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been a hot second since ive been on here but i finally scored the lis : tc so once i play my mac muse might come back full swing ,,,, so i might be making a comeback on here or moving mac to my multi <3 @deathwis !!

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when richard siken said “I want to tell you this story without confessing anything [...] I want to tell you this story without having to be in it”

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QUICK PROMO TIME : if you'd be interested in engaging with a multi-muse rp blog that deals with dark-ish themes and healing, please give this post a like / reblog ! featuring muses from » escape the night, little hope, twdg, danganronpa, and more!

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                             We’re   just   animals   still   learning   how   to   crawl

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STARTER CALL

i want to get things moving on here so !! like this post for a starter ! if multi, please specify what muse, and if you wish to plot something, shoot me a dm and i can go from there, thank you <3

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never in his life did mac think he would be forced to admit that he's been stealing glances at some girl, forced to constantly duck his head to feign casualty when he would almost get caught gawking. in his defense, alex was quite the mess to be drawn to. there always appeared to be this natural glow to her, making her stand out more then mac ( initially ) thought she deserved. but now it makes sense, it all does, and the man is embarrassed to admit that gabe had every reason to hype her up the way he did. the girl's got a heart made of something utterly pure to show kindness to him the way she did near the bridge, and that's not even admiring the beating she survived because of that asshole jed. it irks the old safety manager in him to know how truly dangerous those mines were, but with that bastard in custody -- it's not like mac can play anyone's knight in shining armor now. what a mess.

the real fact of the matter is the fact alex is made of tough stuff and everyone in this town knows it. you can't fault him for glancing at her every now and then, body unknowingly tense as though he's worried. but eventually, he buries that feeling down because it's not his business, even if she is hurt to hell. forces his gaze to stare into the deep hole of his beer bottle and his fading, field-worn hands.

yet despite making the appropriate choice to leave her be, mac having a break is never well deserved in the eyes of whatever higher power that's laughing at him ( or it's just gabe's ghost, one of the two ) because he feels a presence. a creak in the floorboards as someone draws near. and call him paranoid, but after typhon, mac finds his hands twisting into fists -- a nervous string of wires uncurling in his chest. be ready to run and hide.

it's only when alex speaks that mac's posture evens out again. he doesn't bother with exchanging pleasantries back, too floored by the fact the injured person was checking in on him. “i must be a really pitiful sight for you to ask me that. you should keep your worries to yourself, you need them more than me.” finally, he takes her in, grimacing despite not seeing much yet to warrant such a reaction. “the whole town was losing their minds about your state, must've been bad.”

realizing he might be coming off harsher then he attends, the man looks away to sip at the warmed liquid ; before giving alex what she wants. considering the fact she practically saved his life and all, the last thing on his mind was antagonizing her or giving her shit. if she asks him a question, mac will answer her. it's the least he can do for the town's local almost-martyr.

“besides the fact i'll be short on bills this month, i'll be okay. which ... thanks, for that, and for all the heroics. i was right not to bet against you,” a pause, almost like he's considering what to say. whatever potential meaningful words he was mulling over, however, gets stuck between his teeth. all that comes out is, “and you?”

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a glance is given and a beat passes before alex finds herself making her way over to mac. both of their lives had been threatened by typhon, and yet the two of them had managed to survive - barely, in alex's case. she feels slightly awkward but also relieved to see that he was doing okay. when jed had shot her, she had assumed the worst. if typhon could get people to stalk her and her friends, what would they have done to mac? had she not intervened would they have tried to end him like they had tried to do with her? the thought was daunting, and while alex had not had the best start with mac, she was still glad to see he was unharmed.

"hey, mac." her voice pipes up. "are you... are you doing okay?" the girl was recovering from her wounds, thankfully, but movement still caused a strain she didn't like to show to those around her. all she could do was cross her arms slowly, in an attempt to not stand so awkwardly in place, and to also not accidentally knock her bruised ribs too. she'd gotten bruises before, but god did they hurt. she was alive, though, so at least there was that.

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like all of my main muses, mac has a costar ... @safetymnger if anyone wants to compare muse charts !! but in other words, based on his birthdate, this is his big three tm :

leo sun, libra moon, libra rising

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thinking about how mac was born and raised in the town and im like. haha what if he had a childhood friend and they fell out after something ... but they still wind up in the same little circle of town, stuck seeing each other ... like, what then, lis creators?

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*    LOWKEY  AWKWARD  SENTENCE  STARTERS .

contains  mild  swearing ,  cigarette  mention .

“ hey, uh… you dropped this. ”

“ sorry, i didn’t see you there. ”

“ i thought you’d be taller. ”

“ fuck, sorry, what was your name again? ”

“ i’m not great at this kind of thing. ”

“ that made a lot more sense in my head. ”

“ does your brain ever just crap out on you? ”

“ watch where you’re going! ”

“ you’re not supposed to have that. ”

“ you can’t smoke in here. ”

“ aren’t you a little young to be doing that? ”

“ aren’t you a little old to be doing that? ”

“ no offense, but you’re not at all what i expected. ”

“ seemed like the kind of thing you’d like. ”

“ you were a lot cuter in high school. ”

“ so what, you’ve peaked? it’s all downhill from here? ”

“ all i’m saying is, they hyped you up a lot. ”

“ my feelings are complicated, okay? ”

“ what’s going on up there? ”

“ jesus, just kill me now. ”

“ i’ve been trying to tell you i’m into you for months. ”

“ no, that’s okay, i’ve got it. ”

“ is it true, what they said about you? ”

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'𝚃𝙰𝙺𝙴 𝙼𝚈 𝙷𝙰𝙽𝙳' 𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙿𝚃𝚂.

i got mushy and started thinking about like. touches?? but in particular the meaning behind holding hands. so here we are! as always, sender is the person sending the meme, receiver is the person receiving it, and you can just add "+ REVERSE" to switch the roles about! as always, let me know if i've missed any good ones!

[ LEAD ] : sender takes receiver by the hand to guide them to a specific location.

[ PULL ] : sender takes receiver by the hand to help them to their feet after they've fallen or been knocked over.

[ HASTE ] : in order to move quickly through dangerous territory, sender grabs receiver's hand to bring them to safety.

[ SAVE ] : saving their life in the process, sender grabs receiver's hands to either yank them out of immediate danger, or to pull them to safety.

[ REASSURANCE ] : noticing the receiver is upset, sender gently takes their hand to reassure them and provide them with a sense of comfort.

[ JUST BECAUSE ] : sender holds receiver's hand, just because they can.

[ STOP ] : sender takes receiver's hand to stop them from walking away from them.

[ ATTENTION ] : to get receiver's attention, or to guide it elsewhere, sender hastily takes their hand.

[ FEAR ] : sender, out of instinctive fear, grabs receiver's hand for comfort.

[ TOGETHER ] : in a gesture intended to prove to the receiver that they're no longer alone, sender takes their hand and holds it firmly.

[ LOVE ] : while out together in a romantic setting, sender quietly holds receiver's hand as they're standing together.

[ DISPLAY ] : during the process of an undercover mission/a situation where their identities need to be protected, sender holds receiver's hand to give the impression that they're in a romantic relationship.

[ SUPPORT ] : following a massive emotional blow, sender takes receiver's hand and holds it in an effort to provide emotional support.

[ STEADY ] : noticing the receiver stumbling or losing their balance, sender takes their hand in an effort to physically steady them.

[ NOT ALONE ] : during a moment of intense distress for the sender, they wordlessly reaches out and takes receiver's hand, both as a gesture of gratitude for being with them, and a gesture of self-comfort.

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- There’s something off about me. I know what other people are feeling. I can see these auras around them. And if they feel strongly enough… if they’re angry, or sad, or afraid… I feel it, too. And then I lose control. - And this has happened… - For a long time. Like Mac, I felt all that anger like it was my own. - I think it was pretty clear Mac was angry.

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STARTER CALL

i want to get things moving on here so !! like this post for a starter ! if multi, please specify what muse, and if you wish to plot something, shoot me a dm and i can go from there, thank you <3

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#FAULTD : A SHITTY PROMO FOR A SHITTY GUY . an independent & semi-selective rp blog for MAC LOUDON from LIFE IS STRANGE TRUE COLORS . a portrayal heavily loaded with canon and personal headcanons . warning for : triggering content .

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@pseudoneiric said : “so you’re saying you want me to lie to cover your ass?” hmmmm from denver…

asking for faith anywhere has never boded well for someone like him ; a blaring truth mac's been faced with for years. it's familiar, the distrust and hostility, but it never fails to dig right under his skin. bringing forth this burning sensation all over, like he was on fire -- stuck to do nothing except let it flare and burn out whenever it passed ( but waiting is torture, feels better to do something ). at the passive tone paired with sharp words, his split lip peels back to bare his teeth before he remembers himself ; pressing said lips together instead. this guy was nothing short of a stranger being pressed by a dude who just kicked someone's ass, so at least the judgement here made sense. mac decides he can be lenient with him this time around, even if his patience has never been generous to begin with.

“no, no, that is not --!” a swallow, as if he's trying to shove his voice into the depths of his throat. lower it. “listen, all i am asking is for you to leave it to me. is that so hard to understand?”

while pride has never been a main motivator, that doesn't mean he can't feel it bruising to match the state his face is in. chest stinging in sync to the vibrations he feels all over -- nothing more than a distorted, pestering song you'd hear blasting on haven's radio. he's stuck feeling the aftermath of the fight, and all mac wants is to make his escape so he can find somewhere to rest his sluggish body. now that the anger was yanked out, there's nothing left but a wary drag to his bones and a beaten-in face to tend to. but fuck, of course the authorities were called. leaving mac with no choice but to wiggle his way out of this situation. again.

( stuck pleading with the closest, still awake witness of the fight to not tell the truth )

his hand shakes when he points to the front, composer loosening by the minute. “i can explain the situation by myself, no help needed. just don't. say. anything. if they ask, pretend you didn't see it. you aren't lying, you're only letting me handle it. my mess anyway, right?”

lying dries his tongue, sticking the muscle to the roof of his aching mouth. but sometimes, it's all mac has to utilize -- he wishes things were different, he does, but if he's found starting fights in other towns too ... there'll be talk. and he can't let it circle around back to the only people he cares about, all the way in new haven. by whatever means necessary, he'll say anything to ( as the stranger put it ) 'cover his ass'. there's more on the line here for him then whatever this prick could gain from being cozy with the cops. so he's here, face purple and eyes swollen red, asking for a pinch of humanity. not the first time, but mac blindly hopes it'll be the last. he can do better, had been, until someone jeered at him.

( why does everyone expect him to roll over for everyone who treats him poorly to begin with? what a shit double standard )

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been thinking about making a rd.r2 verse for mac ... i have been playing that game again and it's inspired me. also? new haven as a town in the game would be interesting

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feel free to change any pronouns, etc.

“The day’s finally here.”

“We’ve been through a lot in that time.”

“You know that I care about you.”

“I just want what’s best for you.”

“I’m cool with a hug if you are.”

“I can’t believe you’re here.”

“It’s always better to give an honest answer.”

“You don’t need to worry, really.”

“Luck or not, I have officially cheated death.”

“I’m surprised you got outta there with both your hands.”

“I can’t believe you’re doing this again.”

“I’m loquacious, goddammit. It’s charming.”

“It’s really nice to have you here.”

“Where are you going with this?”

“I don’t think it helps to recap all the gory details, you know?”

“So you’re saying you want me to lie to cover your ass?”

“She is the best thing to ever happen to me.”

“What the fuck is wrong with you?”

“Oh my god, look at your face—”

“Why do you give a shit?”

“Oh god, were you there, too?”

“I get so worked up thinking about you with him.”

“Can I buy you a drink?”

“I can tell there’s something going on with you.”

“I don’t expect you to believe me.”

“You’re fucking with me, right?”

“I have no idea what’s going on with people half the time.”

“I’m here for you. Don’t forget that.”

“You wanna tell me how you got out here?”

“What the fuck did you just say?”

“Fuck those guys.”

“It’s not your job to keep it together.”

“How ya holding up?”

“He could bring a smile to my face even on the worst days.”

“I should get an emotional support dog, but, like— for other people.”

“My job is to keep people safe, and I failed.”

“Oof. That’s a lot of blood, huh?”

“You’re stuck with me now.”

“This is like a bad dream…”

“Oh, that sounds like a nice idea.”

“No one will be disappointed in you for being you.”

“What is wrong with me?”

“When did I become such a fucking monster.”

“Why couldn’t you just fucking listen?”

“I don’t need to take this.”

“I know you tried to do the right thing.”

“It’s always flattering to see how much you care about me.”

“You know I’m spoken for, right?”

“I wasn’t mentally prepared for that at all.”

“You’re the most amazing person I’ve ever met.”

“I really wanna kiss you right now.”

“I think I can figure it out.”

“Don’t make this hard.”

“What’re you so scared of?”

“I don’t want you to get hurt.”

“I know you’re used to looking out for yourself.”

“I want to help you.”

“[Name], why are you sad?”

“What’re you doing?”

“You don’t have to do this.”

“I made a mistake… The kind of thing that you can’t undo.”

“Go to hell.”

“I suppose I’m proud of you for trying.”

“It’s going to be okay, do you understand me?”

“I am going to be okay.”

“You don’t think you missed anything?”

“Did I miss something?”

“I want you to make me a promise.”

“You have to be strong.”

“This is going to suck so bad.”

“You know that’s not how it went down, right?”

“Keep your voice down.”

“Despite what you may believe, you do not know everything.”

“Don’t fucking touch me!”

“It’s okay, it was just an accident.”

“I can’t do this.”

“You need to be honest about what you see.”

“No one gets to tell you what you’re worth.”

“You can change the world.”

“What the hell happened?”

“Sometimes, when we’re hurting, the people we lash out at are the one who are trying to help.”

“How can you stand there and say these things?”

“I believe you. Of course I do.”

“I don’t want any more of this.”

“All I know is everything falls to shit when you’re involved.”

“There’s something wrong with you, and now there’s something wrong with me.”

“I can’t help you, I’m sorry.”

“You believe me, right?”

“Why are you doing this?”

“I thought we were in this together.”

“I thought you cared about me.”

“Maybe I wasn’t strong enough.”

“Can you ever forgive me?”

“How can I ever trust you again?”

“I’m not used to getting to decide what I want.”

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not to be emotional but i really think about how like, isolated mac is within the haven springs community. we know from the creators and the game itself he's only close to eleanor and riley, and we're told ( / kinda shown ) how clingy he is with them. because they're all he has in the town ya know? it makes me so sad when i see mac described as incredibly loyal to his friends because guess what !! he literally has none besides his gf and her grandma. the tragic part of it all is that it's mac's own fault he has nobody but them. and it's his own fault he loses that too ...