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The teen took a deep breath before opening the door. He could do this. He could do it, gods damnit- he's already got everything prepared, all he needs is some signatures and it's done... then he could be out of the man's hair. He felt kind of awful only coming to Lucas when he needed something, but at the same time it made the man more free for the other kids- for the better kids. For the kids that can be good people. For the ones that can still grow into anything.

"H-hey, um-" His voice got stuck in his throat for a moment. What does he even say here? This was an awful idea, but there was no going back now. He held up the little file of documents sheepishly. "I just- uh- need some signatures? Please?"

Theo was out of his room, which was rare. Workers shot glances his way when he made his way through the halls with what looked to be some documents in a file. He looked nervous as he knocked on the door to Lucas's room.

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Lucas was just hanging out in his little room- he had one that was him and Commodus’, but… sometimes the man felt like he was intruding- he spends most his time in their shared room! But. He likes to keep things put away here.. so they’re not in the way. So he’s not in the way. Peri perked up at the knock on the door, the small creature made a grumble, as Lucas turned, “Ah- come in.” Lucas would say, standing up from the desk he was sat at.

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"You know what I mean-" His voice was so damn close to breaking. He felt so... so inferior. At Edan's mercy. He didn't like this feeling. He didn't like being under someone, he didn't like being so vulnerable with people, especially people he didn't know wouldn't use this against him. "I can't live like this, I just-"

"...please." He looked away, gods he hated saying that word. He hated putting himself in positions such as this one. This shouldn't be so stressful for him. He wanted to run away, but he forced his body to stay in place.

Theo walked up to Edan. Willingly. That's... unusual, especially for him. Since when does he seek out this man? He hates him for his remarks... For making him want to rip his own skin off. But he was there, right in front of the enchanter.

"...make it stop." He said quietly, looking at the ground instead of Edan. He felt pathetic, asking the very man he hates for help. But he's heard that he's good with magic. So maybe he'd help him?

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He looked up at the boy, tilting his head. He thought Theo didn't like him? Which, fair enough. After reading his books, he had got that completely wrong. Even when he tried to apologize, that probably made it worse.

"You're going to have to be more specific. What am I supposed to stop?"

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The teen scratched his arm, he felt like there were bugs crawling under his skin. This body felt just- wrong. He didn't dare look up at Edan. This felt pitiful. He felt like such a loser- was he just out of any other options? Was he just desperate for this to change?

"Make me normal-" He choked out, closing his eyes shut to prevent himself from crying.

Theo walked up to Edan. Willingly. That's... unusual, especially for him. Since when does he seek out this man? He hates him for his remarks... For making him want to rip his own skin off. But he was there, right in front of the enchanter.

"...make it stop." He said quietly, looking at the ground instead of Edan. He felt pathetic, asking the very man he hates for help. But he's heard that he's good with magic. So maybe he'd help him?

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He looked up at the boy, tilting his head. He thought Theo didn't like him? Which, fair enough. After reading his books, he had got that completely wrong. Even when he tried to apologize, that probably made it worse.

"You're going to have to be more specific. What am I supposed to stop?"

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i’m gonna kill rey off in a really stupid way i can’t rp with him anymore no matter how hard i try #RIPREY he might reappear as a ghost idfk

//that's alright, interests come and go ^^ I hope at least the time you spent rping him was fun for you and such, it was great having him around/gen

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He sighed. At least they were away from him. Gods, he hated people like that. He wasn't going to let anyone, even a small child, know his weakness- he wasn't going to let anyone take advantage of him because of it, ever.

"The Court apologizes if questions made Theo uncomfortable."

Oh gods, not this kid again. Theo was about done with everything, at this point- he just wanted to sink into the ground and disappear, and that everyone would forget about him. He wished they'd never met him at all- it was obvious he was nothing but a bad influence and everything that's ever been wrong with people ever since they met him was his fault. He had a strong urge to push this kid away, to be the asshole everyone expects him to be. He wanted to be left alone, but it was clear people weren't gonna do that- so what was he supposed to do? Couldn't they see he was a horrible influence-? That they shouldn't be around him? Good gods.

"Whatever."

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Theo watched the baby, wishing he could've had what she had. Wishing he could've explored the world the way she gets to do it. That even his youngest years weren't full of violence and being conditioned, almost like a fucking dog, to walk on eggshells and having to learn what sets his parents off and what doesn't, much as Andrea wanted to protect him from whatever they would put him through. He wished he could hit things when he was angry without any consequences, he wished he could do all the things she could.

Fuck, he was angry. He was angry and sad and- good gods, all of this felt so unfair. And he knew Charlotte was innocent in all of this, but it still felt just shitty to witness this and think about how he got none of it. None of the affection, none of the freedom, none of the love. He was pretty sure he was a mistake, that he wasn't even wanted in the first place. That the only reason he exists is because of some bullshit his godly mother did- much as he didn't want to call her his mother. And it was awful to see someone get the family he never had, the family he never will get.

So when the little girl laid on him, his entire body immediately tensed. He'd have gotten smacked and probably thrown away and out of the pathetic excuse of a house for the night or more for that. He wanted to smack her or throw her off of him. He wanted to- so bad, but he knew that would make him be an even worse person than he already was. He stayed there, frozen in place, until she tried to say something- he didn't understand it... he didnt know what she said, until it clicked in his head a couple moments later and made him want to sob uncontrollably (and that urge was really, really difficult to hold back).

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Charlotte was on the ground, playing with her toys. Her immediate family had been getting sort of worried. It seemed that she was late hitting all the normal baby milestones. She didn't make babbles for the longest time, it took her forever to sit up by herself, she still hasn't even stood.

Oh well. There's probably a reason for it.

Anyways, today Charlotte was playing with her toys. Then, she saw you. She clapped, and used a nearby table to pull herself up to stand.

She just sort of stood there for a while, not sure what to do next. Then she took one step towards you. Another, and another, until she fell into you.

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"Get. Out." He repeated, harsher than before. He hated this- hated being asked any kind of personal thing. Especially weaknesses- especially when everything he said or did used to be used against him at all times. He hated this kid.

"The Court apologizes if questions made Theo uncomfortable."

Oh gods, not this kid again. Theo was about done with everything, at this point- he just wanted to sink into the ground and disappear, and that everyone would forget about him. He wished they'd never met him at all- it was obvious he was nothing but a bad influence and everything that's ever been wrong with people ever since they met him was his fault. He had a strong urge to push this kid away, to be the asshole everyone expects him to be. He wanted to be left alone, but it was clear people weren't gonna do that- so what was he supposed to do? Couldn't they see he was a horrible influence-? That they shouldn't be around him? Good gods.

"Whatever."

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His back hurt a little- probably from the tiny wing he's been hiding, but that didn't matter at the moment. He was just happy that his friend was happy- maybe things were looking up, at least a little. "It looks so boring without anything on it though-! Like, it's just simple colors..." Wow, just accept the compliment, Theo.

Theo could be seen- actually, no. Theo wasn't seen at all as Eve could see something... really big coming her way- a box. The size of a person. Probably bigger than a person. Only the legs of whoever was carrying it being visible, almost bumping the box into her- good gods, whatever it was, it was... well, it was big. And probably heavy.

The box was put down with a heavy sigh, Theo finally emerging by its side, wiping his forehead before he saw Eve. "Eve- hi. I uh... got you something. Because I missed your birthday. It was really long ago and I feel bad."

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Eve was.. definitely confused when she first saw what looked like a person sized stack of boxes approaching her. Definitely not something she expected today- she would’ve offered help with carrying it, since it seemed like a lot, but then Theo spoke.

“My birthday?” The winged demigod would echo back, a bit of a smile on her lips in amusement. She didn’t need anything, she knew that- well, but it didn’t stop a lot of her family giving her things or hanging around her on that day. She didn’t need gifts- though she appreciated it. Just giving a slight shake of the head, a small chuckle escaping her, “You.. didn’t have to do this- like- give me things, ya know?”

Taking another step closer, she gave him a gentle pat on the shoulder, smiling brightly, though for a brief moment it absolutely forgetting about asking Theo about touch, “But still- thank you, Theo. You’re awesome.”

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"Goodbye." He wasn't in the mood to humor whatever nonsense whoever this was was probably going to spill.

Mikey waved a little

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Theo stared at them like they were crazy.

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"Oh gods-" Yep, Theo wasn't expecting that big of a reaction, honestly he was surprised she was even happy to begin with, but whatever. He wrapped his arms around Eve, "They don't even have designs on them, woman-!"

Theo could be seen- actually, no. Theo wasn't seen at all as Eve could see something... really big coming her way- a box. The size of a person. Probably bigger than a person. Only the legs of whoever was carrying it being visible, almost bumping the box into her- good gods, whatever it was, it was... well, it was big. And probably heavy.

The box was put down with a heavy sigh, Theo finally emerging by its side, wiping his forehead before he saw Eve. "Eve- hi. I uh... got you something. Because I missed your birthday. It was really long ago and I feel bad."

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Eve was.. definitely confused when she first saw what looked like a person sized stack of boxes approaching her. Definitely not something she expected today- she would’ve offered help with carrying it, since it seemed like a lot, but then Theo spoke.

“My birthday?” The winged demigod would echo back, a bit of a smile on her lips in amusement. She didn’t need anything, she knew that- well, but it didn’t stop a lot of her family giving her things or hanging around her on that day. She didn’t need gifts- though she appreciated it. Just giving a slight shake of the head, a small chuckle escaping her, “You.. didn’t have to do this- like- give me things, ya know?”

Taking another step closer, she gave him a gentle pat on the shoulder, smiling brightly, though for a brief moment it absolutely forgetting about asking Theo about touch, “But still- thank you, Theo. You’re awesome.”

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Mikey waved a little

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Theo stared at them like they were crazy.

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Not this again. He wasn't in the mood to play this game today, and he wouldn't be in the mood to say anything like that, ever. The urges to hurt this child got even stronger, he was really close to actually punting them. His fists clenched at his sides, fangs bared. "Get the fuck out."

"The Court apologizes if questions made Theo uncomfortable."

Oh gods, not this kid again. Theo was about done with everything, at this point- he just wanted to sink into the ground and disappear, and that everyone would forget about him. He wished they'd never met him at all- it was obvious he was nothing but a bad influence and everything that's ever been wrong with people ever since they met him was his fault. He had a strong urge to push this kid away, to be the asshole everyone expects him to be. He wanted to be left alone, but it was clear people weren't gonna do that- so what was he supposed to do? Couldn't they see he was a horrible influence-? That they shouldn't be around him? Good gods.

"Whatever."

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This was probably the worst day of his life (or he was exaggareting, like always...), gods this was absolutely horrible. He didn't want to be there. He wanted to stand up and leave, to go and cry his eyes out in his room, but somehow his body didn't want to move. His body didn't want to listen to him. He tried to calm down instead, but that just made him cry harder. This... this wasn't fair. It wasn't- why should she get all the things he would've cried happy tears about getting, why should she get everything he never did? What did Charlotte have that Theo didn't? Was it just the fact that she was simply born lucky? Why did Theo get the worst batch of parents, of literally everything- why did she get to be happy? It wasn't fair.

He had the strong urge to knock the bottle out of her hands or throw it at her... maybe it'd finally get Lucas to properly hate him. He wanted to yell at her to get out of his sight, knowing the noise would probably scare her away. "...leave me alone." Was all he could get out, a defeated sigh leaving him.

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Charlotte was on the ground, playing with her toys. Her immediate family had been getting sort of worried. It seemed that she was late hitting all the normal baby milestones. She didn't make babbles for the longest time, it took her forever to sit up by herself, she still hasn't even stood.

Oh well. There's probably a reason for it.

Anyways, today Charlotte was playing with her toys. Then, she saw you. She clapped, and used a nearby table to pull herself up to stand.

She just sort of stood there for a while, not sure what to do next. Then she took one step towards you. Another, and another, until she fell into you.

Anyone can join!

Tags (/nf):

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He looked at that toy. Gods. It felt unreal- it felt almost like the first time he was ever holding a child's toy in his life. He didn't remember his childhood well, but he remembered he didn't get toys, aside from the wooden block set he and his sister used to have. His teething toys were his own fingers and Andrea's, eventually old used cigarettes his parents left lying around the house or whatever he could lay his hands on.

...He envied Charlotte for getting a normal childhood. She was going to grow up in a loving household, with loving parents and a multitude of siblings, aunts and uncles and all the other family members. It was all he could've asked for. It was all she could've asked for. It was all they could've asked for. It was... everything that the little girl that was once Theo could've dreamed about. Charlotte was going to be told she was loved, she was going to be surrounded by good people... she was going to have everything he never had, and never will have.

Gods, he's pathetic, isn't he? He should just die.

He stared at the toy in his hand, then at Charlotte. He didn't want to cry there. He didn't- but he couldn't stop the tears forming in his eyes forever, so he started silently sobbing. Two streaks rolled down his cheeks. Charlotte was going to have a father. Theo was never meant to have one- or a mother. Or siblings. Or... literally any of the good things she was going to get.

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Charlotte was on the ground, playing with her toys. Her immediate family had been getting sort of worried. It seemed that she was late hitting all the normal baby milestones. She didn't make babbles for the longest time, it took her forever to sit up by herself, she still hasn't even stood.

Oh well. There's probably a reason for it.

Anyways, today Charlotte was playing with her toys. Then, she saw you. She clapped, and used a nearby table to pull herself up to stand.

She just sort of stood there for a while, not sure what to do next. Then she took one step towards you. Another, and another, until she fell into you.

Anyone can join!

Tags (/nf):

@hasfuckedagod-willfuckoneup @fightingthetoxicallegations @lightning-margulis @sophia-hunter-of-artemis

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"The Court apologizes if questions made Theo uncomfortable."

Oh gods, not this kid again. Theo was about done with everything, at this point- he just wanted to sink into the ground and disappear, and that everyone would forget about him. He wished they'd never met him at all- it was obvious he was nothing but a bad influence and everything that's ever been wrong with people ever since they met him was his fault. He had a strong urge to push this kid away, to be the asshole everyone expects him to be. He wanted to be left alone, but it was clear people weren't gonna do that- so what was he supposed to do? Couldn't they see he was a horrible influence-? That they shouldn't be around him? Good gods.

"Whatever."

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Still surprised from the reaction he was getting (although he shouldn't be, at this point), Theo barely understood what was happening. He knew Eve was happy with the gift, and he knew that that was good- but he really didn't understand why she was so happy. He just tried to think of something practical and spent a bit learning how to make it before giving it to her. He didn't respond for a moment, like his brain needed to load the new information in while it was lagging, "I- well- uh... okay?? Sure-?"

Theo could be seen- actually, no. Theo wasn't seen at all as Eve could see something... really big coming her way- a box. The size of a person. Probably bigger than a person. Only the legs of whoever was carrying it being visible, almost bumping the box into her- good gods, whatever it was, it was... well, it was big. And probably heavy.

The box was put down with a heavy sigh, Theo finally emerging by its side, wiping his forehead before he saw Eve. "Eve- hi. I uh... got you something. Because I missed your birthday. It was really long ago and I feel bad."

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Eve was.. definitely confused when she first saw what looked like a person sized stack of boxes approaching her. Definitely not something she expected today- she would’ve offered help with carrying it, since it seemed like a lot, but then Theo spoke.

“My birthday?” The winged demigod would echo back, a bit of a smile on her lips in amusement. She didn’t need anything, she knew that- well, but it didn’t stop a lot of her family giving her things or hanging around her on that day. She didn’t need gifts- though she appreciated it. Just giving a slight shake of the head, a small chuckle escaping her, “You.. didn’t have to do this- like- give me things, ya know?”

Taking another step closer, she gave him a gentle pat on the shoulder, smiling brightly, though for a brief moment it absolutely forgetting about asking Theo about touch, “But still- thank you, Theo. You’re awesome.”

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Theo didn't even want to be in the gods damned palace. He didn't want to stay there, but he knew that if he left, then people would start getting worried and do horrible things and everything else would happen. So, he stayed- feeling like a prisoner in what should be his own home, but it didn't really feel like it was anymore, with all the things that happened and keep happening and- yeah, everything with everyone ever, or so it felt like.

He felt even more horrible when he saw Charlotte. He was just sitting on the floor, because he could, because people weren't going to point it out- he didn't even notice the little girl until she fell into him, he barely caught her (his insticts told him to punch her and push her away instead...) before looking at what happened and- oh gods. He had to stop himself from breaking down right there and then. Everything came crashing down again, as it usually does when he's around babies- he was re-realizing everything; the fact that Lucas has so many children that are his already, the way there's so many children in the palace overall, the way it always feels like he's bothering both him and Commodus if he ever wants to hang out, the way it always feels like he has to schedule time with what's supposed to be his father (but that's debatable, considering how busy he is and how bothersome and problematic Theo is), the way he feels like a burden in this family, the way the son of Achlys just doesn't belong. He's surrounded by good people- or at least people trying to change for the better. And he's just... stuck in place. He can't change. He will forever be that same horrible person he is now, the same awful, shameful, disgusting, pathetic, pitiful, unwanted child he's always been.

He just sat there, staring at Charlotte in his arms. He kind of wanted to push her away, or better yet — throw her away from himself. He felt disgusted with himself for letting such a cruel reminder of everything that's ever been wrong with him so much as get close to him. He didn't want to think. At that point, he kind of wished he had some more of that rainbow sewage bullshit so he could pass out and wake up with no memory of tonight — it was the one instance he'd be grateful for not remembering. But unfortunately, he didn't have rainbow sewage, so he was left there, just staring at the baby that's probably everything he's ever wanted to be.

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Charlotte was on the ground, playing with her toys. Her immediate family had been getting sort of worried. It seemed that she was late hitting all the normal baby milestones. She didn't make babbles for the longest time, it took her forever to sit up by herself, she still hasn't even stood.

Oh well. There's probably a reason for it.

Anyways, today Charlotte was playing with her toys. Then, she saw you. She clapped, and used a nearby table to pull herself up to stand.

She just sort of stood there for a while, not sure what to do next. Then she took one step towards you. Another, and another, until she fell into you.

Anyone can join!

Tags (/nf):

@hasfuckedagod-willfuckoneup @fightingthetoxicallegations @lightning-margulis @sophia-hunter-of-artemis