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isat's text has a rule of always using exactly 3 exclamation marks (along with siffrin's general inclination towards repetitions of 3, which becomes especially apparent in the narration of act 5) so siffrin's profile description in act 6 breaking from that rule and using 4 exclamation marks instead is so simple but so effective

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had a self-depreciating thought that was immediately followed up by me absentmindedly muttering "siffrin ass thought process" until i realized what i said and immediately the thought was banished from my mind. because i was bewilderedly giggling. thanks isat for the cool mental health trick i guess

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Mute this. The music is annoying.

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happy birthday dev does this spark joy

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Sketchpage commission for @bortort featuring some experience sharing and subsequent comforting <3

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crisp glass of water moodboard

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i want what david cronenberg has

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I changed In Stars and Time to Japanese and hit it with the google lens translator. I just really need to take in "weaknesses: gamer"

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Thinking about how Isabeau was an incredibly insecure child, and still carries so many insecurities that he masks under his positive protector façade. He casually drops the line that he could Change again so he wouldn't be someone the party would be "ashamed of knowing", and this is after he already Changed so much away from the short nerdy kid with braids that he used to be. He used to look in the mirror and was faced by a reflection that so wholly didn't match what he wanted to be, and even after he spent so long Crafting the physical, sculpting and molding his body so carefully, he couldn't erase his feelings of inadequacy.

The airhead mask is comforting in a way. It's useful. It makes him seem less threatening, more safe to others. Funny, not disquieting. Isabeau understands that intelligence can scare people, can throw them off. When Siffrin tells him directly that nobody would think less of him if he dropped his mask, he expresses disbelief. He doesn't believe them. This is how he was able to connect with others! This works! But at the same time, he feels so much shame. He doesn't WANT people to think he's stupid. Conversely, he's embarrassed when he expresses how intelligent he really is by accident and someone else suddenly notices.

Isabeau is, at his core, terrified of being Too Much. He's the only one who knows how to make a bomb. He says that he learned how to in his Defender training, but I fully believe in my heart that it's a lie. He's stuttering when he says it, and he offers up that excuse after Odile asks him how he knows that, pinning him with this expression

Everyone else also offers up that they have no idea how to make a bomb, and are surprised that he does. He's suddenly aware that his knowledge is being seen as scary.

In the same vein, I think that he sees his own desires for Siffrin as things that he wants that are Too Much and Scary. Siffrin has shame around his own desire for touch and for being loved sure, because they don't think they deserve it and that nobody knows the real them that's a Monster and manipulative, yes. But I see a lot of people focus on that and miss that Isa also struggles with just HOW BIG his own desires are and his own insecurities. The whole "reaching out for but never touching him." routine by the Favor Tree, for instance. Honestly, I think that even if everyone didn't think that Siffrin hated touch, he would still hold back, albeit not to the same extent. He's aware of his own desire and he's afraid that it's Too Much and Scary.

The proof of that is in how he holds back his feelings. Yes, how he never confesses in so many loops, but also when he finally does confess, in Act 6, it EXPLODES out of him. He's talking on and on about every little miniscule detail about Siffrin that he took note of and he finally stops himself when he notices Siffrin swaying with the weight of it all. He holds back SO MUCH, and it's because he's ashamed of how much there is, how much he is.

With all that being said, there's no doubt in my mind that Bad Touch was his first kiss. Maybe that's why he pulled back so quickly. Being kissed completely out of the blue with no warning, by your crush that you're already holding back around and afraid of your own desires for, on the day that the world will end, and it's your first ever kiss of your life.

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A figure drawing that got insanely out of hand

Unironically though. Reigen’s a REALLY good figure drawing subject. Expect more shananreigens soon

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being a self-taught artist with no formal training is having done art seriously since you were a young teenager and only finding out that you’re supposed to do warm up sketches every time you’re about to work on serious art when you’re fuckin twenty-five

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i cant stop thinking about that counter in the house which siffrin obliterated in a fit of whatever emotion that was. actually

i Distinctly remember when (the first time) i didnt take the rock key in euphrasies office mirabelle (or odile? the lines are blurring oh no) said that, things considered, when it comes to trying to break their way back in the rock itself is Not The Issue. or, i mean, YES it was An issue, its a solid miniature mountain, but she phrased it like if the curse was not a factor in the situation the rock Could be dealt with. somehow. perhaps. not the point

the Point is instead: the timefreeze affects objects in a mysterious way that makes them near indestructible. if i understand the theory right since it wont want to Be Changed, ergo be destroyed

so.

how... much. power. does siffrin have in terms of raw strength. to destroy something not only consisting of solid brick made specifically to outlast the threat. but Also the one that resolutely Did Not Want To Be Destroyed and in fact was actively resisting change. question mark?

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isat cishet au

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doing the opposite of infantilizing siffrin 2day by thinking about what alcohol he'd drink. i know textually they do vodka (and probably wine if we're carrying over the sap stuff)

but like. Bar drinks. mixed drinks. i think mx. siffrin "will eat whatever bonnie puts in front of them" no middlename no lastname will order the most insane drinks on the menu just to say they did. and odile and isabeau will look at him and go "is it good?" and they'll just smile and go "Not Even A Little Bit!"

i do think he'd legitimately like a white gilgamesh (two parts beer one part milk from a goat or of its ilk) but in vaugarde they would call it a "bright gilgamesh" send post