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I hate quiet BPD. Cause instead of screaming, crying, blowing up and raging I just internalise it all until I can’t cope and explode

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-why are you doing this?

-because i hate myself so much that i sabotage my own happiness

-so you want to do this?

-no

-but are you aware of what you're doing?

-thats the neat part. i am.

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keeping myself numb as if it’s the solution to being suicidal

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the bpd urge to disappear without a trace is so strong

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i’ve gotten so sad to the point where i don’t even cry anymore and it worries me a lot

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I don't think I'll ever be good enough for anybody. I think I'll always be the colossal mistake I've always felt I was.

Because who could truly love me?

Who could love me and all my flaws.

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im so calm and normal but also if im misunderstood by people in a way i cannot control i will tear apart the fibers of the universe

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you know its gonna hurt and then it does and it does