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    so i accidentally dropped off the face of the earth, but my GRE is tomorrow.  after that’s done i’ll have more time to be around on my best boy.

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seeksbats:

 @fcarful  // ♡’d

      ❛    not  that  that  wasn’t  SUPER  COOL  or  anything  but ,  you  should  be  more  careful  next  time .  you  could  have  gotten  yourself  seriously  hurt .    ❜

   colin grimaces through the change back to normal-size, wincing at the way it makes his joints pop.  ❛   oh, please !!  i’m good at taking a few hits.  kinda my specialty.   ❜

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indcmitableshield:

Ω diana chuckled again before reaching out to take his hand, grasping it in a firm grip. “it is a pleasure to meet you, Colin. you may call me Diana, if you wish.” it always humbles her to hear of the admiration others seem to hold for her ; in a way, it reminds her why she does all of this. 

    ❛  really ??  that’s cool.  diana.  ❜   he smiles when she shakes his hand.  he’s been playing hero for years, but it’s still rare that he meets a hero that’s not gotham-bound.  ❛   so what brings you here ??   ❜ 

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hey. does anyone want to....interact.

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batricide:

“Tt…”

It’s a miracle Colin caught him – but he supposes he shouldn’t be surprised. His friend had always been full of surprises, and tracking him down in one of the rare instances he decided to spend more than an hour on Earth wasn’t beyond the realm of possibilities.

The latest blowout with Batman hadn’t exactly ended in his favor. He hadn’t even seen his father, just that arrogant thief that thought herself his soulmate. He rubs the scratches on his cheek and sets his jaw, glancing at the other boy out of the corner of his eye before he sets his sights on the Gotham skyline. Damian could start the fight, but they would always finish it.

He never felt more like a boy playing at a man than now.

He’d beat the old man’s smug face in  if it was the last thing he ever did.

“If there’s anyone I would trust to not ‘narc’ on me to my father, it would be you.”

   tt indeed.  colin’s quiet for nearly a minute, not sure what to even say about all this.  his gaze is drawn to the scratches across damian’s cheek, and a frown pulls at colin’s lips.  hm.  it looks like a kind of nasty wound, but it could have been a pet, colin supposes.  

he doesn’t ask about it, instead just extends a finger to poke above it, like that’s going to give him a better idea of what happened.  colin’s never been particularly tactful.  hopefully it doesn’t earn him a broken hand.

    --- if damian were to voice those feelings, that he’s playing at a man.  colin might say that they’ve been expected to play at men for so long that they’ve earned the title in all but years.  because it’s never felt fair to colin that either of them should be expected to shoulder the burden of gotham, or of war, and still be taken for a child.

but...but what’s the point of saying those things?

        “  of course i wouldn’t narc on you.  that’d be a shitty move.  are you...doing okay?   ”

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Colin Wilkes did not bat an eye at something so horrific it made Damian throw up.

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I hate fanon interpretation of Colin Wilkes.

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can you believe this boy is literally superboy.

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torchbore:

          ‘    do you ever think of someone &. want to die    ?      ‘

       ❛   oh, sure.  sometimes i don’t even have to think of anybody.   ❜

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well well well. if it isn’t my old friend, the dawning realization that i fucked up real bad

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phantomemes:

rp sentence starters using lines from r.h. sin’s work , whiskey words and a shovel I  part one / part two / part three

“ you’re always coming back. ” “ you fear you’ve been replaced. ” “ it was your love that caused all this. ” “ it was you that made me this way. ” “ suddenly, being heartless was better than being heartbroken. ” “ we have found ourselves. ” “ i wish changing my heart was as easy as changing my mind. ” “ and they wonder why the good know so much pain. ” “ the snow makes the cemetery look alive. ” “ the heart takes too long to figure out what the mind already knows. ” “ i learned to live without you. ” “ just a funeral held in memory of the person i was. ” “ you deliberately destroyed me. ” “ what was there to love? ” “ i now know that i was in this alone. ” “ i find myself pretending to be fine. ” “ my smile is usually a mask. ” “ you’ll think i’m weak. ” “ it’s easier said than done. ” “ you’re always alone whenever real shit occurs. ” “ all of this is all of nothing. ” “ you’re full of pain, but filled with fight. ” “ the idea of getting married scares me. ” “ i have nothing more to offer than myself. ” “ i don’t really recognize the person i’ve become. ” “ a year can change a lot. ” “ you no longer deserve my thoughts. ” “ i am ashamed for having given in to your pleas. ” “ i want to dance with you. ” “ my spine has been weighed down by a life of despair and disappointment. ” “ how brave it is, to love completely. ” “ i’ll try for you, because you’re worth it. ” “ sometimes nightmares are people. ” “ being alone brings me closer to peace. ” “ you’ve become like a prison. ” “ i’m planning ways to escape you. ” “ i remember everything i don’t want to. ” “ i struggle to comprehend your inability to love me as much as i loved you. ” “ you’re relying on a broken mirror. ” “ i’ll rebuild without you. ” “ loving you meant that i didn’t love myself. ” “ tomorrow will be even harder. ” “ i’ve accepted my fate. ” “ you took what you wanted. ” “ i am trying to find myself under the rubble of my own heart. ” “ i’m tired of pretending it doesn’t hurt. ” “ i was wrong about you. ” “ the truth always rises to the surface. ” “ they’ve gotten what they wanted from you. ” “ heartache made me so fucking unforgiving. ” “ in you, lives a love that most people won’t be able to comprehend. ” “ they’re no longer good for you. ” “ you can’t find love in places filled with hate. ” “ who will understand my scars? ” “ i just want to stop thinking about you. ” “ i hope those lies burn your lips. ” “ i barely recognize myself anymore. ” “ my most dangerous habit is overthinking. ” “ this was never meant to work. ” “ i’d like to learn you. ” “ i’d like to love every part of you. ” “ you struggle to fit in places where you don’t belong. ” “ you’re only here because your friends wanted to go. ” “ love me when things are bad. ” “ love me through my imperfections. ” “ never apologize for burning too bright. ” “ i was willing to drown for them. ” “ shallow compliments have no meaning. ” “ i yelled because i actually cared. ” “ i only argued with you because i gave a fuck. ” “ i should have been a bit clearer about what i was asking for. ” “ no one wants to be alone. ” “ there is loneliness in being with the wrong person. ” “ and i continue to burn. ” “ it hurts like hell. ” “ i accept you as you are. ” “ you’re still beautiful to me. ” “ you were only meant to be temporary. ” “ slowly, death crept up behind me. ” “ holding onto you was killing me. ” “ i nearly lost my damn mind. ” “ i can love you, but only from a distance. ” “ some people are more lovable when they’re not around. ” “ you’re a sinner, i’m your accomplice. ” “ a moment of weakness doesn’t define your strength. ” “ i won’t miss you. ” “ one day you’ll understand. ”

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are most of your freckles on your face or are they other places too?

     ❛   well, who’s asking ??  i mean, mostly my face and shoulders.  but i got some in lots of places.   ❜  

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do you ever regret meeting damian?

     ❛   how could i ??   ❜   colin’s almost perturbed by the question.  why would he ever regret that ??   ❛   well, first of all.  he saved my life, so it’d be pretty stupid to regret meeting him.  but, i mean.  come on, he’s a superhero.  one of the coolest ones, and he protects gotham.  and he’s my best friend. no regrets.   ❜ 

              // @perfectedrobin

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hey so who would be interested in an ic disord for teen heroes/comic charas.

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    outofgotham.  so my freakin’ grad school application has me ten kinds of stressed, and it’s also going to make me broke, but uh...i’m really excited and really nervous.  also, i have the night off work.  i just think that by monday i’ll be able to hit submit on my application and then all i have to worry about is an ethics exam and taking the GRE by the beginning of November. 

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extrcordinary:

miss oracle. barbara gets a kick out of that one. she’s not sure there’s anyone that’s addressed her so formally in quite some time. he’s a good kid though; she shouldn’t be surprised by it. ‘ i can do that. give me a just a moment. ’ it’s relatively quiet, at least by gotham standards, but that can change at the drop of a hat. beyond double checking her alert system, she records the coordinates and status of everyone on patrol before tuning into colin’s channel once more.

‘ now then, i’m all ears. ’ he doesn’t sound particularly concerned about whatever is on his mind, which eases barbara’s tension for the moment. there’s a chance it could be a familiar trouble brewing and nothing that requires immediate action. she’s always a fan of being able to plan ahead, after all. ‘ why don’t you just start from the beginning and i’ll see what blanks i can fill in. ’ 

  colin readjusts the piece in his ear to sit more comfortably while she takes a second to go over some of the others on patrol.  honestly ??  he almost falls asleep in the couple of minutes he has to wait.  he looks at his watch.  fuck, he’s probably not going to have time to sleep before he has to catch the bus.

   ❛   okay, so here’s this thing i noticed.  but i know i can’t be the only one who noticed because you guys are all like...mega-detectives.   ❜  so basically, what colin is saying, is that he’s hoping he gets to be in on whatever this is.  cuz it seems like it has to be something.  

   ❛   when i started patrol, i noticed that camera that’s totally set up at the lamp-post on jefferson was tampered with.  like i couldn’t see how it was tampered with, but it had clearly been messed with.  and i thought, no big deal, someone will come fix that.  but three hours later no one had fixed it.  and then i saw it in a few other locations where i know you or red robin have surveillance.  so here’s my theory.  someone fu -- messed with them, and you’re letting them think they’ve gotten away with it.  am i hot or cold?   ❜ 

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indcmitableshield:

Ω a small chuckle escaped the amazon’s lips as she sheathed her sword at her hip. ‘ yes, i am diana,’ she said, giving the boy a small nod of the head. ‘ your excitement humbles me.’

    ❛   that’s so cool, holy cow.  i - uh --   ❜   he wipes his palm off on his jeans before he offers it to shake hers.   ❛   i’m colin !!  i used to have a poster of you on my wall, but -- but i swear it wasn’t in a creepy way.   ❜