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i hope it’s us in the end (it has to be)

caitlyn siehl // @isbergillustration // graham dean // @annori // ernest hemingway // sarah levine via @geryone // matthew dickman // @auvtre // the 1975 // @amiablesummer // eleanor hsieh

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i keep on writing letters that i’m not sure i will ever send. i hope to one day find the courage

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summer leaves are starting to die out and i’m still not over you.

- september blues

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YALL THE SECRET HISTORY BITCHES NEED TO EXPLAIN ME SOMETHING:

Why does Richard Papen say he’s Californian by NATURE too????

PLS PLS PLS someone explain! i need to devour this book, understanding every single word in it PLS😭

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“Compared to your brothers, your mind is ordinary.”

#im never moving on from that

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Grayson was perfect. Xander was one of a kind. And Jameson just… was.

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- you aren’t Jameson. what is acceptable for him isn’t acceptable for you. do you know why?

- because, someday, it’s going to be me.

- it’s going to be you.

#just a bunch of lies tobias mf had told gray to manipulate him into impossible perfection #he always knew it was never gonna be him

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hawthornes weren’t supposed to long for things they could not have.

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im never gonna be okay cuz:

“-basketball was always our thing, but when i hit middle school, I noticed he stopped saying that i played basketball and started saying that i played on the GIRLS’ BASKETBALL TEAM. “

#THIS FUCKING SHIT GOT INTO MY SKIN SO DEEP AND CUT MY LIMBS SO HARD I JUST CAN’t it’s just impossible

#that pathetic excuse of a man named Sheff deserved so much worse for doing all that shit to his OWN FLESH AND BLOOD. #what’s fucking wrong with him. #why cant he love his own children as much as his fucking brat cousin

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omg!!! i always say the same thing about eve, i hate her but she had her reasons

I just realised that literally everybody in the inheritance games series is traumatized in some way ☹️☹️

nash: had to watch his mother neglect him and then continue giving away his brothers while he couldn’t do anything about it

jameson: his mother neglected him, he was manipulated by his grandfather to make him think that he was nothing, and the whole Emily situation

grayson: neglected by his mother, had to carry the weight of the heir apparent, was forced to be perfect and not show any emotion, the whole Emily situation and just so much more

Xander: again, his mom neglected him, and he was lied to about his father from Tobias

Avery: her mother died when she was 15, she was nearly killed like 3 times, she had to carry the weight of being the heiress, was used as a target by Tobias, and a lot more

Libby: was in a mentally and physically abusive situation, was stressed out a lot when Avery was written in the will but didn’t wanna worry her, was constantly at the blame of all her relationships, and gets used because she’s “too nice”

Max: was disowned by her parents and not even allowed to talk to her own brother, had no one to talk to about it because Avery was written in the will so she was completely alone, and didn’t want to burden Avery with all the stress she had because she was already in the will and everything, and since Avery was maxs only friend she had no one else to talk to about it. (I kind of repeated some stuff but whatever u know what I mean 🙄)

Rebecca: Was living in her sisters shadow, never really felt like she had her mothers love, was constantly overlooked by her mother, was never allowed to date the one person she loved because she was afraid Emily would find out, and was blamed for Emily death by her mother (🙁)

Thea: Her best friend died, was forced to fake date a guy because she thought Emily would disapprove of her real relationship, and all her concerns about the Hawthorne family were overlooked as she was forced to spend time with them when they were the only ones with her best friend the night she died (ik Grayson and Jameson didnt kill Emily, but she literally told everybody how much she hated the hawthornes bc of “what they did” and was completely overlooked)

Eve: Okay I know everybody hates eve, but you can’t say she wasn’t traumatized. She was forced to have ugly haircuts and was forgotten just because she looked like the guy her mom had an affair with. Her existence ruined her family as her mom and dad fell apart because of the affair that her mom had, and she was ignored by her entire family but the second that Avery gets written in the will, THEN her half siblings decide that they want to contact her. She was used, just like Avery. Yes, she was a bad person, but she was alone her whole life and so when Vincent Blake was introduced, ofc she wanted to work for him, he was the only one who had ever shown her praise or even acknowledged her her whole life, and since she didn’t have any attention as a kid, of course she wants it now. She wanted to constantly be the best and do as he says because he didn’t want to let him down like she let down her family (just for existing, by the way.) so she did all these horrible things because she was afraid if she messed up, every ounce of attention she had gotten from Vincent would have been wiped away, and she would be alone again. Eve is actually a very layered character, but I feel like people dismiss that bc she hurt Grayson. And yeah what she did to him was horrible but nobody tries to see both sides bc people fangirl for him too much 🙄 (not hating, I do the same thing 🤭)

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what a shame tobias hawthorne is dead. if he wasn't, i would stab him repeatedly and then throw his body in a ditch for calling 10-year-old jameson ordinary.

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modeling will sure work IF IT GETS THAT TO THAT POINT

okay another thing right jameson was referring to himself as a "former rich boy" which doesn't make sense to me bc who is financing your adventures mr hawthorne? what about all those 10 000 dollar investments the old man made you boys make on your birthday every year? and the comic books you guys published? surely you have royalties or something from that lol like maybe you guys are no longer billionaires but you're definitely still rich boys pal, normal people don't get to jetset around the world at the drop of a hat (also if all else fails i think jameson should model for vogue or something)

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the lack of inherentance games posts on tumblr makes me want to cry

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omg thanks sm! i didn’t know there was a bonus chapter

here’s the rest of the pages from the bonus chapter of the brothers hawthorne:

link for the first few pages is right here: https://www.tumblr.com/1989linasversion/727409194883514368/lines

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omg please no ill fr die!!!

i really hope jlb sees our hatered towards that rat eve bc im so scared that she'll make her my babie's love interest

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literally me throughout the series

Reading the Inheritance Games

Book 1: Tobias is a funny, bit weird grandpa. Cool dude.

Book 2: Slowly you making me feel a bit unsafe Mr. Hawthorne.

Book 3: Yo, Tobias. What the actual fuck is wrong with you?!

Reading the Brothers Hawthorne: I HOPE U BURN IN HELL.

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Cardigan is such a Grayson coded song, I’ve picked out a few lyrics that definitely remind me of him, especially him and Emily:

.”when you are young they assume you know nothing”, ok so this reminds me of Grayson because of how mature he is for his age, he was forced to grow up very fast as he was the heir apparent and “assume you know nothing” could be like Tobias always saying he wasn’t enough?

.”when i felt like an old Cardigan under someone’s bed, you put me in and said I was your favourite” this one reminds me of Gigi and Grayson, their relationship was just so special and it’s evident in tbh that Gigi definitely pulled Grayson out of a bad place mentally

.”Chase two girls, lose the one” this one for Eve, Avery and Grayson, when Eve showed up at Hawthorne house, Grayson was blinded just because she looked like Emily, leaving him wanting the idea of her so he essentially chased Eve and Avery, but lost Avery and it was too late once Eve backstabbed him

. “You drew stars around my scars, and now I’m bleeding” again Grayson and Emily, but I also think this one could be Eve or Avery depending on how you look at it

.”I knew you’d haunt all of my what ifs” Emily 100%, although this isn’t canon I think it’s safe to say that Grayson probably thinks about what might’ve happened if Emily hadn’t died, also “do you ever play what-if Grayson?”

These are just a few but if you’ve never listened to the song search up the lyrics, the whole song has so many lyrics that relate to him.

do you agree with me?