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Hi!! Is out the roof still ongoing?

I was dying laughing while reading it!! I would've loved a bit of slow burn but I enjoyed it very much regardless!!

Sending lots of love !

omg hi!! i’m so sorry i’ve been rly busy with school and i forgot about tumblr 😭 yes it’s still ongoing!!! i’m so glad you enjoyed it

haha ik it’s a bit fast paced 😓 but it’s probably not gonna stay that way LOL i have some angst planned 😌

thank you so much again!! i’ll be sure to update as soon as i can!! much love <33

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HYUNJIN ★ CASE 143 @ KBS Music Bank 221007

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😭😭😭

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FELIX: MAXIDENT TRAILER

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HYUNJIN : MAXIDENT TRAILER

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MAXIDENT teaser | changbin

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I.N ✦ MAXIDENT Trailer

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stray kids + famous artwork

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hyunjin’s mini vlog 🤍

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HIIII Could i be tagged in the hyunin smau? I love them sm and this is so funny AHSKDHD

OMG THANK U 🥹🫶🫶 ofc!! i’m glad u like it ahh that’s so sweet

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OUT THE ROOF ꒰ 14 ꒱

a/n: I FINALLY FIGURED OUT DARK MODE bless 🙏

SUMMARY: music theory major yang jeongin isn’t very secretive about his massive crush on pro-model hwang hyunjin, who also happens to be one of his mutual friends. maybe the only push those two need is the some dumb bird app and the power of friendship to finally confess their feelings— but fate wasn’t always on their side, was it?

masterlist | next

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OUT THE ROOF ꒰ 13 ꒱

a/n: hyunin meet up finally omfg

SUMMARY: music theory major yang jeongin isn’t very secretive about his massive crush on pro-model hwang hyunjin, who also happens to be one of his mutual friends. maybe the only push those two need is the some dumb bird app and the power of friendship to finally confess their feelings— but fate wasn’t always on their side, was it?

masterlist | next

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OUT THE ROOF ꒰ 12 ꒱

a/n: liam said stan skz!!!

SUMMARY: music theory major yang jeongin isn’t very secretive about his massive crush on pro-model hwang hyunjin, who also happens to be one of his mutual friends. maybe the only push those two need is the some dumb bird app and the power of friendship to finally confess their feelings— but fate wasn’t always on their side, was it?

masterlist | next

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OUT THE ROOF ꒰ 11 ꒱

a/n: free my boy han he deserves better <;/3

SUMMARY: music theory major yang jeongin isn’t very secretive about his massive crush on pro-model hwang hyunjin, who also happens to be one of his mutual friends. maybe the only push those two need is the some dumb bird app and the power of friendship to finally confess their feelings— but fate wasn’t always on their side, was it?

masterlist | next

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yoongi

infinite stars masterlist | BTS masterlist | masterlist | playlist

𝔴𝔬𝔯𝔡 𝔠𝔬𝔲𝔫𝔱: 1.06K

𝔭𝔞𝔦𝔯𝔦𝔫𝔤: bts x female!reader

𝔤𝔢𝔫𝔯𝔢: romance | slice of life | fluff | angst

𝔰𝔲𝔪𝔪𝔞𝔯𝔶: how can you forget someone you have never met? how can you forget what they mean to you...what you meant to them?

𝔞/𝔫: okay i forgot to do yoongi's chapter for his birthday, so yes I'm aware this is being released on JK's birthday, but I did it that way so it could be released asap...SO I'M NOT DUMB (also this occured like right after Hoseok's birthday chapter was up...so let's just say it's a flashback scene and call it a day)

𝔴𝔞𝔯𝔫𝔦𝔫𝔤𝔰: cliffhangers | angst | fluff | slight mentions of self hatred | depression | mental health illness | self harm | occurs in the year 2024 | set in a timeline where BTS went to the military together | slight language | mentions of rape | childhood trauma | multiple forms of abuse | mentions of blood and injuries | toxic relationships | mentions of alcohol and drugs

taglist [OPEN]: @myork | @eunbinism | @soobmint | @jaeyunverse | @hyunjxnxee | @yesv01 | @fangirl125reader | @kookiebbyxx | @taradevonne | @rae-bear | @mangminnie | @plxlekoo (not taggable) | @cana | @eridanuswave | @missseoulite | @kodzuskook | @gongiz | @uno7

She's here.

I finally got to see her again.

So why?

Why do I still feel empty?

She waits in front of my apartment building, her back pressed up against the wall. She looks up at the stars, her eyes glittering, a faint smile on her face. Even now, she looks beautiful.

Why, even after all she's done, can't I find it in myself to hate her?

As she hears my footsteps drawing closer, she turns around to me, her smile growing into a broad grin.

Filled with the rest of her lies.

"Yoongi!" She barrels into my arms, knocking me back a bit. I remain still, unwilling to let myself give in to her touch. If I do I may forget everything she has done. She nestles into my chest, her grin spreading. "You're finally home."

I wince and swallow the lump in my throat.

Does this truly make you happy?

Where was this when I was away?

Sighing, I press my hand against her shoulder, pushing her off of me. Surprised, she looks up at me, her eyes wide and confused. I find that I can't manage to show one ounce of hatred towards her when those eyes are locked with mine. Large doe eyes, filled with compassion and love.

A farce of the sovereign making.

"What's wrong?" she mumbles, pouting as though that would make me happy. As though anything she can do will make me happy. I swallow hard, looking away.

How can she pretend like everything is alright?

"Go home," I murmur, half to myself. Out of the corner of my eye, I can see it as her face crumbles.

"W-what are you talking about?" I don't answer her, just turn away and brush past her. "Yoongi!"

She takes a hold of my arm, stopping me in my tracks. I freeze, staring blankly ahead and trying to ignore the pain my heart gives me at the sight of her distress.

"Please talk to me, what happened? What did I do wrong?"

The question makes me wince, and I have to close my eyes, my jaw setting firmly. Does she really not know? Has she forgotten what she has done to hurt me?

To break my trust?

"You tell me," I mumble, snatching my arm out of her grasp.

"How did it feel?" glancing at her over my shoulder, I almost laugh at the sight of her eyes welling with unspoken tears.

"How did it feel to be with him?"

Her face goes blank as she realizes I know. She withdraws from me, the lie now revealed.

"What's wrong?" I snap, violently taking her chin in my hands.

"I thought you missed me? Were you lying?" She bites her bottom lip, glaring up at me as she pulls her face away from my touch. I scoff bitterly.

Wasn't it just moments ago you were throwing yourself all over me?

What could have possibly changed?

"You're cruel, Yoongi. You don't even know the whole story--"

"What is there to know?" I snarl, narrowing my eyes as I drop my hand to my side. "That you betrayed my trust? That you got into another man's pants? I think I understand perfectly fine, darling."

"You were gone!" She cries, the tears finally spilling out. "Did you know how much I missed you? How often I longed for your touch? You were moving on, and it was without me...What the hell was I supposed to do?!"

I grit my teeth, my hands clenching tight at my sides.

Does she really think I didn't feel the same way? What was I supposed to do when I was missing her? Was I supposed to drop everything, every promise, and give it all up for her? I had a duty to fulfill. I had people to think about, my world didn't revolve around her. Was that reason enough to abandon everything we had built?!

"Justify yourself however way you want," I growl, turning on my heel and walking away from her.

"But don't expect me to stay by your side any longer."

I don't look back even as she falls to the ground, sobbing. I retreat into my apartment building, not even caring to meet anyone's gaze. I retreat into myself, ignoring the world around it and allowing my vision to be darkened by the swirling pit of suffering. Once I reach my apartment, I slam the door behind me, pressing my back against it before sliding down and running my hand through my hair.

Inwardly, I wonder when the tears will come. If they will come. Looking up at the ceiling, I sigh.

Of course, they won't.

I don't know what I was expecting.

I throw my keys halfway across the room as if that would suffice for the lack of sorrow. I know it doesn't, but it can't hurt to try. Rolling my eyes, I pick myself off the floor and head over to the small almost empty kitchen. I'm lucky Holly won't be back home until tomorrow, I don't trust myself around him when I'm this way.

Opening the refrigerator door, I pull out a bottle of liquor, unstopping it with my teeth and spewing the cork heaven knows where.

I scoff at the thought of heaven.

Tell me, where is my heaven now?

I take a swig from the bottle before slamming the door shut and stumbling over to the room where my studio lies. Falling into my chair, I turn to the equipment and smirk.

"I'm hoooome." I sing sarcastically, the console remaining silent. I roll my eyes before taking another swig from the bottle.

"Eh, whatever I didn't miss you that much either."

Pulling the bottle from my lips, I place the bottle on the desk, turning the computer on for the first time in 2 years.

Has it really been that long?

2 years without music.

Will it be the same?

I take a deep breath. I never thought there would come a time where I would be afraid of touching my soundboard, where I would hesitate to create. This was supposed to be something I wouldn't have to think twice about. But now that I'm here, now that I've returned...

I can't help but feel the pit growing wider.

The bottle forgotten, I take my headphones and place them securely over my ears.

Nevertheless, I must try.

I promised myself I would try. 

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