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i ❤️ cut content i love unused assets, i love early/beta versions, i love dev notes left in code, i love out of bounds discoveries, i love the cutting room floor, i love placeholder graphics/text, i love debug modes, i love concept art, i love hacking, i love silly placeholder names given by devs, i love scrapped plot points and mechanics, i love unfinished and abandoned models, i love parts of code that was intended to work but was never properly implemented, i love unused content being leftover in the final version that may no longer hold its original intended purpose yet still remains in place even if hidden away out of bounds or remains visible yet inaccessible to a player without their knowledge that it was once meant to be something but somewhere along the lines of development got scrapped but took too much effort to remove or was forgotten about so it sits there, a memento of something that once was

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A bus may have only a couple of passengers, especially at the beginning or end of its route. But let's also take fuel efficiency into account.

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I am honored to walk beside so many lovely people making their way out of Christianity. Y'all are better walking companions than any poem about footprints could brag about.

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Everyone warns you agaist going to the supermarket hungry, but nobody tells you about the dangers of going there too full: I do not want any of these things, for I will never require any food at all!

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I cant believe this tweet is how I find out

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"everybody hates me" factoid actually just a statistical error. The average person doesn't hate you, especially not your friends. You, a person who sits in your room experiencing self loathing every day, are an outlier adn should not have been counted.

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you have to be able to defend people who are receiving unjust treatment even if they annoy you even if you personally find them extremely annoying you still have to be able to stand up and say "well thats fucked up"

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part of the reason I think it’s so sad that we collectively write so few stories about unrequited love is bc I feel like there’s very little public acknowledgment of how much it sucks to be the one somebody is in unrequited love with??? and not in a way of like, oh they’re crossing boundaries or putting expectations on me or whatever. becoming close friends with someone and then finding out they’re in love with you and you don’t love them back the same way is heartbreaking, bc a) someone you love is in pain and there is literally nothing you can do about it, and b) it usually means that whether you like it or not there’s going to be distance in your friendship that wasn’t there before as they try to get over you. idk man I just feel like we’ve all discussed the tragedy of loving someone who doesn’t love you back quite a lot and very rarely discuss the tragedy of finding out the way that you love someone just isn’t enough.

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who else mourning the person they could've been if they were treated kindly as a child

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the thing is. knowing someone experiences hallucinations or trouble reading facial expressions or communication difficulties or any other symptom CAN help you to understand their behaviour and respond to it appropriately. but knowing someones diagnosis is never as helpful as it is to listen to them when they talk about how they can best be accommodated. and if “can you please speak slower” (for example) sounds like a ridiculous request from someone without a diagnosis and a reasonable one from someone with a diagnosis. well you’re the dick in that situation

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they should make nervous systems that are less nervous

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I think it’s funny how Mormon God was like “look polygamy is super important and I am telling you my followers to practice it even in the face of persecution” and then 40 years later Congress said Utah wouldn’t be given statehood as long as the LDS practiced polygamy and Mormon God was like “Ok tell everyone I changed my mind”

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My best advice for not killing yourself is you need to have events and you need to follow through with them. Watch parties with friends. Go to events at your local library. Join discord servers with regular Things. Actually say yes when your friends invite you somewhere. Start going to cheap classes. Hell, there's free ones some places. Get events! Get something regular! Try a bunch of shit until it sticks! I cannot emphasize enough how much it got me through so much shit. Go to Events it won't fix you but it'll keep you from flinging yourself out a window for long enough that you can actually start getting better, and provides more opportunities to get better (friends, actual moments of joy, seeing the world around you)

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i hope luigi mangione is proven innocent & gets to sue a ton of companies for slander and win & i hope he gets enough money to rebuild his life and get any help for his chronic pain that he needs & i hope he’s able to disappear from the public eye entirely if that’s what he wants

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a detailed list of things i hate

hot weather

high temperatures

heat

warmer than average conditions

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the other day i learned that taking a long time to fall asleep is called “sleep latency” which is just the funniest thing to me tbh