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Learning to Love again.
My heart has been broken for a long time and I havent know how to feel like myself. Quite frankly I have been lost, upset and lonely for a while but never really known how to express myself properly. In stead of turn towards my emotions I've turned away, in stead of turning towards connection i've turned away, and so on.
I'm making a real effort to turn towards the person I was meant to be, the person who was made to feel, to laugh, to accept love from others.
To be honest I find this really hard, I never felt I really got this love growing up so rather than see if as something as normal and recognisable I decided to distance and alientate myself from anything real. This alone as caused me alot of unneccessary hurt and pain but I did it to ultimately to protect myself from something that may or may not come. You see I was never sure what was going to be coming my way, hurt, pain, love, whatever, it seemed to be a complete free for all, so the best thing for me to do was to pretend and defend. Pretend I was ok no matter what and defend what ever parts of me I had left.
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challenging negative beliefs
today I have to start challenging all the negative beliefs I have thought about myself
the belief I'm not good enough
the belief im incomplete
the belief I want amount to anything
these beliefs are entrench with in my decision making and actions and it's time to uproot them and replace them with more positive beliefs and realistic reasoning.
For example when i got released from Everton I made the assumption that I wasn't good enough - this lead me into shame based things and having negative beliefs about myself. In Reality the real reason I didn't make it was because I didn't practice or work as hard as the other players did.
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i want to exist beyond the mirror,
like in really life - I have never wanted anything before
but now I might actually get to exist
to be a real person
with real feelings
a real job
a real family
REAL
I WANT TO BE REAL
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in the constant search for who I am - I keep losing who I might be
who I already am
its like I eluded myself of the possibility of ever really being or becoming some,
as I start to become who I am - that is the cue for be to re begin searching for myself
rather than that allowing me to exist
I need to allow myself to exist until I actually become that person
then I will no longer need to search for myself, for validation from others, for approval or likes
I will just be me, as I am, as it was always meant to be.
Perhaps I can connect my self to something deeper
my faith
my story
my heritage
ect
I really love battles and kings and warriors, I want to look back into the celtics
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its time.
its time to stop chasing, stop running, not being busy.
it's time to learn how to be.
I've spent most my life avoiding things that are important to me and then running after things that aren't - this is extremely painful and causes me a lot of harm.
I am constantly running around to fix other peoples problems at my own expense, then left with the horrible feels of regret and shame when things don't work out - they were never going to or never meant to.
things were never meant to work out with my parents and me - it just wasn't meant to be like that, and I've been holding onto that for a long time.
I have no idea what they were thinking, how was I meant to enter into that guide of relationship with them as a child - I'm not sure it was possible.
to ignore my own needs and gain gratification for having there needs met - I'm not sure if that is right.
I know it's definitely not.
so now I need to find what is right.
I wake up with a massive headache most mornings and this sense of overwhelm and grief, its Father's day today and I have no intention of sending my dad a card, its better to avoid the contact.
I need to prioritise myself right now and stay away from any malicious words they might have towards me.
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h o w
d o
I
receive
a gift
a hug
a handshake
a smile
r e c I e v e
step back
and receive
step
all
the
way back..
further
farther
wider
deeper
longer
greater
RECIEVE MY LOVE DANIEL
POURED OUT FOR YOU
LOVE
PEACE
MERCY
GRACE
ACCEPTANCE
JUSTICE
RIGHTEOUS
HUMILITY
OPEN UP AND DRINK
OPEN UP AND EAT
OPEN UP AND DANCE
OPEN UP AND FEAST
YOUR TIME IS HERE
TURN AND FACE ME
AND RECIEVE WHAT I HAVE FOR YOU
DO NOT BE AFRAID
OR
ASHAMED
JUST RECIEVE
WHO I AM
INTO
YOUR SPIRIT
INTO
YOUR BODY
INTO
YOUR HEART
INTO
YOUR DEEPEST INNERMOST PEOPLE
EXPAND
GROW
DEEPEN
WIDEN
STRENGTHEN
UNBLOCK THE PAIN
UNBLOCK THE FEAR
UNBLOCK THE STRESS
UNBLOCK THE MISERY
UNBLOCK THE TENSION
UNBLOCK THE DOUBT
UNBLOCK THE GREED
UNBLOCK THE DENIAL
UNBLOCK THE LIES
OPEN YOUR HEART TO MY TRUTH
LISTEN TO MY VOICE
LET IT PENETRATE
YOUR INNERMOST BEING
YOUR CORE
YOUR CENTRE
YOUR MANHOOD HOOD
lord you call deep to me, show me how to answer you
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TIME
SPACE
MEANING
REASON
BEING
ACTION
CHOICE
RESPONSE
TRUTH
learn to receive this.
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opening up
I
AM
O P E N I N G
U P
A F T E R A L O N G
T I M E
O F
B E I N G
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setting myself free by asking the right questions
I'm going to set myself free my asking the right questions
what's my name?
daniel
how old am I?
33
where do I live?
Sutton, ELY
what do I do for work?
I work for the church of England
where did I study?
I studied at the university of central lancashire
where was my favourite holiday as a child?
the gambia
what were my favourite memories growing up?
going to high school, playing football with friends, riding my bike around
what were my least favourite memories growing up?
getting bullied or laughed at, not being good enough to sign for Everton, being shouted at by my parents, stressing over things I couldn't control, being dis obedient to my parents, eating bad food, arguing with people
what are my biggest regrets?
not listening to others, jumping the gun to early, not gathering all the information needed to make informed decisions, not showing real emotions, stressing about things out side of my control, not saying what I really wanted or how I really felt. letting other people judge or define me. Not telling other how I truly felt about or towards them, being shy.
what are my biggest failures?
not setting standards, boundaries or rules for myself
playing by other peoples rule book
what makes me most sad?
my saddest memory was of my dog, BOB dying when I was a kid, it was upsetting because I didn't know if I would see him ever gain and he was a good, loyal friend.
what memory make me want to cry
I remember going to sleep as a child not knowing what happens to be after I die, I remember being really upset before I went to sleep because it felt really scary and overcoming to not know what would happen to me. the thought of that makes me want to cry for myself for not knowing
what is my biggest fear?
my biggest fear is not being loved, accepted
what is my biggest phobia?
being rejected
what is my biggest stressor?
myself and how I react to things
what is my biggest limitation?
my ability to understand others and connect with their feelings
what is my biggest joy?
being myself
what is my biggest threat?
my perception of myself and others / word around me
what's one thing I am working on at the moment?
challenging myself and how I see the world around me
being unafraid to ask questions the move me forward
not being scared of other not liking me
learning to enjoy my independence and not shy away from hard things
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WORKING AT FULL CAPACITY
ITS TIME.
I'm ready now to reach my full potential, to meet my future self and present self all at once, its time for the past, present and future to collide and I come out on top.
I CAN FEEL IT IN MY BONES
MY TIME IS COMING
'IT'S DAN TIME'
what is Dan time?
DAN TIME IS ME BEING ME, WORKING, OPERATING, PRODUCING, PROGRESSING, STUDYING, LEARNING, EARNING, GROWING AT MY FULL CAPACITY.
LIKE A STEAM TRAIN THAT CANNOT BE STOPPED.
WATCH OUT.
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DONE WITH BEING FAKE.
IM DONE WITH BEING FAKE -
FOR A LONG TIME I HAVENT BEEN MY SELF, IVE IGNORED MY OWN NEEDS AT THE WIMPFUL EXCUSE OF OTHERS, IVE SURRENDERED MYSELF TO THE MERCY OF OTHER PEOPLE, I HAVE SQUANDERED WHO I AM FOR WHO I COULD ME.
ITS TIME TO BE ME
FULLY
COMPLETELY
UNAPOLOGETICALLY
IM NOT APOLOGISING FOR OTHER PEOPLE OR THE WAY THEY COULDN'T RESPECT ME
I WANT RESPECT
I WANT PURPOSE
I WANT INTERGRITY
I WANT HOPE
I WANT JOY
I WANT THE FULL PACKAGE.
D
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ROCK BOTTOM.
ROCK BOTTOM.
IM THERE,
I WAS JUST TOO AFRAID TO SAY IT!
I SETTLED FOR IT - TO BE AT THE BOTTOM OF THE PIT
AS MY LIVING
AS MY EXISTANCE
AS MY PURPOSE
BUT NO MORE I SAY!
NO MORE ROCK BOTTOM
NO MORE WAITING
PRENTENDING
BEING LESS THAN TO MAKE OTHER PEOPLE FEEL BETTER ABOUT THEMSELVES
NO MORE REJECTING
NO MORE PLEASING
NO MORE BEING FAKE.
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relationships
today I realised that I never had a proper relationship with my parents, neither my mum or my dad because I / we were simply to busy doing stuff, which sounds great, but there was never a plan in place so it just felt like ensued chaos, not knowing where we were heading but going for it anyway, that's why, when shit it the fan there was nothing for me to fall back on..
and fall I did..
now I am very much FEELING the FALL
FEEL
THE
FALL
DANIEL.
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today I realised
to I realised the importance of goals, of purpose and of action,
these really are the things that propel us forward in our lives
by setting goals we overcome fears and gain new insights
I'm going to go hard at my goals and see what happens,
really hard
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today
today my car broke down and had to be rescued by the RAC - Peace of mind
today I went for a Swim with natalie
today I went for a long walk
today I smelt the fresh air
today I let go and breathed in what was in front of me
today I ate a nice meal
today was a good day
today I was present
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Everything happens for a reason
what if everything really does happen for a reason I we just need to accept that reson in order to move on.
the reason I was born is because my parents decided to have sex
the reason I am here is because God created me
the reason I am writing this is because I decided to get up
what if life is really that simple.
Finding the reason leads to more answers
I want more answers not questions
d
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