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its so embarrassing being weird abt having friends it makes everything so awkward when idk if im as close to someone as i think i am

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do you guys also have the urge to kill yourselves if you're not good at something on the first try or are you normal

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there’s nothing wrong with me plus i don’t have any wants or needs plus i don’t feel or think at all

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reblog to reassure the next person who reads this that everything is going to be okay and it’s all going to get easier soon

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no one appreciates that i could be a million times worse

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y cant i b normal abd cry normally at things tahyt make me sad instead of js wheveer i get too stressed or need to feel liek ppl care abt me

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I actually do hate people for being christian i think that’s fair

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being abused or neglected really makes it clear how many things are skills that nobody really treats as. skills. exercising autonomy is a skill. listening to your body is a skill. resting is a skill. being liked and being loved are skills. nobody tells you how to do this shit because nobody even told me I was supposed to have learnt these things when I was a kid. I kind of just have to manually figure out what makes me freak out and work from there. unfair as shit

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theres gotta be a way to cure mental illness but like without having to spend money or do anything at all

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the thing that always gets me ESPECIALLY about autistic representation in media is that we are universally portrayed as happy-go-lucky, whimsical children, completely oblivious to the fact that the world constantly judges and scorns and HATES us.

We notice. I noticed. The reason I am as messed up as I am today is because i spent 20 LONG years in an environment where every day i was subjected to that. To noticing.

what an absolutely neurotypical view of us. Coddling themselves, getting to act like the way they treat us is fine because we don't understand that our peers dont respect us. Why would we? We're so subhuman to them, it's like asking if your cat notices you playfully insulting it.

Every autistic person I've ever met is on some level bitter and angry and TRAUMATIZED at their upbringing. Of having to go through school as the laughing stock, as the weirdo with no friends who no one wants to talk to, as the animal in the corner you can make do cheap tricks so they can experience some Simulacra of what genuine human connection is.

Now tell me, does it sound like I didn't notice?

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sorry mother mayb id liek u more if you liekd me as much as the strangers and fags in my phone do,,,,

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via pitkeeper on ig

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what have cis men done to deserve to have like a penis and testosterone n stuff. i gotta work for all this shit and ur just born into it. nepo babies all of them.

[fairychop]

what have cis men done to deserve to have like a penis and testosterone n stuff. i gotta work for all this shit and ur just born into it. nepo babies all of them.

[fairychop]

what have cis men done to deserve to have like a penis and testosterone n stuff. i gotta work for all this shit and ur just born into it. nepo babies all of them.

[fairychop]

what have cis men done to deserve to have like a penis and testosterone n stuff. i gotta work for all this shit and ur just born into it. nepo babies all of them.