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for a little bit, i put fate on my renewed multi. so, i'm over on @psielapki and if not there, then on @seekslight.

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will i feel better if i move fate to a clean spot 😫😫😫 after doing so with my other blogs i was suddenly able to write ughhhh maybe its a good idea

am also still at @seekslight most of the time

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hey hi hello. as of late am on @seekslight &&. am also fleshing out a completely canon divergent xayah of league of legends rewritten as an original character so. if you're interested 👉👈 she's at @vastayah.

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@ragesense

                    𝘁𝗵𝗲  𝗻𝗲𝘄  𝘆𝗼𝗿𝗸  𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿  𝗳𝗮𝗶𝗹𝘀  𝘁𝗼  𝗮𝗺𝗮𝘇𝗲  𝗺𝗼𝘀𝘁  𝗽𝗲𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗲  :  a  city  with  neverending  opportunities  within  the  grasp  of  their  fingers  (  but  never  quite  within  reach  ),  a  city  that  never  sleeps,  a  city  that  never  stops  ;  always  in  rush,  chasing  dreams.

                    people  flee  to  settle  in  this  specific  concrete  jungle,  hoping  to  extend  their  horizons.  for  mandy,  however,  this  place  is  a  trap,  a  prison  :  jailed  with  grey  masses,  she  feels  suffocated  —  it  worsens  with  each  news  of  people  disappearing  &&.  criminals  found  enwebbed  closer  and  closer  to  her  place  of  residence.

                    it  reaches  its  peak  as  she's  swooped  off  the  ground,  a  building  crumbling  right  behind  her  ;  soaring  through  air,  she  desperately  grasps  at  the  savior  in  crimson,  fingers  digging  into  arms,  hands  locked  around  his  neck.  scared  —  and  she  rarely  is,  borderline  suicidal  and  resigned,  adrenaline  junkie  seeking  a  challenge  &&.  thrill,  something  that  could  bring  back  the  spark  of  wishing  to  continue  the  research  and  experiments,  &&.  the  fear  evaporates  in  a  millisecond,  the  moment  spider - man  says  something  about  being  rescued,  about  having  no  reason  to  be  afraid  (  yet  another  corny  superhero  one - liner  )  and  she's  simply  confused.

                    ❝  peter?!  ❞  mandy  dares  to  yell  ;  too  far  away  from  curious  ears  (  besides,  how  many  peters  are  in  new  york?  )  and  when  she's  finally  on  the  ground,  taking  a  step  away  from  the  masked  vigilante,  she  recognizes  the  silhouette  without  issue  (  the  smell,  too,  it's  the  fabric  softener  and  deodorant  combo,  her  senses  enhanced  by  the  blindness  she  suffers  from  ).  ❝  the  fuck?  stop  playing,  ❞  the  blonde  adds  with  a  huff,  hands  crossed  on  chest  to  mask  the  trembling  of  her  entire  body.  adrenaline.  fear.  shock.  but  she's  safe,  apparently  —  courtesy  of  an  eight  legged  bug  personified.

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his methods of caution and protection were far different from others with secrets. nothing to modify the voice or his physical appearance, only a white stare of the mask and completely altered demeanor. flurry of confidence far different from the way he carried himself out-of-costume, perhaps that was what threw most unsuspecting people for a loop. not fate, it seemed. his name flipping from her only stumbled him backwards and tightened his his shoulders. not good, not good.

❝ is that uh- is that a friend of yours? ❞ rushed in his response to deny the shock that sat underneath webbed thread, arms crossed and his weight shifted onto one leg. all an attempt to act aloof and unbothered. ❝ whoever he is- he sounds kinda lame. ❞

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@tragedysworn  ;  sasuke

[ trace ] sender traces one of receiver’s scars / sauceque

                    𝗰𝗮𝗹𝗹𝗼𝘂𝘀𝗲𝗱  𝗳𝗶𝗻𝗴𝗲𝗿𝘀  𝗴𝗿𝗮𝘇𝗲  𝗮𝗴𝗮𝗶𝗻𝘀𝘁  𝘀𝗼𝗳𝘁,  𝗽𝗼𝗿𝗰𝗲𝗹𝗮𝗶𝗻  𝘀𝗸𝗶𝗻  ;  cold  to  the  touch,  just  like  the  gaze  of  the  one  who  parts  her  legs  before  sasuke.  eyes  never  leave  his,  tracing  every  movement  like  a  wounded  animal  would  against  the  aggressor,  but  no  pain  awaits  unmei,  not  with  the  guard  dog  by  her  side.

                    before  any  question  is  asked  aloud,  monotone  voice  disturbs  the  silence.  she  prefers  to  be  the  one  to  start  and  end  the  conversation  on  her  own  terms  ;  speaks  softly,  quietly.

                    ❝  the  clan  i  was  born  into  did  that  do  me,  ❞  unmei  says,  her  inner  thighs  scarred  deeply  :  it  doesn't  hurt,  not  anymore,  cuts  long  healed  —  nonetheless,  the  gentleness  of  sasuke's  touch  is  more  than  appreciated.  ❝  this  is  why  i  will  never  bear  your  name.  ❞

                    fingertips  trace  the  shapes,  words  of  worship  and  hatred  engraved  onto  flesh  ;  promises  of  fortune  and  threats  of  doom.  for  sasuke,  it  is  yet  to  be  proved  which  one  appertains.  soon.

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@tragedysworn  ;  sasuke

                    𝗶𝘁  𝘄𝗮𝘀𝗻'𝘁  𝘀𝘂𝗽𝗽𝗼𝘀𝗲𝗱  𝘁𝗼  𝗯𝗲  𝗮𝗻𝘆𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴  𝗯𝘂𝘁  𝗮  𝗯𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿  ;  a  tease  of  a  term  of  endearment  unmei  found  funny  and  nothing  else.  maybe  a  little  disgusting  (  wouldn't  want  be  called  mommy,  wouldn't  ever  look  at  her  father  that  way  ).  the  idea  was  funny  in  her  head,  calling  sasuke  something  just  to  see  him  get  repulsed,  especially  around  orochimaru  and  kabuto  (  the  latter  believing  the  bruises  her  body's  adorned  with  are  but  an  assurance  of  her  safety  ;  not  as  strong  as  the  others  are  a  lie  &&.  in  need  of  a  guardian,  she  obeys  and  lets  sasuke  do  anything  he  wishes  as  long  as  she's  under  his  wing  ).

                    instead,  there's  a  blush  blooming  on  the  youngest  uchiha's  cheek  —  one  the  fate  cannot  see,  but  the  reaction  tells  her  everything  she's  unable  to  perceive  with  her  eyes.

                    audible  gasp  is  let  out,  one  that  piques  orochimaru's  and  kabuto's  attention  ;  they  see  the  younger  getting  pulled  towards  uchiha  with  force.  for  the  snake,  it's  entertaining  (  he  thinks  a  punishment  is  in  order,  and  how  could  he  not  be  happy  about  the  suffering  of  the  one  he  cannot  stand?  ),  however  for  the  medic  it's  a  sign  to  yet  again  teach  the  vessel  a  lesson  (  nobody  should  ever  hurt  unmei  ).

                    the  center  of  attention  with  face  ever - expressionless  swallows  hard.  oh.  it's  got  a  different  effect  to  what  she  was  anticipating  and  thus,  she  felt  heat  rushing  through  her  face.  with  cheeks  flushed  and  sudden  warmth  spreading  down  her  stomach,  instead  of  poking  the  bear,  unmei  complies  ;  and  so,  a  whisper  reaches  sasuke's  ear,  tickling  his  flesh  with  hot  breath.

                    orochimaru  and  kabuto  think  of  her  submission  as  accepting  defeat,  accepting  the  scolding  —  surrendering  to  the  stronger  than  her,  as  she  should.  little  do  they  know  what  was  said  back,  and  who  is  really  in  control.

                    ❝  はい,  サスケ - さま.  ❞

@facesblind said: " daddy~ "

his body tenses, the faintest of blushes creeping up to his cheeks despite his best attempt at hiding it. the word is whispered so effortlessly into his ear, orochimaru & kabuto mere feet from them. fingers twitching on the handle of his katana as red eyes flick over to unmei — if looks could kill, she'd be dead twenty times over. in one swift movement, he has an iron grip on her wrist, pulling her closer to him. head so cautiously leans down until his lips are close to her ear so only she can hear him. ❛ 𝒃𝒆𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆. ❜

* RANDOM ASKS, always accepting.

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@buriedabove

                    𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗻  𝘆𝗼𝘂  𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗲  𝘁𝗼  𝗮  𝗰𝗼𝗻𝗰𝗹𝘂𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻  in  which  in  order  for  you  to  prove  your  scientific  theories  right  and  proceed  with  your  research  your  loved  one  has  to  die,  the  logical  course  of  action  would  be  to  stop  experimenting.

                    ❝  boring,  ❞  miriam  huffs  in  response,  crossing  arms  on  her  chest  &&.  the  only  thing  missing  to  complete  the  spoiled  princess'  picture  is  a  pout  (  which  she  is  more  or  less  unable  to  express  ).  what's  he  gonna  do,  kick  her  out  by  getting  physical?  wouldn't  dare.  or  would  he?  what  happens  afterwards  would  be  the  death  of  him.  then  again,  maybe  it's  exactly  what  he  wants.

                    countless  days  spent  playing  russian  roulette  by  herself  :  miriam,  leon's  revolver  and  three  bullets.  chamber  spins,  clicks  in  place,  trigger  is  pulled  and...  nothing.  no  spark,  no  vision,  no  brain  splattered  against  white  walls  in  her  office.  replaying  the  scene  over  &&.  over  again  in  her  head  —  then  in  their  bedroom,  roommate  unaware  of  countless  broken  vases,  stitches  in  sliced  skin,  bills  from  cleaning  the  couch  stained  in  blood.

                    but  it  wasn't  her  who  was  on  the  brink  of  death.

                    ❝  kill  yourself,  ❞  comes  an  emotionless  order.  ❝  you  wanna  die  anyway,  why  not  right  now?  ❞

@facesblind TO CONDOR ONE. RICHARD SIKEN PROMPTS.

❝  drive into that tree, drive off the embankment. come on, leon, make something happen.  ❞

Driving off the highway and into the asphalt artery going through a sandy wasteland,  nails scrape against the steering wheel when his foot slumps down on the pedal when he hears that grating sound.  Her voice.  He comes to miss the silence she was treating him to for the past four hours.  The sun hits his exasperated eyes and he mulls her demand over  (  over and over again  ).  Would be so simple,  wouldn’t it?  Burn rubber off the cliff,  take a deep breath and try to remember your mother’s face  &  his father’s favourite song.  He slants forward abruptly till the seat belt digs into the side of his neck,  reminding him of an old wound which is still there.  Would be so stupidly simple,  but it would be such a waste to haul this Lincoln out of the water.  The wheels maintain a steady pace.

No reason to get excited.

Leon will make something happen if she so desires,  probably not in the way she would like.  Maybe tonight,  maybe in the following five business days.  It’s been hanging over him for so long  —  the romanticised idea of vanishing without a word and without a trace.  Once his faults and shortcomings swim up to the surface,  he will have to.  The agent isn’t oblivious to his colleague’s suspicious and not-so-discreet glares each time he passes them by,  be it in the hallway or on a battlefield.

It lures a short guffaw out of him.

The tyres come to a shrieking halt,  and so does the tape in the car radio.  Opaque blues zeroed in on the road the hearse stalled on and he only leans and stretches his arm out to release her own belt and then push the passenger door open.  A gentleman,  regardless.  “  Get out.  ”

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idk what is happening honestly so tired so eepy let boys run the errands with teddybeardog and i have some regrets ( tm )

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i am so very tired and we're not even halfway through with the tasks scheduled for today... ( it's 10am and i am awake since 2? am ) ( my tummy is hurty )

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↪     𝑺𝑬𝑻𝑻𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑷𝑹𝑶𝑴𝑷𝑻𝑺 , HISTORICAL 〳 FANTASY edition !   (  a  collection  of  25  settings  based upon the period 〳 fantasy genres ; meant  to  inspire  drabbles  or  be  used  as  prompts . WILL be updated .   )

001. the interior of an elegant carriage .

002. seated at a large dining table set with an elaborate meal .

003. the shadowy corner of a lively tavern .

004. the top of a light house during a raging storm .

005. along the dimly lit corridor of a large manor .

006. the damp , dark brig of a pirate ship .

007. the ruins of an ancient structure lost to time .

008. a theater hall brimming with attendees .

009. the bustling streets of a market town .

010. a sun - drenched vineyard .

011. along a boardwalk overlooking the sea .

012. a moonlit cemetery full of weathered graves .

013. on horseback , deep in the woods .

014. a luxurious drawing room smelling of tea .

015. a sprawling dragon roost , hidden atop craggy mountain peaks .

016. a war - torn battlefield .

017. a beautiful cathedral bustling with churchgoers .

018. within a crammed opera box during a performance .

019. an elegant tearoom serving afternoon refreshments .

020. a lakeside pavilion on an especially hot day .

021. a sprawling network of underground catacombs .

022. a hidden glade in the middle of the woods .

023. the deep , dark dungeon of a castle .

024. a market square full of fruit and fineries .

025. a baker's shop smelling of wonderful pastries .

026. the quiet stables of a large estate .

027. on the outskirts of a magnificent water fountain .

028. in a dimly lit library , hidden amongst the books .

029. among the high walls of a hedge maze .

030. at the front desk of a warm , homey inn .

031. under the protection of a gazebo as it rains .

032. on the landing of a busy train station .

033. a gambling hall alight with raucous laughter and drink .

034. a pristine infirmary , mostly empty .

035. on board a huge ship making a long voyage .

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×     𝗿𝗼𝗺𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗲  𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗰𝗮𝗻𝗼𝗻𝘀

name  :  uses  various  ones,  depending  on  her  current  residence (  and  verse  ).

nickname  :  miri  (  by  @agentvalentine  )  ;  mimi  (  by  @buriedabove  ).

gender  :  nonbinary,  femme  presenting  (  doesn't  actually  care  about  gender,  uses  she / her  pronouns  and  highlights  feminine  parts  of  her  body  out  of  convenience  ).

romantic  orientation  :  panromantic,  though  sexuality - wise  —  asexual.

preferred  pet  names  :  doesn't  have  any,  really.  menace  or  brat  would  do  though  hehe.

relationship  status  :  verse  dependent  but  i  get  to  talk  about  the  relationships  so  HERE  WE  GO.  fate  is  in  a  romantic  relationship / situationship  with  @buriedabove  and  it's  my  primary  ship  on  the  whole  blog  ;  she  considers  herself  taken  even  before  leon  acknowledges  his  feelings  towards  her  (  she  simply  wasn't  interested  in  pursuing  anything  other  than  what  she  has  with  kennedy  ).

also  in  naruto  verse  she's  in  a  romantic  relationship  with  @tragedysworn's sasuke,  lee  and  kabuto,  but  it's  v  complicated.  in  theory,  she's  just  friends  with  the  youngest  uchiha  and  at  first  dates  lee,  though  despite  their  somewhat  mutual  feelings  decides  to  leave  the  hidden  leaf  village  with  sasque.  during  their  stay  at  orochimaru's,  fate  decides  to  """  romance  """  kabuto  as  eventual  backup  plan  if  the  snake  man  wished  to  kick  her  out  (  so  both  kabuto  and  sasuke  would  protest,  and  they're  the  dearest  for  orochimaru  :)))  ).  she  fakes  whatever  kabuto  wishes  they  had  while  sleeping  with  sasuke,  in  the  end  parting  ways  with  the  uchiha  too,  only   to  be  reunited...  you  get  it.  something  something  soulmates.

OH  and  there's  a  verse  in  which  she's  in  a  polyamorous  relationship  with  @desireshonour's  phillip  graves  and  @thehollyverse's  holly.

and  oh  my  god.  prometheus!!!  they're  a  couple  and  actually  prome  is  fate's  og  partner.  they're  bound  by  her  decisions  and  he'll  never  be  free  from  her.  it's...  v  toxic  but  v  sweet  all  the  same.  me  and  prometheus'  writer  are  brainstorming  if  david  (  prome's  real  name  )  actually  loves  fate,  or  if  it's  a  stockholm  syndrome.

annnnd  that's  it  when  it  comes  to  labeled  relationships.  it's  probably  v  chaotic  but.  i  love  all  these.

opinion  on  true  love  :  okay  that's  tough  because...  she  usually  chooses  her  "  targets  "  and  picks  whom  she  wants  to  love.  as  weird  as  it  sounds.  so  for  her,  that's  true  love  —  feelings  she  kinda  makes  in  her  head  &&.  stays  loyal  to  them,  stubborn  little  bitch!!!

opinion on love at first sight  :  i  did  roleplay  it,  but  it  was  rather  fascination  directed  at  someone  as  insane  and  intelligent  as  her.  she  doesn't  beieve  with  love  at  first  sight  per  se,  as  mentioned  above  :  she's  consciously  choosing  her  loved  ones  :)

how  ‘romantic’  are  they?  :  taking  the  most  common  meaning  of  the  word?  she  isn't.  but,  she  accomodates  and  adjusts  her  behavior  to  please  her  loved  ones,  so  if  her  lover  likes  receiving  flowers,  she'll  make  sure  to  get  them  a  bouquet  or  a  plant  from  time  to  time.

ideal  physical  traits  :  none.  a  body  is  just  a  body,  everyone  has  it.  though  it's  worth  noting  fate  has  a  thing  for  people  older  than  her  and  leans  for  the  masculine  presenting  ones,  but  it's  because  of  her  daddy  issues  with  no  deeper  meaning.

ideal  personality  traits  :  i  said  it  once,  but  she  exclusively  dates  cringefail  boylosers  and  it's...  an  accident  from  my  side,  but  it's  also  a  pattern.  she'd  love  to  have  someone  of  an  iq  level  close  to  hers,  but  there's  little  chance  it's  going  to  happen,  alas  she  finds  herself  dating...  well................

unattractive  physical  traits  :  lack  of  hygiene.  that's  it.

unattractive  personality  traits  :  what  is  annoying  in  one  person,  fate  can  find  charming  in  another,  and  even  the  annoyance  can  be  enjoyable  if  it's  the  right  person  (  for  example,  @the1ongcon  ).  so,  it's  hard  to  say  if  there's  something  unattractive  per  se  as  it  varies  from  person  to  person.

ideal  date  :  she'll  adapt  to  whatever.  though  she  really  enjoyed  being  taken  to  a  conference  with  a  scientist.

do  they  have  a  type?  :  mentioned  above  —  older  and  masculine,  though  it's  not  a  rule.

average  relationship  length  :  forever,  in  life  and  in  death.  once  fate  decides  you're  hers,  there's  no  way  out.

preferred  non - sexual  intimacy  :  long  talks,  especially  when  she  gets  to  elaborate  on  her  favorite  theories  and  somebody  actually  listens.  deep  conversations  in  general,  too.

opinion  of  public  affection  :  indifference.  she's  okay  with  it,  she's  okay  without  it.  usually,  fate  prefers  to  stick  close  to  her  partners,  so  holding  hands  is  a  somewhat  regular  occurence.  she  won't  force  it  upon  anybody  though.

past  relationships?  :  i  usually  write  fate  with  no  partners  prior  to  any  romantic  connections  me  and  my  writing  partners  come  up  with.  it  can  be  assumed  there  are  none,  except  for  a  timeline  in  which  she  parts  ways  with  leon  &&.  one  in  which  she  parts  ways  with  lee  and  sasuke  for  a  brief  moment.  she  doesn't  seek  a  romantic  partner  afterwards,  and  it's  both  because  she's  stubborn  and  because  she's  written  with  the  manic  pixie  dream  girl  trope  in  mind  —  she  """  belongs  """  to  the  main  protagonist  and  without  him,  it's  all  empty  pages  until  they  reunite  in  the  next  chapter.

tagged  by:  stole  it  off  dash  &&.  from  being  tagged  on  my  other  blogs. tagging:  whoever  wants  to,  because  that's  a  lot  of  writing,  but.  @buriedabove,  @playedbetter  (for  zevran,  viktor  and  zachary?),  @vulpesse,  @withinchains  (for  morgana,  kayn  and  aphelios  please!  and  bun - bun  too?),  @oriphical  (i'm  SO  CURIOUS  barking  howling  screaming),  @nezemny  (for  any  muse  of  your  choice  :3),  @brvo6  (if  i'm  tagging  you  too  much  let  me  know  pls),  @dreamweaved  (for  briar  and  if  you  want,  for  kuro  too!!),  @thehollyverse  (holly  &&.  nick),  @tragedysworn  (choji,  deidara,  sauce  k,  lee,  kairi,  natsumi,  akari,  kabuto,  basically  EVERYONE  at  this  point  but .  whoever  you  want  actually .),  aaaaaAAAAAAA  who  else  can  i  tag  i'm  curious  of  100%  of  my  moots,  @tealbeats,  @dimitresca,  @phasmasum,  @siabann  (&&.  gaz  too?),  @legionarm,  @ixalova  (yasuo,  sylas,  lee?)  &&.  you!

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filling up the romance headcanons i was tagged on league blogs ( but fate also deserves to have it done ) and there's a "preferred pet names" part. and i just- like. nobody has ever called her by any pet name???????? y'all gotta change that............. /threat

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also. quick note to my moots. you follow me = we're friends. besties even. period. i will like and comment on your posts and get excited everytime something nice happens to you. i will fight your enemies i will cuss your ex i will help you hide a body. i will compliment your face everytime a selfie is posted. i will send kisses to your pets. i will get excited about your portrayals and will add longer hc posts to my drafts so i can read them. i will send you stuff that reminds me of your muse, be it edits, tiktoks, quotes, images, whatever!!!!!! i am here to engage with y'all and be positive !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am here to have fun and make connections and write and create with all the talented individuals whomst i follow and who followed me back!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you're sTUCK WITH ME

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♥      𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒕𝒍𝒆  𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔  𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕  𝒕𝒉𝒆  𝒘𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒆𝒓

i'm  over  5'5      /      i  wear  glasses  or  contacts      /      i  have  blonde  hair      /      i  often  wear  sweatshirts      /      i  prefer  loose  clothing  over  tight  clothes      /      i  have  one  or  more  piercings      /      i  have  at  least  one  or  more  tattoos      /      i  have  blue  eyes      /      i  have  dyed  or  highlighted  my  hair      /      i  have  had  braces      /      i  have  freckles      /      i  paint  my  nails      /      i  typically  wear  makeup      /      i  don’t  often  smile      /      resting  bitch  face      /      i  play  sports      /      i  play  an  instrument      /      i  know  more  than  one  language      /      i  can  cook  or  and  bake      /      i  like  writing      /      i  like  to  read      /      i  can  multitask      /      i’ve  never  dated  anyone      /      i  have  a  best  friend  i’ve  known  for  over  five  years      /      i  am  an  only  child

okay  so!  i'm  v  small,  i  have...  twenty  piercings  or  so,  and  few  tattoos,  my  eyes  are  rather  grey - ish  but  also.  very  light  blue.  almost  creepy.  my  hair's  currently  brown  and  purple!!  and  my  freckles  are  tattooed  and  inbetween  them  there  are  small  hearts  :3  i  love  wearing  make  up  and  the  reason  behind  tattooing  aforementioned  freckles  is  because  i  always  wanted  to  have  them  and  used  eyeliners,  brow  pencils  and  all  sorts  of  products  to  make  them  and.  i  just  wanted  to  have  them  forever.  i  smile  a  lot  though  i  have  a  resting  bitch  face  lol  so  if  i'm  not  actively  focusing  on  smiling,  people  ask  me  what's  wrong  :((  i  play  multiple  instruments  !!  (  violin,  piano,  flute,  ukulele,  guitar  ).  i  speak  english  &&.  polish  and  a  little  bit  of  french,  and  can  cook  and  bake  although  the  latter  not  being  the  strongest  suit  of  mine  annnnd  i  love  writing  and  reading  (  last  time  i  went  to  a  cafe  to  do  some  reading  and  missed  two  buses  home  because  i  was  so  invested  in  the  plot ... . .  ),  multitasking  is  hard  due  to  adhd  ;  i'm  currently  in  two  long  term  relationships  with  my  boyfriends.  my  best  friend's  name  is  rodia  and  i  know  her  for  around  10+  years  now!!!!!  she  used  to  be  my  social  media  moot,  she  did  my  first  piercing  and  she's  literally  the  love  of  my  life  (  teddybeardog  aside  ofc  ).  she's  hilarious  and  supports  me  no  matter  what  i  do  &&.  promised  to  watch  me  play  resident  evil  games  and  watch  the  movies  with  me  and  imma  hold  her  accountable  next  time  we  see  each  other!!!

tagged  by:  stole  it  off  the  dash  to  yap  abt  myself  tehee tagging:  @buriedabove,  @vulpesse,  @tragedysworn,  @thehollyverse,  @zendatsu,  @iirath,  @st0rybuilt,  @dinoxia  (hi!  &&.  nice  to  meet  you!!!),  @brvo6,  @tealbeats,  @razedhell,  @abysswarden  &&.  you!!!!!!!!

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Straightforward, just Palestinian fundraisers. Most will be gofundme’s just because it’s trustworthy, but feel free to send verified fundraisers from elsewhere.

Please check out @palestinecharitycommissionsassoc who are doing the same thing and are way more established

Just feel really useless right now and figure this is something.

Not everyone can spare money to donate, but just spreading donations and Palestinian’s stories is important.

Here are the most reliable Palestinian focused charities that you can quickly donate as well:

Palestine Children’s Relief Fund (PCRF)

UN Crisis Relief – Occupied Palestinian Territory Humanitarian Fund

World Food Program USA : Palestine

UNICEF USA Palestine

Palestinian Red Crescent Society (PCRS)

Medical Aid for Palestinians (MAP)

Care for Gaza

eSims for Gaza

Islamic Relief

UNRWA

Here are also charities that work in Palestine as well as other places

ANERA

Catholic Relief Services

Penny Appeal

Middle East Children’s Alliance (MECA)

Save the Children

Women for Women

Doctors Without Borders

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important to note than there are also gofundmes for Palestinians who need funds to rebuild their homes and businesses that need as much attention as gofundmes for those fleeing genocide. I feel like helping Palestinians shouldn't be synonymous with displacement.

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one boyfriend is back home !! i feel much safer already ( mental health wise, cause for every other possible harm there's my big scary dog by my side at all times ). i was fed frozen pizza and am happee :3 did some writing, did some cleaning, did some gaming!!!!! it was overall a productive day. tomorrow my other boyfriend gets back from his parents and he will bring our new car with him!!!! it's got SEVEN seats!!!!!!!!! and a huge trunk. BUT only one pathetic cupholder in the front. which is tragic ( i need at least two for myself lol ).

i really really really hope this is a step towards better future ( for those of you who don't know, i changed my jobs to lower paying ones, then quit one i was treated like shit &&. got another one in which i almost got assaulted and robbed and in the end got fired because of this whole situation. both cars broke at the same time. one of my bfs got his hours and paycheck cut at work and more more more ).

i love car rides and hope we will be able to drive around a little. i need a good nighttime ride with loud music and maybe some crying. and fresh air.

and also we need to take teddybeardog to the vet ( nothing urgent tho !! just her nails which no one can do other than the doctors there because she doesn't like other people doing it and i'm too weak for her claws lol ) AND a car means walkies with her because we'll be able to take her to the forest and to the field !!!!!

for the first time in ages ( two years or so ), i'm home alone. what do i do...