

It’s a slow timid process, but once you get to go with the rhythm, the pacing would most likely be consuming. You get to dig a deeper connection with your inner self and decipher which sensible things should remain with you as you go to the pits of the unknown. By then, you’ll be wise enough to drop off the baggage and travel light. 

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STOP. CHANGE LANES.

Never fear to alter lanes, if need be. 

Going by yourself is always better than tagging someone along who wants to over ride your journey. 

Trust your instinct enough to change gears and swerve off the lane. 

It could be catastrophic in the end. 

Be kind enough to say your good byes and see you never, drop him off and just speed off the highway. 

It’s therapeutic. 

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Do not limit the power of God

Lurking thoughts

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TA -DAAA! 

so, yeah. Thanks to my Samsung Galaxy S6 Edge.

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APRIL 08,2016

Graduation Ball 

Trust me, behind the glamorous face was the pain of being a girl - wearing the 5-inched sandals and standing most of the time. 

Nonetheless, it was a blast. Never felt so bitchy and dreamy all at once with my rad friends 

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Sensible, somehow

I have to heal in my own time and pace. 

I have to fight for myself.

I have to stand for myself.

I have to LIVE for myself. 

 I won’t bother taking someone else’s issues anymore. I couldn’t even handle  mine. 

I could no longer face the same pain, the same struggle again and again. 

I feel like I am loosing myself in the process of trying to always understand  someone who wouldn’t even let me in. 

I have to allow myself to heal. 

I have to let go of the things that inflict me this pain and misery. 

I have to breath a anew and replenish myself

I will give a chance to myself. 

I will and have to love myself.

In no time, this will be over. 

I will be me, again.

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Doing things for the first time, could bring so much happiness and newness in oneself. I should do it more often. It brings purpose and makes me wanna do more because I CAN DO MORE THAN WHAT I THINK I AM CAPABLE OF. It’s just a matter of thinking. 

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Thank you Lord for giving me life, a chance to live everyday, a chance to know the truest sense of living. Living with purpose in you.

Lurking thoughts 

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Bits & Pieces

People you meet 

Situations you face

Circumstances you overcome

Even mistakes, of course, It’s the best teacher throughout our lifetime.

They are all intertwined in a bigger loop for something brilliantly crafted.

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I can do so much, I could create something form ordinary, I could envision a good path,  ( it’s just which way to go that quite got into me ) I could do interiors, I could do stuff amazingly, I can come up with crazy ideas, I care for the people, isn’t that a rewarding thing? I could observe people, things surrounding me, evolving  into something more captivating to the soul. You see I have all these potentials.I have the capabilities.I am fully able because I have God. 

I’m taking course into the brighter side of everything now. I won’t let anything nor anyone tampered the foundation I am slowly building for myself, making it even more secure it’s sturdier than it has been. 

This is me in full spectrum of vibrancy, against all odds, liberating the hunger of living in its truest sense. 

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My life and my thoughts are pretty much messed up, as you can observed on my earlier entries. Now is the time for me, well it has been a long time since I really have to pick myself up from this distress. I’m no damsel in distress. I am wonder woman!

Chloe Jhane Genargue | Lurking thoughts 

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Beat the Odds

It’s funny how I am writing this entry in a crowd. It’s funny how I could come up with words: a reflection, a miniature of the vastness of my chaotic thoughts. 

It’s funny how I could concentrate despite the outer distraction of the environment. It’s comforting.

It’s funny how I realize at this very moment that I am growing, that I am about  to go where I should’ve been. Perhaps, this is a part of my journey, that this is just another phase I have to overcome and not get stuck on it longer than I should.

This is the perfect time to redirect the course of my path. The path to redemption. 

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Waging Internal Wars

Here's the thing, mostly people in our society don't really entertain the idea of the existence of mental disorder. Most of them think that people suffering from it would simply snap out of it, easily compared to spacing out/ daydreaming. How convenient if things would just end like that. But hell NO. There's more to it than you could ever imagine. There are a lot of contributing factors why things  ( mental disorder ) like that exists. We all went and go through different situations and experiences, of course, in a daily basis and that my dear could simply trigger the first phase occurrence of it. We all have different approach and attitude towards life ( being positive, looking on the bright side ) , but things like hormones, chemical reactions in our body exist at the same time. And that's another contributing factor for mental disorder.  My point is, WE SHOULD GROW UP!, perhaps consider shutting your mouth if you don't have better things to say. Say a prayer for those suffering and try to understand more not just from your own perspectives. 

This is from another person suffering from depression.