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so! been doing some thinkinggg...

i'm, unfortunately, not feeling the majority of these muses anymore!

now, the main ones that have stayed consistent favorites -- chang'e, xingyin, azure, lady yin, and mei -- are going to be thrown onto my multifandom multimuse!

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"Do you still love him?" I know the answer.

"I did, once. I don't know, memory is a faulty thing and the past moves in circles. I don't think about some things for months, only to obsess over them for a week. Also, I don't think I know him now. I did once, and I loved him, loved who he was and who he could be. But I know he's a different person now, I am too."

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The Flesh I Burned

(read full excerpt here)

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dont know what this ship is called but i luv it

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   fun fact !

   Iron Fan did NOT know how to deal with Red Son when he was born.. as in :  she didn’t know how to hold him, how / long to feed him, or when was the right time to burp him.

   she knows the basics of what you’re supposed to do, but had no experience to pull from as never had any  ‘ true ‘  children of her own and, even though she is the ancestor to other wind gods in the Taoist iterations, she more than likely would’ve handed them off to maids to raise them since she was an absurdly-driven workaholic. 

   DBK had to teach her a lot of baby-related things after he caught her holding their son under her arm like a football.

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   Xingyin has.. a complicated relationship with romance. 

   when it comes to her mother, Chang’e, Xingyin has heard all of the various iterations of the tragic story between her mother and father.  she’s heard the tales where Chang’e was the greedy and vain villainess, where Hou Yi had an affair and planned to make himself and his lover ageless, and iterations where both parties were victims of terrible timing and at the mercy of the universe. 

   as for Xingyin herself, she’s only ever had two people in her life that she had ever seen romantic interest in ; however, both of these people, like her, had their own important secrets to keep.  

   Liwei, the only crowned prince of the Jade/Celestial Emperor, was not only a close friend, despite being the only son of the Celestial/Jade Emperor, but also her classmate as they tutored privately together for a handful of years.  they’ve exchanged gifts, been each other’s confidants, and developed feelings for each other through their constant closeness ; but, ultimately, it is suddenly revealed to Xingyin the day of an agreement for an arranged marriage between Liwei and another that comes from a powerful family to keep strong alliances.  the relationship between him and Xingyin was more a relationship filled with yearning and temptations, but after the fallout of their friendship, the girl throws herself into the military to put distance between her and the pain that came with the fallout.  by the end of the novel, the two become amicable enough to be friends.

   Wenzhi on the other hand, the young and accomplished Captain of the Guard, is a seemingly tight-laced man, but has nuggets of relativity that draws her in.  he’s darkly handsome, sympathetic in his own quirky ways, but treats Xingyin like he does anyone else in his unit as he departs bits of wisdom to her.  In the following years, though she is more weary of her feelings, the two grow close not just as comrades, but as friends that  ; it’s his respect and view of her as an equal that makes his later betrayal that much more heart-wrenching, especially when, at the same time, he is using the one thing that could free Xingyin’s mother from her bindings to strengthen his own personal matters.  as the novel comes to its end, he and Xingyin are on rocky terms, at best. 

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"The nonhuman. People are afraid of her." — Anaïs Nin, Nearer the Moon

Go Youn Jung in Sweet Home (2020 - ) S01 Ep09 Alchemy of Souls (2022 - 2023) S01 Ep01 Moving (2023) S01 Ep05

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I love nautical and seaside town horror stories. Tell me more about the fog and water that eats people

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wants to write long reply: can only come up with like six sentences

meant to keep it short: writes fucking gone with the wind

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@newdleboy

PRINCESS MONONOKE • もののけ姫 1997 — dir. Hayao Miyazaki

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me? going back to my default header?

you betcha 😎✨

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why is she like this