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Every time I look in a mirror: fat

Every time I move: fat

Every time I eat: fat

My hands, my chin, my arms: fat

My thighs and hips: disgustingly obese

My reflection: a blob of fat trying to shape itself into a person

I don’t even look human

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mood for the day being 70% determined by the number on the scale

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So almost went into b1n6e mode again, I had cooked it all and plated it, the whole deal. Then I remembered just how well I've done this week, im down 6 in 3 days (despite my partner pushing takeout on me... that was horrible)

Realised what i wanted was taste so back to my old c/s methods and that was the whole day. Glad i didnt ruin it.

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does anyone else get angry when they see a skinny person eating unhealthy or eating a-lot like why can’t that be me?

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Do it for the

« Omg you’ve lost weight ! »🦋

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You ever just have sleep for dinner??

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What my hair gets: professional shampoo + conditioner; hair food every few days; extra styling; nice smelling hair oil; extra love and care to compensate for my lack of hygiene

What the rest of my body gets: pepsi max/diet coke; sugar free gum; diet energy drinks; pencil sharpeners

I’m hilarious /s

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I can’t control my life so I control my eating.

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25 and counting...

🍄✨ Are there like even, any active people on ED Tumblr that are like 21+ bc if so I'd like it if we follow each other. ✨🍄

✨(active June 2021) ✨

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Bitches call me triple A the way I be anorexic, anxious, and autistic

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U

DON’T

NEED

FOOD :)

( but u need to drink some water )

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Honestly, not eating isn’t the hard part for me. It’s the waiting. Every moment of the day I just want it to be over: so I can go to sleep, wake up, and get back on the scale, so it can tell me I’m one step closer.

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Breakfast of champions

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I feel this so much. I've gotten quite far now, but I started here and I had to do it alone. I never judge or diminish just because you had to start higher. Just means we're stronger for having so much farther to go.

245) i’m 214 lbs n im so scared 2 even mention that 2 anyone or anywhere. i’ve lost 4 pounds in the past 3 days but i keep binging and restricting n it makes everything feel it’s not worth it n it’s not valid. i wish i knew more people like me but i can never find them.

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my motivation to ⭐️ve?

i’m tired of being the ugly fat friend. i won’t let myself go through this anymore.