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[fakemoriarrtsy]

I write here because no one sees, no one knows. I feel disgust with myself whenever I share with anyone I know. My mind is constantly whirring and I don’t know how to control it or stop it. I am in a cage of my own creation and I have swallowed the key.

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[fakemoriarrtsy]

I feel like I have mentioned being a poison tree before. Nothing connected to my roots grows or flourishes. I spew venom across bodies and hearts, leaving them heavily scarred and in most cases deceased. All of this with the poison being mostly inward, seeping into the crevices and pores of my being.

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Oh to be a monkey staring into the distance while Aphex Twin plays the same 3 notes on repeat

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[fakemoriarrtsy]

Enter my portal. I will show you what pains me and maybe you can explain it

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This is a visual diary and I am blind

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Alive but feeling like worms are feeding off my corpse already. Devouring any moment of joy or peace that I might come across. A permanent state of inaction.

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Just a minute batter up before you go out there. All your voices said you wouldn’t last a minute, babe.

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On my body and in my brain forever

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[fakemoriarrtsy]

I am a poison tree

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Padley Gorge (@peak.district IG)

[fakemoriarrtsy]

Hello world. I’ve been away for quite some time now, nothing seems to be getting better. I still cannot feel a thing except a crushed soul. My will to go on lessens by the day, but I am afraid. I do not know of what, but fear conquers.

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Hold me until i collapse into the void

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