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what if I slit my wrists and licked off the blood for you, would you see how devoted I actually am? or would it scare you? I'll do anything you'd like even if it kills me

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i’ll kill myself and rot for you

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i’m being productive -> my mom screams at me for not being productive enough -> i get upset and stop working -> i cheer up -> i’m being productive -> my mom screams at me for not being productive enough

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leave it to my mom to ruin a wonderful mood

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IM GETTING POSITIVE ATTENTION UP THE WAZOO RN IM ELATED

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why can’t i just connect anymore?

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idk how much longer i can force myself to stay alive

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if i ever hurt Person C or do something to make Person C hate me, i will fucking kill myself

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I NEED TO SHUT UP I NEED TO SHUT UP I NEED TO SHUT UP I NEED TO SHUT UP I NEED TO SHUT UP I NEED TO SHUT UP I NEED TO SHUT UP I NEED TO SHUT UP I NEED TO SHUT UP I NEED TO SHUT UP I NEED TO SHUT UP I NEED TO SHUT UP I NEED TO SHUT UP I NEED TO SHUT UP I NEED TO SHUT UP

TWICE TODAY, MY POINTLESS FUCKING YIP-YAPPING HAS BROUGHT THE CONVERSATION TO A SCREECHING HALT

“oh i just got distracted” IF I WERE BEING INTWRESTING AND LIKEABLE AND NOT BITCHING ABOUT MY PROBLEMS TEHN IT WOULDN’T BE SO EASY TO GET DISTRACTED FROM ME

THIS IS WHY NOBODY LIKES ME

THEY ONLY LIKE SPEAKING TO ME IN A GROUP ENVIRONMENT

ON MY OWN, I’M. NOT. INTERESTING.

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usually i don’t care about underwhelming birthdays but just WATCH Person G’s birthday get more attention from Person C than mine.

i mean, i know that’s expected because they’re dating and i’m literally just some guy, but i can tell in advance thst it’s going to upset me a bit

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i would hope for G to kill himself, but then C would be too hurt to focus on me.. plus, i don’t have any real malintent towards G except for the anger that comes with my jealousy or whatever

I’M SO FUCKING JEALOUS OF HIM. I WASNT BUT I FEEL IT IN MY FUCKING SKIN. I NEED TO BE HIM. I NEED THAT FUCKING TREATMENT AND I ONLY WANT IT FROM PERSON C, AND THE ONLY WAY I’LL GET IT IS IF I BECOME LIKE PERSON G AND BETTER

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I’M SO FUCKING JEALOUS OF HIM. I WASNT BUT I FEEL IT IN MY FUCKING SKIN. I NEED TO BE HIM. I NEED THAT FUCKING TREATMENT AND I ONLY WANT IT FROM PERSON C, AND THE ONLY WAY I’LL GET IT IS IF I BECOME LIKE PERSON G AND BETTER.

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i guess i’m back on my “immediately feeling violent impulses towards people who talk about their relationship” bullshit, huh

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oooo sorry I already have weekend plans (destroying and betraying myself for nothing)

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i pace around my room like a lost puppy until someone DMs me

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