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Let us pretend that I’m still not over you, let’s pretend that I’m still wishing you to come back, and that I’ll accept you in grandeur and I’ll promise that I’ll be a better half for you. Let’s pretend that you are still my ideal guy, and that I would choose a life with you rather than with anyone else. Let’s pretend that even though how much you did hurt me, since it’s you coming back, I can disregard those mishaps. Let’s pretend I’m writing this for you, and wishing you to really come back in between the spaces. Let’s pretend that this will be the last paragraph I’m dedicating to you.

Let’s pretend, that I’m just pretending.

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It’s so easy to get lost into someone when you have strong feelings for them. It’s so easy to completely ignore everything about yourself as you spend most of your time learning them, trying to make them happy and talking to them. Love, we believe, is such a difficult thing to find that once we find someone we could share it with, we try to keep it by focusing too much to that person that we forget who we are or how our life was before them. This, I think, is a common mistake that we always commit.

It is not a myth that we have to love ourselves first before considering to share an intense relationship with someone. It is important to get lost into ourselves first as we try to acknowledge every part that made us, us. We have to spend time exploring ourselves to the innermost corner of our souls so we would know our worth and not put it in the hands of someone who just came into our life.

We have to understand that we are already whole and complete before them that if ever they decide to leave, we are not less of a person because of it. We are not worthless just because they didn’t find enough reasons to stay. We are not lost without them because we are our own person and nobody dictates who we are but us.

So spend time to get lost with yourself and you will find how amazing of a person you are.

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Let’s take a trip down memory lane….

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Somewhere in my deep deep thoughts I still find my way and get lost.  “Oh, things I forgotten.” 

As I made way, finding a way out. I sense a familiar feeling.  Looking at a familiar face. 

Down there in my deep, deep thoughts.  I locked you down.  For years, I did not remember. 

For years, I did not hurt.  For years, I have forgotten.  Asked myself. “Have I forgotten at all.” 

Deep in my thoughts I thought was an escape But love, how can ever forget your face? 

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7/∞ edits of my bias

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Eh bat pag kasama ko sila ang nakikita ko lang sa sarili ko e wala akong kayang gawin parang hindi ako magaling basta ang hirap iexplain.

Dapat ang nararamdaman ko kapag kasama sila napakagaling ko tipong pagkasama mo sila mafefeel mong woah napaka talented mo

AH BASTA 

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Mahilig ako sa tragic stories pero ayoko naman dumating yung panahong magiging tragic din ang story ko

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debut/mama || love me right

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That’s why I love him so much. 

xiumin going from 0-100 real quick

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luhand vs minsweat

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Pagtrato sa babae

Take time to read.

"Yung simple lang. Hindi sobra. Yung hindi rin kulang. Yung sapat lang.

Yung sapat lang yung nalalaan kong oras ko sa kanya. Yung sapat lang na andito ako kapag kinailangan nya. Gusto ko kasi kapag may isang bagay na gumugulo sa isip nya, gusto ko nandon ako para sagutin ang mga katanungan nya. Kapag dinadalaw sya ng antok, gusto ko nandon ako para meron syang balikat na masasandalan. Kapag nabibigatan sya, bubuhatin ko ang mga dala nya. Ngingiti ako para sakanya. Maging taga-sundo man ako. Maghintay man ako kung minsan ng matagal sa pagdating nya, hahabaan ko ang aking pasensya.. Kapag nilalamig sya, ipapahiram ko sakanya ang jacket ko at hahawakan ko ang mga kamay nya. Hindi ko sya ikukumpara sa ibang babae dahil gusto ko maramdaman nyang isa syang prinsesa. Isang prinsesa sa isang istorya ng simpleng lalaking katulad ko. Mukha man baduy.. Pero.. Ganun talaga eh. Asahan mo na pag nagmahal ka magiging baduy ka at okay lang maging baduy ako para sakanya..

Alam nyo, ang mga babae.. Marami silang kwento. Kung anu-ano. May pagka-weird minsan… Pero, basta! Makinig ka na lang. Ayaw kasi nila ng nai-stock ang isang storya sa mga utak nila eh. Basta, kapag kinailangan nya ng tengang makikinig, balikat na masasandalan, kamay na mahahawakan at isang tao na magpaparamdam sakanya na hindi sya nag-iisa, nandito ako para sakanya.

Mukhang alalay ba? O P.A.? Hindi ko nakikita ang sarili ko na ganun. Dahil kahit sabihin mo pa na simpleng bagay lang ang lahat ng ito. Malaking bagay ito para sakanya. Malaking bagay ito para sa pagsasama namin.

Ako…. Mahilig ako maglaro. Maglaro ng kung anu-ano. Hindi ko hahayaang guluhin ako ng kahit na sino sa mga bagay na pinaglilibangan ko. Pero, pagdating sakanya. May oras pa rin talaga ako para magreply, may oras pa rin ako para sabihin sakanya kung ano ang ginagawa ko sa mga oras na yun at alam ko tanggap nya yun. At alam ko hindi yun magiging dahilan para magkaroon kami ng hindi pagkakaunawaan.

Kasi alam nyo, ang computer, basketball o kahit ano pa… Parte na yun ng mga buhay ng lalaki eh. At hindi naman ako gago para ikumpara sya sa mga larong ito. At lalong hindi ako tanga para ipagpalit sya sa mga bagay na iyon. Kasi sa lahat ng bagay na meron ako sa buhay ko…. Iisa sya sa pinaka-iingat ingatan ko. Bakit kamo? Wala eh. Mahal ko eh!

Alam nyo, gasgas na gasgas na sabihin ang mga salitang “masaya ako kapag masaya sya.” Masaya naman talaga. Pero hindi mo naman ito kailangan ulit ulitin pang sabihin sakanya at kung kanikanino pang tao. Sa totoo lang, hindi ko naman kailangan sabihin lahat ng gagawin ko para sakanya. Para kasi saken, ayokong magbitaw ng mga salitang hindi ko kayang tuparin. Ayoko syang paasahin sa mga pangako. Sa mga pangakong alam kong imposible ko pang magawa sa ngayon.

Pero alam nyo, tawagin nyo man akong duwag, okay lang. Basta, ayokong maramdaman nyang umaasa sya sa wala. Kung may gagawin man ako para sakanya. Para sa ikasasaya nya, gagawin ko ito sa paraang alam kong kaya ko. Kasi ang effort para sa mga babae… Hindi naman kailangan sagad-sagarin eh. Hindi mo rin kailangan sumungkit ng mga bituin, hindi mo rin kailangan tumulay sa mga alambre o tumalon sa eroplano. Yung simpleng pagbuhat mo lang ng bag nya, yung simpleng paghatid mo sakanya. Tulad nga ng sinabi ko kanina.. Malaking bagay ang mga ito. Paano naging malaki? Kasi ginagawa mo ang lahat ng mga ito, hindi para magpasikat sa iba. Kundi ginagawa mo ito para sakanya.. Para maramdaman nya pa lalo ang sinsiredad at pagmamahal na meron ka para sakanya..

Basta gusto ko, ako.. Gusto ko lagi, nandon ako.. Sa pag-iyak man, sa pag-tawa, sa paghalakhak, sa pagluluksa, sa kahirapan man o kahit ano pa. Gusto ko nandon ako. Gusto ko nandon ako para sayo kasi meron kang malaking parte sa buhay ko. Gasgas man kung sabihin, ginagawa ko ito dahil mahal kita. Sasabihin ko pa rin sayo, nandito ako dahil mahal na mahal kita.”

(c) to Roger 2011 IAS

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Xiumin: The Otherside

A/n: I started writing Chanyeol’s Far Away, Young Love but half way I suddenly got inspiration to write this one. i was planing to get back to the chanyeol and post it today too but lol finished this one at 1:47AM.  Hope you enjoy this one! #thirdexoficinarow!!

And I apologize if the beginning is laggy.

FEEL FREE TO REQUEST A SCENARIO HERE (please include smut or fluff)

 Warning: Super Long

Ugh promise one day I will add “read more” on all of these.

Requested by: anon

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As you were getting dressed, your doorbell rang. You stumbled to get your pants as you headed towards the door. Opening to reveal just who you were expecting. “Annyeong Xiuminah!! Can you wait in the living room a bit? I’m not ready yet.” “Huh? Oh. Oh ye-yeah. T-take your time _____-ah” he was nervous, it was the first time he’s been in at your house ever since you’ve been sick.  ”Hehe. He’s so cute.” You laughed to yourself on your way upstairs.

 Xiumin, he was a friend. You just met him not to long ago but you and him have gotten so close. Even though it was his first time agreeing to meet at your house, you’ve probably been to his house almost every day of the week. When you asked if he wanted to meet at your house for some reason he always insisted on you coming to his. Xiumin was so nice to you, every time something had to be decided, he always let you decide. He helped you with homework. He helped you run errands when you were busy and made you food when you were to lazy.

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