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I feel so sorry for Eli's backstory.

Dear Eli, (Angst/feels fic)

(Hey Agent! So i noticed your account hasn’t had a lot of angst lately and since your the angst Queen I decided to submit this Au idea I have for Seth, Eyeless, and Eli. If you want to make it a thing go ahead, this is just a fan idea that you consider whatever the hell you want. Enjoy!

By: BlueRose161

3rd Person P.O.V

Eli remained his room, head hung, sockets blank, his mind had wandered so much that he wasn’t even sure if the grey carpetted floors his gaze was on weren’t just part of another imagination in his head. So many things in one day had decided to crowd and overwhelm him he was just mentally exhausted, but he would never ask for comfort.

Not from anyone that was in the house with him.

The day started as normal, he was waken up by his mother, he got dressed, went to class and mostly read throughout the day from not wishing to conversate with others. He had lunch, did some other school work and then went outside to go and see his mom all over again and be greeted with a hug. Even at times asked how his day went while his still developing horns were lightly pet by the mother figures gentle digits.

But the end wasn’t like that.

Instead of being greeted by his loving mother, he was greeted by his father, who had abandoned all want of seeing him when he was five. His father wishing to pursue a life without him to reproduce with someone else and leave whatever he had already created behind. Eli was a second grader, but even just being the age of seven he already understood the split between his mother and father. He was in the room when his mother and father argued and Eyeless proclaimed his desire to never see him again. He was forced to attend two birthday parties of his step siblings that he held a deep jealousy for because of how… United and perfect they were with his former father.

He had just grown to hate them with that jealously, a jealousy that consumed any want to ever see that family again.

Yet, there he was, sitting in a guest room with two duffle bags of stuff from his home, his backpack with school supplies, and a slightly beat up camera.

All Eli was told when his father had retreived him from school was that he would never see his mother, Seth, ever again. He found this all bizzare, what was happening? Where was he? When he demanded the answers to those questions of Eyeless the male had only proclaimed he didn’t have the full grasp of the situation either and all that Seth left for the young seven year old was the camera. That slightly scratched and dented camera with something for him to watch from his mother.

Eli wanted to watch it, he wanted to open it up, grab some headphones and be the only one to listen to this video left behind by his caring mother.

But, he just couldn’t do it.

Even with every urge in his body telling him to do it, with his shaky hands and still slightly off tone breathe, there was no piece of him that truly could muster the ability to do it.

So, he stood up, camera still in hand, and went to go ask Eyeless to click start for him.

Once he had opened the door he had saw one of his little step siblings walk past, they were two and already they were slipping away from Eyeless and Valentine. He shot them a firm glare before letting his gaze go and trudging down the hall and stairs to get downstairs where his dad was.

When he got down he saw Eyeless and Valentine on the couch together, oh, how he wanted to smack him. They both must’ve said or done something to make his mom leave. Seth was strong minded, brave, and can take so much. He wouldn’t have just left without motive of someone else. He swallowed a lump in his throat to hold back the urges coursing him; making at first shaky steps before settling his frame as best as possible and making it over.

He didn’t say a word at first and simply held the camera up to his father in pure silence. The silence rang for a moment before Valentine stated “You should ask before waving something in someones face.” all Eli did was look at him and say “Shut up, your not my father or my mother so you hold no authority against me.”

The little boy made his gaze back at his father and said “I need you to play moms video for me, I can’t do it myself but I need to know where he is! So don’t sass me right now Eyeless because I won’t hesitate to punch one of my ‘step siblings’”

He didn’t even consider Eyeless a authority figure either. He considered him a sperm donar who took a day trip to visit what he created and then left. For a moment, shock ran through Eyeless, he couldn’t believe of how, cold, Eli was being. As much as he wanted to disipline his son, he decided to just listen to him, already knowing the childs mind was probably already racing and that probably made him aggressive.

So, he took the camera, opened it up, went through the videos and said “Odd. The most recent one is a black screen.. Its about 3 minutes but its the only one dated today.” he clicked it and immediately the video had began with quiet sniffles and hiccups.

Eli, Eyeless, and Valentine had immediately recongized the soft sniffles as Seth’s. The young boy quickly yanked the camera away and paused it, his hands shaking more rapidly as he ran upstairs, and to his room to listen to the video.

With a moment to calm, the curtains drawn, door locked shut and him under the bed, he clicked play on the video and listened with some headphones he found in one of the duffle bags.

A few more sniffles were heard before a moment of silence and rustling.. And then a raspy voice was heard

“Hello Eli.. My little angel.. You’re watching the video and I hope your alone.. I don’t want anyone else to hear it, I want these words to only do wonders for you…”

The voice had a sort of rasp like you choked on something completely stupid, like saliva or a chip, and he noticed how.. Sort of dead it was. There was now sniffles now, only the occasional at the pauses, like this was planned of some sort.

He stopped questioning it and kept close on listening.

“I’m making this for you because.. Its me saying goodbye… But, I couldn’t just let myself go without giving you a farewell… I just.. Wasn’t strong enough to do it in person.. So, ill start here… Hopefully you’re still listening..

Dear Eli, son of Seth and Eyeless, you are amazing. I’m so proud of you, so proud of how much you look into things, how calm you are, and how much you’ve done to my life and changed me. I guess I should start with this..

You weren’t planned.. The reason I got with your father was because I needed.. Satisfaction.. I needed to feel some sort of bliss, I needed something.. I had been so out of it, in so much pain.. It was because I found out someone I was interested in and had dated for a few months.. Cheated on me.

So, at Kazi and Z’s party, I drank a bit, got calm and then ended up having a breakdown in a janitor room since the wedding was at some… I think it was at some sort of golf place, its hard to recall, I’m drinking right now so its fuzzy.. Heh.. Anyway, Eyeless had found me crying, he talked to me since it seemed he didn’t have anything better to do but listen to my agony, and then we had sex… And months later, I found out I was having you…

It was all a shock, I was happy, confused, even more hurt than before, and overall a mess. I knew Eyeless wouldn’t want to be here, it was just a silly night, another kid to add to his count. He only really cared for the weak of his kin but.. When you were born I knew you would be a survivor, a warrior. And I knew I wanted your dad to have some part of your life.

To be honest, I didn’t expect him to stay home for as long as he did. I was glad you had him for the time you did.. But when Eyeless left.. I started looking for someone else.

I wanted you to have another parental figure so bad.. I wanted that necluar family I guess… So, I started dating other people more and more, trying to find someone who made me, and you happy..

When you turned six I found that person.. Atleast… I thought I did. I can’t remember their name but, they were a nun… But when she found out that I gave birth to a child and was a demon… She found me disgusting and even tried killing me… Just keep that as a sign not to date a nun… Heh…”

There was a simple pause, a gulp being heard with the click of some sort of fizzy drink, which could be assumed as beer, being opened and drank. Seth then continued

“That’s how you came here.. I did so much for you Eli, and I still want to… I just can’t now.. I really don’t know what pushed me over the edge… I guess it was some people at Church talking about homosexuality as a sin and trying to pick a fight again.. I can’t imagine those people finding out what I did to have you… Or if they saw those little horns on your head… But enough of me rambling on, if it feels like that, I’ll tell you the main thing I want you to promise and follow.

Dear, Eli. Don’t become like me or your father. Don’t keep your nose in books like I did and let the mortal world slip by, and let expierences swipe by. Live it, or else you’ll probably end up like me.. Alone and going to Hell where they belong… Don’t end up like Eyeless, who dates on and on and makes so many kids.. That isn’t living Eli, that’s just leaving a trail that will bite you in the ass one day… You have this life, and I want you to live it how you want, just don’t follow the paths already set..

Promise me you’ll not be like Eyeless and you’ll marry just one person that you know you’ll love forever, have a child and live those happily ever afters. And don’t end up like me, who missed every oppertunity the mortal realm had to hold and hid themselves into a corner and drinking some cheap beer before going back to their birth land of hell.. Live this life to the fullest, but if I ever do come back and see you followed either of us, I’ll hug you and then smack you across the face…”

A small giggle was heard before a little sob and gasp… A gulp following after.

“A-And… Smile a little more.. You always had such a dead pan expression that those little moments you did smile made my week… So make everyone else’s week too with your precious smile.. The last thing I ask is…

Give your father hell.. I know forgiveness is important Eli but.. Never forgive him for abandonment, because we may forgive, but that gives you no reason to remember. Kick his ass one day for making this sort of ending for us… And never live down anything because he deserves all the dementated shit you want to do to him for all of the lives he abandoned, or all the hell he’s done in his wake..

Promise me that… To keep all that… To live life, smile, and kick his ass… For me Eli…

Oh.. I left the lense cap on… That’s okay.. I don’t think I want you to actually look at me right now… I love you honey… S-So m-much I-I-I know you-u’ll do g-great and m-make people a-as proud o-o-of you as I-I am…. You may not be Eyeless’ little s-star or his little whatever… But you’ll always be my little angel Eli… Goodbye my angel son…”

Loud sobbing was heard from the pitch black video before it ended.. And even past it’s end, sobs werer rang into the room by the young child, still under his bed with headphones and locked away.

Eli’s head was in his arms, his body trembling and shaking as he softly muttered

“I-I p-promise m-mom… I-I’ll be my own p-person like you w-want…”

(I can make a part two of this if Agent wants.– bluerose161

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