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PAC reading - it won't be easy, but it'll be so worth it

hi lovelies <3 happy saturn day & summer/winter solstice! this felt like the right kind of reading for today's energy; a celebration of the midpoint of the season on a day ruled by saturn, like a metaphor for being half way through an arduous journey. what is requiring far more effort than you'd like that will surely be rewarded? and how can you keep faith through it? let's find out!

take a deep breath and ask yourself what group holds guidance for you. it's more than alright to be drawn to more than one as this is a general reading. if you'd like a more personalized one, take advantage of the $3 flash sale i have going on (⁠◠⁠ᴥ⁠◕⁠ʋ⁠)

group one

three of pentacles + king of wands + the moon + the magician

you're pursuing a creative project that doesn't seem to be progressing as quickly as you'd like, and it's revealing the insecurities you have about your capabilities. firstly, it's okay to doubt yourself, dwelling in it is what's harmful. you're being encouraged to work with other people, and don't cower from leading and being more direct; you genuinely are knowledgeable and skilled enough to do so. it makes sense to look to the lack of physical results as proof of your lack of experience, but there is so much value in things taking time. as trite as it sounds, great work isn't achieved without hard work, especially when it's done to last.

step into a more authoritative role; you are capable and your work is not in vain, so stop basing your progress on what you see or hear on social media. for someone here, stop comparing your efforts to trust fund kids. it's not that you're not manifesting hard enough or believing hard enough, those people literally have everything they need already and you don't.

group two

ten of cups + knight of pentacles + the emperor + eight of cups

you have been tasked with being the one to overcome the generational trauma that's a result of an overbearingly patriarchal lineage, and it feels like it's in vain because everyone and everything is challenging your efforts. what you're doing is bigger than you; you're unlearning beliefs that have kept the women in your family oppressed. this is not just for your own good, but for the relatives that will come after you. someone, and that's you, has to carve out the path for it to feel like a possibility.

it feels like thankless work, especially when you get shut down or punished for it, but it's so necessary. you are being supported by past loved ones who have the insight to see how these oppressive familial beliefs continue to impact how you and others carry yourself in the world. you are truly a trailblazer and it's not about being validated in this, because frankly you won't be, it's about learning that you deserve respect simply for existing too.

group three

judgment + seven of swords + justice + queen of pentacles

you are choosing to stand up for what is right and just, and it baffles you how much pushback you're getting for it. you are choosing to stick to moral integrity against rising fascism and bigotry, and it can feel threatening to your life at times. you are not in it for social reward, so it doesn't need to be said that you shouldn't expect it, but what you're doing is not in vain. you are standing up for the disenfranchised when it truly matters, and that's incredibly commendable.

now is not the time to back down, but do practice more self-care. not in the commercialized way, but as the radical act of defiance like audre lorde referred to it as. you cannot help anyone when you're burnt out and overwhelmed from how difficult things are, so please prioritize taking care of your basic needs – food, sleep, etc – to be able to sustain your efforts. safely find community with your local organizers to ensure you can speak to people who can reassure you that this fight is tedious but necessary.

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TAROT INTERPRETATION - being with Taehyung

six of pentacles + six of wands + the hanged man + page of cups

oh, he would spoil and braaaag about you. he loves to treat the person he's with, not out of ego or to show ownership, but because he sees it as the most obvious way to show appreciation and "give offerings". he is one to keep the romance alive with regular trips where he can safely indulge in pda with you; he doesn't want you to be swarmed by crowds, but he wants it obvious to whoever is watching that he's crazy about you. he may come across as a lovebomber and a player, but it's because he just loves the thrill of being in love and how reckless it makes him. i'm seeing he has learnt to be less public about his relationships out of fear of looking like a fool when it ends, but he can't help gushing to his closest confidants when he's with someone.

he is absolutely all in when he's in love; not just the spoiling, but with how often and quick he would text you back. he believes absence makes the heart grow fonder, so he wouldn't bring you along to concert stops all the time, but you may as well be there with him from how many pictures he'd send and the constant video calls. every time he falls in love, you'd think it's the first time; he's definitely the type to refer to every new partner as the love of his life. again, this isn't out of insecurity or being a fuckboy, he really is a loverboy at heart.

it may come as a shock how sweet he is actually, and he wouldn't have it any other way. he likes the thrill of pleasantly surprising a new partner with how down to earth he is, despite seeming like a total bad boy. it might actually be intentional on his part; he keeps his more sentimental side hidden for people he deems worthy of it, people who dare to see him as more than his appearance. he's aware that's what attracts people to him in the first place, but he doesn't want it being the sole reason someone sees the world in him. he may seem arrogant at first actually, but it's out of self-preservation.

he is the type of lover to write about you and recite poetry to you. he would read to you while you rest your head on his lap; trace your features while you talk and he listens intently. he wants to love indulgently and unapologetically; he knows to find love, even if it's over and over again with new people, is such a gift, and he embraces it fully every chance he gets. there would be no doubt about his adoration, and i do see it being unnerving when you consider how fine he is and just how many people throw themselves at him. it'd be easy to convince yourself he's just into the thrill of winning a lover over, which he is, but he also loves making the other person know intimately how wanted and appreciated they are by him.

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PAC reading - what makes you sexy?

i was NOT familiar with y'all game... what's your brand of sex appeal, and how can you embrace it more? pick a group and find out! remember, you can be drawn to more than one group (⁠◠⁠ᴥ⁠◕⁠ʋ⁠)

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group one

eight of swords + two of pentacles + two of cups

you have an air of effortless sex appeal, and it's very alluring. i'm seeing someone with messy bed hair and makeup that's smudged, like it's been slept in. you have a very casual glamour that makes you seem approachable, but many fail to actually do it. you may attract people who like the idea of binding you and doing what they like to you; a fragile, delicate beauty.

i see you don't make your appearance a big deal, but it stands out, and people find that appealing too. this is not to say you don't put effort into looking good, rather that it doesn't seem like you're trying too hard to be viewed as attractive. what comes to mind is the indie sleaze era and how people put so much effort into looking like they just put looks together mindlessly.

there's a very 2000s indie vibe about you; alexa chung, american apparel basics, flash photography, dilated pupils & tobacco-stained fingers. you're nostalgic and exclusive, and people are drawn to that. some of you may be pretentious about music and that's endearing, so keep being opinionated.

group two

queen of swords + ten of cups + eight of wands

you have quite the mouth on you. people are drawn to your intellect and wit. i'm seeing it come as a shock to some people how quick you are, not just with your humour, but with putting people in their place as well. you don't get to show your feisty side often because people know to speak to you with respect, and it turns them on more than they'll admit.

you aren't obnoxious about the brilliance of your mind, even though it's so obvious, and people find that very attractive. you have a lovely speaking voice too, very soothing and seductive when you want it to be. you're graceful in how you carry yourself, and it makes you feel unreachable to people. they know that only the best can stop up to you. those with humiliation kinks like that you're too good for them, but they obviously would never reveal that to you or anyone else.

you're black turtlenecks, unprompted philosopher name drops mid-conversation, lips pouted in disapproval, warm, throaty laughter; the smell of rain-soaked dirt, ink stains and sly jokes whispered with a straight face. to know you is to be let into the garden of eden by lilith herself.

group three

king of wands + three of wands + ace of pentacles

your undying optimism makes you incredibly magnetic. you don't have to say it, it's obvious in how you think and go after what you want that you know that things always work out for you. there's a silent wisdom that only the most perceptive will pick up on; you know that it's only over when you die, and there's always an alternate route if one doesn't work.

you are a delight to be around, and people love to listen to you talk when they can reach you. you're elusive and people are drawn to that; you don't have to pretend to be mysterious because you actually are hard to pin down. you're simultaneously open but difficult to know, and that's wildly attractive to so many people. you really are focused on living the best life possible, and rather than saying it or even showing it, people simply witness it.

you're sun-kissed skin in the middle of winter, a wisecracking flapper, the purring of a cat, a mischievous smile and a wink; a vintage fur coat, a smoky jazz club, the jingle of coins in a pocket, and a kiss on the cheek. you're neither here nor there, and it's maddeningly enticing.

group four

six of swords + the magician + nine of cups

you feel unreal, and so many people dream about being with you. you live in your own world, governed by your own beliefs and ideals, and people desperately want a part of it. you feel like a good luck charm, a trophy to be won, but people don't know how. you are successful at the things you pursue, even with how untraditional your goals and aspirations are. people may not share them but they can tell you're ahead of the curve.

you are a breath of fresh air. people can tell that you don't take missteps and failures to heart, and they want to learn from you. there's a childlike wonder to you that is rooted in mature wisdom, an eagerness to take as much as you can get from the world. you are blessed but not at all greedy; you are generous and welcoming, but difficult to "own". i see people you've known for years not knowing fully just how close they actually are to you. your innerworld is yours and yours alone.

you are the lapping of the ocean in the distance, plush velvet, biting into a peach plucked from a tree; singing along to 80s pop, a starry night when you're drunk, latex and lace, and giggles shared in the dark. you are delight personified; potent but fleeting.

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PAC reading - what's blocking your love life?

what's making healthy, fulfilling love so unreachable? what might you be doing or not doing? let's find out!

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group one

seven of cups + eight of cups + knight of wands

you aren't letting yourself receive the wisdom your failed romances are trying to impart on you, instead you're internalizing them as personal failings and it's keeping you trapped in the same kinds of short-lived connections. you may have a list of requirements and know what your ideal person is like but you're not realising that you're leading with a sense of thrill-seeking and not actually consulting your non-negotiables.

i actually do see you frustrated with the chances you give potential suitors because you may have chosen to overlook things that fell short in them. rather than make yourself feel bad for earnestly wanting connection and fun, notice that it's okay to slip up. it's also more than okay to date just to curb boredom, as long as you're not actively going against your best interests.

there's a balance needed in realising that you do need to be dating around to meet the right person for you, but you also don't have to make dating more serious than it needs to be. love is meant to be fun, and some partners aren't meant to be in your life forever. please let go of purity ideals; how are you going to know what you want if you haven't explored? there is no need for extremes – let dating be fun by releasing expectations and notice how much easier it becomes. that's not to say be the cool girl or completely disregard what you desire, just that when it starts feeling like a job and it requires you to be on guard, it's likely not worth it.

group two

queen of swords + page of pentacles + the hanged man

you're not blocked at all, you're just not being courted by people on your level. you're incredibly mature and you've got your shit together, and it makes dating dull and frustrating for you. your options just aren't engaging enough, and you're secure enough in your Identity to want an equal and not someone who's going to put you on a pedestal.

this can be a bit tricky and isolating; you see through mind games people try to play and you can't be won over with material things because you're pretty self-sufficient already. i see you may be insecure and wonder if you're asking for too much – you're not! in fact, you could be the friend people need to listen to more because you would rather be alone than involved with someone that brings chaos into your life.

you could date around actually, and your upperhand does give you the chance to be as superficial as you'd like in your dating life ie you could be a sugarmama or date younger people simply to sleep with them. i'm seeing you simply have to play the waiting game for the love you want, don't falter and think you have to make yourself smaller to be palatable. an unspoken truth about relationships is that women are absolutely compromising to be in them, and that doesn't have to be you. but don't keep yourself from having a little fun of your own!

group three

seven of pentacles + ten of cups + the world

you're too focused on love being what saves you, and it's actively keeping it away from you. we deserve love no matter where we are in our path, this is not to say you're too broken or unhealed to receive love. rather, you're focusing your attention of the idea of being loved into being better, and you're neglecting yourself and your own growth.

you may consume a ton of influencer media of people bragging about their relationships and rather than inspiring you, it's making you tear yourself down; "why not me?" please take a step back. no one is going to save you from yourself. i don't subscribe to the idea of us only being lovable when we love ourselves, the love of another can absolutely help us see our own light. but you need to be embracing yourself more – you're lovable now and you always have been, but your guides want you to value yourself first. if you want love, not a saviour, you're going to have to work on nurturing yourself.

it's not easy to unlearn a life of self-neglect, but you can start now. simple things count as a step in the right direction. additionally, it's not romantic love you need, but community. there's a mention of debilitating health issues, both mental and physical, that don't have to be experienced alone. please use the internet to find people who will validate and support you, because that's what you need. it's not a personal failing that you have bought into the idea that a romantic partner's love is all encompassing, literal industries are built on that. but you do need love and that's a very human need, just try seeking out people who understand your struggles. you aren't alone, i promise.

group four

two of cups + eight of swords + knight of cups

you're afraid to open up to people, and it's not entirely in vain. you find it hard to gauge people's intentions and it feels safest to be emotionally controlled. again, it's not in vain. dating is very difficult at the moment because people aren't open to the vulnerability real love requires.

unfortunately, it really is difficult to know whether or not someone has the best intentions when they court you, but release the need to know. you are being urged to love unapologetically, because it is only through that honesty with them and yourself that you will find love. hurt is inevitable in love, but it is not impossible to overcome. there is no way to know fully if you won't get hurt, but holding your emotions back is a guarantee to making the pain of a split stay with you longer than it needs to.

you're going to have to try, and i know it's a huge ask, but it will be so worth it. the vulnerability of love is what makes it so rewarding. you underestimate how much you've learnt from heartbreak; you won't be tricked into falling for someone who doesn't love you back, you can spot when it's inauthentic. do not let yourself create self fulfilling prophecies by making people earn your love. let love in, it'll be such a relief to love with ease; like taking deep breaths after holding your head under water.

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PAC reading - how your crush views you

hey, angels <3 it's been a while but i'm feeling a lot better! let's find out how your crush views you and what they think of you. this is for crushes specifically and not someone you're involved with, that reading is coming soon ;3

take a deep breath and ask yourself which cute lil kitty holds messages for you. you can be drawn to more than one group, especially because it's a general reading. if you want a more personalized one, do book with me!

group one

king of wands + nine of cups + four of pentacles + the hanged man

this is the bold group! they are fully aware of your attraction to them; you've either made it known explicitly or you're not as good at being subtle as you think you are. they do like how territorial you are, and it may be a little scary to them. they worry you may end up being clingy if you do get together, but they are low-key into it. you are being advised to tone it down a little, and let them see that you do have a life outside of your attraction to them.

the funny thing is, you absolutely do have a life and that's why you're so laser focused on them. you're a go-getter in general and you're viewing them as something you want, not necessarily as someone who's gonna be the center of your world. they do know that you're a hardworking person, and there's a bit of an ego boost in knowing someone like you would want them.

they find you very attractive – very headstrong and independent. they find your individuality very attractive; it's a little intimidating actually, because they know that they would have to step up to you. they are fully aware of the power couple status you two would have and it primarily being because of you. they know other people want you, and they may feel a little insecure in knowing that other people may feel they aren't good enough to be with you.

the advice here is to step back and give them room because their insecurity is infecting you now. you know you're a catch and you have never had to wait this long, and you're beginning to question yourself because they're so hesitant. take a step back and remind yourself just how fine, booked and busy you are. you've done all you can do, so don't let this crumble the self assurance and confidence you have painstakingly built.

group two

eight of swords + justice + page of pentacles + nine of cups

they can tell you're insecure and it baffles them because they see no reason why you should be. they find you very attractive, and they may have sneaky thoughts about bagging you before you realise just how fine you are, like you're not a human being and an investment. it's a gross energy and i'm seeing that's why your guides are making you two pairing up damn near impossible; you absolutely do deserve a better suitor.

you're actually more attractive than you realise and there's a message here of people not getting with you because they think you're too good to be true. if you're into men specifically, they think your being insecure is an asset because it means you would be the more loyal one ie you don't realise THEY are the lucky one and not you. you have a very conventionally attractive look and your hesitancy to glam up or style yourself in particular ways is why it's easy for people to sense that you're insecure and unaware of your looks.

i'm purposefully not going into how they perceive you further because you deserve better; this person does acknowledge that you're attractive and a kind person, but they LOVE that you don't see how valuable you are, and that cannot be a good thing, especially in a post-manosphere world.

the advice here is to start recognizing how brilliant and gorgeous you are; the word that keeps coming to mind is "cherubic". idk who needs to hear this but your cheeks being fleshy is adorable so STOP hating on a baddie, thank you very much! also, you are more than your looks and please stop consuming media that reinforces that being attractive is what will improve your dating life. if you date men specifically, you know that fake adriana lima quote about men and mcchickens, right? right.

group three

knight of wands + temperance + king of swords + four of wands

oh, they want you BAD. they actually really want to fuck you, but they are very disciplined about their attraction. they have decorum when it comes to love and relationships, and they know better than to be lustful, especially because they see you as more than a sexual object. i'm seeing you may have some issues with viewing objectification as proof of attraction and they are actively challenging that part of you; you can be wanted and respected still.

they find you stimulating intellectually and even though you think them not making things sexual is a sign they aren't interested, it's through your philosophical debates that you're making them fall for you. they are wanted by many but few can engage them the way you do; this is the inverse of how many people lust for you but few actually value your humanity and mental agility. you say you want someone who does and this crush is challenging that; can you notice when someone respects you enough not to be lustful towards you?

they aren't going to rush into making things sexual with you, so stop seeking that as your sign. it's the way they want to yap about all sorts of things with you; their interest in your opinions and them having friendly debates with you. this is in your best interest, as you do need to be reminded that your intellect is just as valuable as your looks. they want that in a person and if they didn't want you, they wouldn't interact with you so much in the first place.

the advice here is to unpack and unlearn being sexualised as a sign of someone's attraction to you. anyone can find you attractive, they simply have to have eyes to do so. but having it happen so often has made you unused to being valued for everything else that makes you so attractive. please be patient and enjoy being wanted for your mind and soul too.

group four

queen of cups + knight of pentacles + queen of wands + six of swords

they find you so dreamy; they almost can't believe their luck in having someone like you be interested in them. you aren't the best at hiding your interest and it's incredibly endearing to them. they think it's a wonder that you're as emotionally mature as you are, despite being physically attractive enough to be "allowed" to be obnoxious. they can tell you've been through a lot that's made you so grounded, and they're very attracted to how well-rounded you are as a person.

they find you very insightful too. you may have given them advice in conversation, or they've listened to your viewpoints on things and realise you are someone who has their head screwed on right. they think you're pretty self-sufficient already and it's attractive; they know you want them as an addition to your life and not as the centerpiece.

there's a silent power about you that they can't help being drawn to. they know that you can't be shaken by them or anyone really, and it makes the idea of dating you tempting. they like knowing that it will be simply a chance to explore love, nothing more than it needs to be ie no twinflames + soulmates + karmic talk. they can definitely tell you're spiritual but the hinged kind that acknowledges our material reality too.

the advice is to keep nurturing yourself, and to keep shining the way you do. you've come a long way and it's being acknowledged that you ought to be proud of yourself. you've won already; you've bagged your greatest love – you.

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t shirt that says i survived hell and all i got was this stupid personality disorder

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Made this a while back and never posted it, but I figured I should now that I actually started T!!!

(Not a self portrait, this is just some guy)

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TAROT INTERPRETATION - being with Jung Wooyoung

judgment + ten of cups + the fool + the sun

he is very sentimental about love; he wants it to feel safe and all encompassing. he wants it to consume you both, and it wouldn't falter on his end. he dreams of growing old with who he's with and still being madly in love with each other. he is unapologetic and proud of who he loves because he genuinely feels gratitude for having them. he's one to brag and gush over you because he believes it's a blessing and pure luck to have found someone who loves just as passionately as he does.

he would make sure you're well taken care of and you always feel secure; he would ensure you're dressed in finery and you get used to weekly spa treatments + "just because" flowers. his sentimental streak makes him one to bring you souvenirs from every trip he takes; he'd always wonder about you when you're apart. when he visits a place, he keeps in mind all the places he wants to revisit with you by his side. he is intentional in his show of affection; he wants you to have what you want, even before you've realised what exactly it is. he wants you to look and feel amazing because he genuinely believes your being content is directly related to how he shows up for you.

he definitely asks for more kisses and he looooves touching. his hand would always be on the small of your back or around your waist, especially in public. it's less about showing ownership and more about expressing how much he loves that you're with each other. he would adore you and he'd let it be known, both privately and publicly. i see he's not one for pda but you two would be caught sharing longing gazes and laughing together often. i'm seeing a couple seated on the same side of a booth in dim lighting, hands chastely but suggestively placed on each other while you talk about the most mundane things. he would pick at your brain often, because your world view is something he'd be drawn to very much.

he loves to touch and kiss but he's not quick to sexualise you. you could be fully nude in front of him and he'd be in awe of how beautiful you are rather than thinking of what he wants to do with and to you. he would love to be naked around you, in a very innocent way. like a metaphor for how safe you both are to exist in front of each other, knowing you are seen as you are and loved fully for and despite it. he'd love to shower together often, the intimacy of yapping and washing each other with no sexual intent. he just loves soaking you up every chance he gets, and it'll never get old to him.

his sentimentality would make him the one to bring up marriage and children unprompted, and he'd be very giddy at the prospect. he loves the idea of cultivating a family together, raising children with unconditional love and fiscal safety. he likes the idea of being the one to cut the children's hair, teach them to swim and ride bikes, that kind of thing. he isn't necessarily into traditional values, he just sees it as a chance to keep creating and sharing love. he would be such a great father, like you would find yourself falling in love with him all over again watching him with your children.

he loves fully and honestly; he bares his heart and wants someone who does the same. he wouldn't force you to and he wouldn't even ask, he'd show you it's safe for you to do so by doing it himself. there'd be an obvious maturity to his love. he isn't naive and he's been heartbroken before, but he is able to keep being so loving because he knows the love he wants is a dual effort so if it doesn't work out, he knows it isn't the love he wants. he is unapologetic and it'd be a little unnerving at first, particularly in the age we're in, but you'd feel so at home with him and even question how you'd have been suspicious of him at all.

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TAROT INTERPRETATION - being with Choi San

six of wands + two of wands + judgement, three of wands + four of swords + page of wands

the wands?! oh he'd be all over you, first of all. he is definitely the type to hold onto a random part of your body for comfort, and not in a sexual way. while there's a mention of him taking sex very seriously as a way to be present and in tune with each other, he just really values physical closeness. he would take every moment he has away from his job to spend time together. i see while he likes bragging about who he's with, he'd be very cagey about letting fans know about your existence, or at least who you are exactly. when he's really in love, he'd let it slip often than he's with someone he adores, but his instinctive need to keep you safe would make him revert back to being vague.

he would make sure you're well taken care of, even when he's away and you can't always keep in contact. i see this stems from him knowing just how easy it would be for you to feel insecure about the relationship because the traditional things regular people do aren't applicable in yours ie hard launching on your social media, bringing you to work events, etc. he is not above flying you out to a tour stop because he misses you, and genuinely all he'd want to do is stay in bed and be in your presence. he's very sentimental about love, so when he's in it, you cannot doubt his loyalty at all. you would feel a little smug over how he talks about you in public, but even more when he's introducing you to his closest friends and family. he would feel so lucky to have bagged you, and he won't be afraid to make it known.

he would be big on reassuring you, not just with his actions and touch, but his words too. he is very conscious of how difficult it is to find a love that's for you, so he would value every moment of being with you. he values comfort and he shows his affection by making sure you're comfortable and well taken care of. he's not above using his connections to get you videos of and tickets to shows by your favourite public figures. it'd be in a way where it's not to impress you with his cultural clout, but to enthusiastically bring you the excitement he loves witnessing.

overall, he is very much someone who makes his love shown – he knows that talk is cheap, and he is not one to flatter a person in vain. he is also remarkably intuitive about how essential communication is, even about uncomfortable things that lead to arguments, because he understands that being in agreement about everything is low-key a sign of self-censorship in at least one of you. he is also absolutely the one to say i love you first, and it's because he sees no reason to be cynical about love. it's his authenticity about and in it that makes him able to pick himself up even if it doesn't end as well as he'd wished.