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im such a liar lmao

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i know id be treated so much better if i was thinner. at the end of the day i just want to be loved but i have to lose weight first.

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still maintaining lmfao im going to kms

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nothing fucking fits me

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i have such pretty features under all this fat

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omfg looking through my old posts. i am pathetic. 2yrs. i couldve been 100lbs by now. but ive been losing and gaining the same 20lbs. for TWO YEARS. jfc.

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im going to be obese forever ☠️

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i gotta lose 5lbs by the end of the month. i am determined to be AT LEAST 180 by the end of the year. i could easily be 160/150 but im a loser and dont have high hopes for myself considering i cant even seem to make it under 200 but anyway…

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i re-gained 13lbs for like the 5th time and now i have to re-lose it. im going to lose my mind.

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:(

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bruhhhh

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22 & 5’5”

hw: 260

cw: 200

gw1: 200

gw2: 180

gw3: 165

gw4: 130

ugw: 111

feel free to message me for whatever reason. if you j want someone to talk to, have the same stats as me, want to tell me to st4rve myself, whatever lmao.

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think i should be 203 again. finally ☠️. last time i was 203 was march lmfao. but (tmi) im like constipated lmaooo. i swear, id be 203 this morning but i need to take a lax. 🧎‍♀️

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im eating under 1000 cals every day this month. theoretically i should be 190 by december 1st. i can do it lol. i suddenly feel very control of myself and my eating. i know what to do and how to avoid a binge.

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alright. 204.8. finally back on track. i WILL be under 200 by the end of november. ☠️ i think once i hit the 190s it will lead me to be stricter to avoid getting back in the 200s. i havent been under 200lbs for yeeears. im excited.

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i hate feeling hungry.

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maybe im delusional but i feel like its gonna be rly easy for me to get a thigh gap lmao. like i rly wouldnt have to lose much fat on my thighs to have a gap. my hips must have gotten wider or smth 🙏