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letter from a mother of a gay man. sent to ONE magazine, 1958.

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This post was flagged as adult content and the original poster was deactivated so I'm bringing it back.

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How are we doing tonight tumblrinas

EDIT: forgot to add that both included universally loathed “finales” and cars that were weirdly significant

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Amen to that little dude

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My favourite example of the domino effect

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Hear me out guys, hear me out

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The more you see, the creepier it gets

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Yall wanna be gnc and androgynous but hate intersex people and the idea of being intersex so much, I remember reading about PCOS potentially being considered an intersex disorder and having 100s of people dismiss it because "we can't just be calling 1 in 10 women intersex" or being in transmasc spaces and constantly being told that bottom growth and T dicks are undesirable and that people find non standard genetalia gross, in a GENDER INCLUSIVE SPACE.

The lgbt Community seriously needs to grapple with its hatred of intersex features and stop seeing androgyny that isn't pretty waify white person. You all love femme presenting androgyny but hate when people are androgynous in a broad or hairy way.

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HBO Max: so basically we're going to erase most of our shows as a tax dodge in a week and you can't stop us

A Youtuber who makes two hour long & strangely ominous video essays about Lost Media: it'll all be on Archive dot org by the end of the week you son of a bitch. Also the forbidden original pilot of Caillou and the French dub of the long sought after August 27th, 2001 Spongebob bumpers

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[ID: A tweet by ToughPigs that reads, "With no warning, HBO Max has removed over 200 classic Sesame Street episodes from its streaming service. This is a huge slap in the face to Sesame fans everywhere."]

When you're such a bitter heartless penny-pinching monstrous ghoul that not even fucking SESAME STREET is worth keeping around in your endless trudge to save literally nickels.

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This is so sad

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every day i think about how my old psychiatrist (who was notoriously horrible on many levels, to be clear) tried to convince me to stay on the antidepressants i was coming off of when i told her i was starting testosterone because she was convinced that i’d be incapable of handling the “intense mood swings” that she said it would cause if i was unmedicated

mind you, i was coming off of these meds because they were doing absolutely fucking nothing for me and she had fought me on stopping them every step of the way — in her mind, me starting t was the perfect chance to make one final (transphobic) push against my desire to stop putting completely pointless drugs in my body

she consistently referred to hrt as me “going on steroids” and told me with every ounce of condescending concern she could muster that she had never had a patient start t without being on antidepressants (as if i was supposed to see that fact as anything other than further proof that her main goal as a psychiatrist was just to make as much money as possible by pushing meds on people)

i tried to explain to her that countless trans people i’d talked to had said that being on t made them feel more emotionally stable, not less, and that i had already chosen a method of hrt that would minimize hormonal fluctuations as much as possible, but she wouldn’t believe me — there’s no question in my mind that she just saw me as a ~naive little girl who didn’t understand how testosterone could make my life hell~

and of course, my mom jumped on that idea and started telling me about how it’s not that she doesn’t like that i’m trans, it’s just that she’s ~so worried~ about what the ~big bad testosterone~ might to to my ~poor fragile mental health~

and when i started t, i was terrified that they would be proven right

now i’m 5 months on t (and a few months post-ending that doctor-patient relationship as well) and what do you know? my mood is better than ever! my therapist (who has known me far longer and actually cares about my well-being) says she’s never seen me this happy, and that she feels like i’m actually living for the first time! it’s been incredible!

in fact, i’ve come to the realization that i most likely had premenstrual dysphoric disorder before t, and that it was contributing to a huge percentage of my mental breakdowns and suicidal thoughts, so it seems there were hormones causing mood swings that i couldn’t handle without proper treatment after all, but testosterone isn’t the cause of those issues — turns out it’s the treatment i desperately needed to manage them!

and after some research and hearing from other people, i’ve learned that it wasn’t all anecdotal after all, because some studies have actually found evidence to support the idea that testosterone has antidepressant effects — i told my therapist that testosterone felt the way the antidepressants i had been on were supposed to feel, but i had no clue there was science to back that up

so now i’m just left being endlessly furious with the way testosterone is demonized as some horrible poisonous drug that will destroy your mental health along with everything else in your life, because being on it has improved my quality of life exponentially and that alone makes being on it SO worthwhile, but no one ever gets to see that side of being on t because they’re so busy drumming up fear about how it’ll wreck your moods instead

of course, that’s not to say some people don’t experience serious mood swings on t, because i would never deny someone else’s experience with their own body and mind, and i think it’s important that people know those effects are possible when they start t

what i AM saying is that i would guess that if you looked at pure numbers, more people have probably had a really positive experience like mine than a seriously negative one, and it’s very telling that the negative ones are portrayed as a universal part of being on t despite seemingly being a smaller percentage when you actually talk to lots of trans people, while the positive ones are portrayed as a fluke at best and impossible or even deceptive at worst despite being a really common theme in trans people’s accounts of being on t

testosterone is medicine. testosterone is healing.

it doesn’t solve all our problems — i’m certainly far from cured of all my mental health issues — but it sure as hell lightens the load, and i’m sick and tired of people acting like it’s a horrible thing and not the fucking miracle worker that it is for some of us

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i literally cannot get over dana terrace watching owl house illegally. they couldn't have given her a zip drive of episodes? a courtsey disney+ subscription? i can't imagine being paywalled out of your own work.

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Big coat = place to hide

(Pierro is not Kaeya's bio dad HC) in which other harbingers gotta start to get used to Kaeya's presence because their boss is normalizing this

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Scotland has become the first country in the world to enshrine the right to free period products in law.

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Trans men with toxic masculinity are literally struggling so much make sure they know they’re loved and that it’s okay to be loved and that they’re allowed to have emotions. 

Trans men struggle with toxic masculinity too. As a trans man who got told, “You’re not a real man, you’re emotional, you’re soft, you’re weak, and real men don’t describe things as ‘cute.’” It fucked me up and turned me into a Dean Winchester-esque man. And although I’m starting to heal, I still get moments where being the slightest bit “non-masculine” makes me extremely dysphoric.  this website seems to show a lot of love towards soft trans men, but I have yet to see a post that supports trans men who grew up believing that they had to be fucking Soldier Boy in order to be taken seriously by anyone. Not trans men who like being masculine. Trans men who had to be masculine. 

It’s always about “Men’s mental health matters” until the man’s problem is toxic masculinity. Not internalized homophobia or transphobia: toxic masculinity.

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Alex Jones explained for non USAmericans:

Alex Jones is an infamous radio conspiracy theorist who has been a persistent element of American politics for the last 30 years. His radio show, Infowars, uses the tagline "tomorrow's news today" as Alex claims his information comes from a pantheon of secret sources within the nonexistent shadow government.

Infowars got it's big break in the early 2000s with 9/11. Alex claims to have predicted the attack beforehand, even though Osama Bin Laden had been all but outright stating his desire to commit a terrorist attack for months if not years beforehand. Alex also claimed that the UN was behind 9/11, claiming that it was done to destabilize the dollar.

Throughout the years, Alex has been a dangerous radicalizing voice in America. He has claimed that every mass tragedy like a terrorist attack or school shooting has been a false flag, generally stating that the tragedy was engineered by the government to strip Americans of their gun rights. Recent court documents reveal that at its peak, Infowars was making 800,000$ profits a day.

He has been sued before, but has generally managed to skirt by on settlements and technicalities.

In 2012, a 20 year old named Adam Lanza shot and killed 26 people in the Sandy Hook Elementary School. Alex claimed that no children died, and that the grieving parents and community members were actually paid actors. He has said equally reprehensible shit in the past, and nothing has come of it. But this time, Alex didn't stop there. He has been harassing the victims for nearly eight years now, claiming that the parents were agents of the deep state, even going so far as to dox the public addresses of the parents of the victims, and even send "reporters" (read, dangerous armed white supremacists) to their houses. The entire time he was doing this, he was running commercials for his brand of vitamin supplements.

The victims of his harassment are currently suing Alex for defamation. The trial is not going well for Alex. Alex is currently on lawyer 12. Alex's lawyers have proved themselves to be so incompetent, so unprepared, so blatantly disrespectful to the American legal system, that the judge has handed down what's called a "default judgement". Which essentially means "the court has decided that even if you are actually innocent, the court will legally be considering you guilty because of your rampant disrespect for the legal process." A default judgement was described by one of the lawyers as "approximately as rare as a football game being called on account of unicorns."

The firm that took the case for the victims side is doing so for free. They have extensively studied Alex and his history, and are currently in the middle of what could be described as a surgical disassembly.

On August 3rd, Alex's lawyer turned over nearly 2 years of Alex's phone records. These texts contain DEEPLY incriminating evidence. The victims lawyers asked Alex's lawyer "hey, we can use these right? Like these are admissible?" And either out of ignorance, incompetence, or potentially even intentionally, Alex's lawyer said yes.

It doesn't stop there.

Alex was instrumental to the January 6th coup attempt that happened here recently. One of the victims lawyers was heard on a hot mic saying that they intended to turn the evidence over to law enforcement, heavily implying that Alex may have implicated himself in some nigh-treasonous crime.