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Personality Disorder Test

I took a personality test at this website: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv

I posted my responses and then my results!

What sex are you? [female]

Reason: I’m cisgendered and was born a female, so this was straightforward question for me personally.

Do you believe you have more difficulty with relationships than the average person your age? [no]

Reason: Even though I don’t have very many friends, I think that it’s not because I have difficulty making relationships, I just don’t actively ask to hang out with people often, so I get put on a back burner. This doesn’t bother me, I’m just being honest.

Do you have difficulty trusting people? [yes]

Reason: I don’t have difficulty trusting people I know well, but I don’t think that is what this question is asking. Those people have earned my trust over time, but with strangers, even if it’s their job to do something, I won’t trust that they will do it, which I think is less trust than most people would give a person like that.

Do you tend to avoid social relationships? [yes]

Reason: I don’t know if ‘avoid’ is the right word for it, but I don’t actively search for social relationships, and I avoid talking to strangers, so this is probably accurate to some degree.

Do you prefer to be alone rather than in the company of others? [no]

Reason: I live with my boyfriend and I spend 24/7 of my time with him. I don’t mind being alone, but I definitely don’t prefer it.

If you answered yes to the previous question, is it because you feel very anxious in social situations, or.. [no]

Reason: Didn’t answer yes to the previous question.

..because you are suspicious of their motives? [no]

Reason: see reason above.

Do you find yourself unaffected by praise or criticism? [no]

Reason: I really like hearing praise! And although I dislike criticism It doesn’t depress me, I’m glad that people respect my work enough to honestly critic my work instead of just letting me get away with shitty work.

Do you see people who get taken advantage of as being weak and deserving of being used? [no]

Reason: I don’t think that such a complex issue can be simplified like that. Sometimes people who get taken advantage of are born into a situation that they have no control over, so of course, I cannot see this issue in such black and white terms as that.

Do you feel a yearning for acceptance among your peers? [yes]

Reason: I just want to be accepted. Of course some things I do are not the norm (shaving my head as a girl), but I think that being accepted for who you are is a common goal for many people. I’m not going to change who I am to get accepted by more people, but I do wish to be accepted.

Do you have a difficult time relating to others? [no]

Reason: Although I don’t experience some things that other people might, even if someone told me a story I had no experience with, I’d be able to understand how they feel about it, and I don’t think I’d have trouble relating with them.

Do you believe you have special extrasensory abilities (ability to "sense" a person's presence, for example)? [no]

Reason: Although I wish I did, and I thought I had esp when I was little, I don’t really think I have special powers. (It would be so cool though!)

Do you often find that your emotions are inappropriate for a given situation? [no]

Reason: Key word here I think is ‘often’. I think that while sometimes my emotions might be inappropriate, I try my best to show the appropriate emotions for a given scenario, so most of the time, I show appropriate emotions.

Are you plagued by suspicions that other people, including loved ones, may be doing things behind your back that will end up hurting you? [no]

Reason: similarly to the last one, while sometimes I do get thoughts of this happening, it’s definitely not enough to say that I am PLAGUED by these suspicions. I don’t think I get these thoughts enough that it intrudes on my day to day life at all.

Do others see you as being cold and distant? [no]

Reason: This is a strange question because I can’t really know what other people truly think of me, but I’ve never had anyone tell me that I’m cold or distant, and I try not to be, so I think this one is a no.

Do you tend to choose jobs that are below your skill level? [yes]

Reason: I think for this one, you should go with your job history for the most accuracy, and I’ve mostly worked as a cashier even though I have a college education. After I’m done with my degree I’ll pursue something better, but as of right now the most accurate answer to this is yes simply because of my history.

Do you find it hard to concentrate on one thing for a long time? [no]

Reason: The answer for this is complex because I have been diagnosed with ADHD. I do have a prescription that helps me with this though, and I rarely have issues with it. When I do have issues, the prescription helps me. So I think that currently the answer most accurate with this is NO.

Is your appearance or behavior considered "eccentric" by other people? [yes]

Reason: As I said previously, I have a shaved head as a woman, so I’d say that most people deem that as eccentric.

Have other people accused you of being cruel to animals or people? [no]

Reason: I think we all get intrusive thoughts about maybe doing something mean sometimes, but I never act on these, and these thoughts are brief and fleeting. I’ve never been accused of being mean for something I’ve done on purpose. In high school I accidentally started a rumor about someone, but I felt like shit about it and apologized a lot to the person. I don’t think I’m very mean spirited at all.

Do you take actions without thinking about the consequences? [yes]

Reason: Sometimes I do things without considering what the consequences might be, but it hasn’t got me in trouble yet. Usually this is with small stuff and not long term decisions, but I still think that yes is a better answer here.

Do you sometimes profit at the expense of others, without being bothered by the pain or damage you may cause them? [yes]

Reason: I have, under dire circumstances, lied to get my way, or done things I shouldn’t have done, without really thinking about how it might affect other people involved. So, yea this one is true.

Do you consider your needs to be more important to you than the needs of others? [yes]

Reason: Absolutely. I have been taken advantage of by others a lot in my past, and I realized that was because I put the needs of others above my own. well guess what? The only person you will always have in your life guaranteed is yourself, so you should put your own needs first. You are a priority to yourself! That’s what I believe very strongly.

Do your moods fluctuate a lot? [yes]

Reason: I get really anxious sometimes, or depressed over stupid shit or sometimes for no reason, I’m an emotional person. I’m mostly happy but sometimes my mood can change on a dime.

Are you prone to bouts of anger? [yes]

Reason: Although I’ve been working on it, I do get angry sometimes and I do stuff I regret later. I might have some anger issues. :P

Do you often feel like people are saying negative things about you behind your back? [no]

Reason: I don’t really think many people talk about me behind my back anyways.

Do you often see things in black and white terms? In other words, something either is or it isn't, with no gray area inbetween. [no]

Reason: I try to see things from all possible perspectives and I don’t have many strong opinions about issues in general. If I do, I can still see the other side of the issue. Almost nothing is black and white.

Are you often uninterested in the feelings of others? [no]

Reason: If someone is upset or sad I want to know why, and I want to ensure that the people in my life that I care about are happy and doing well.

When you are talking to someone, do they sometimes have difficulty following your train of thought? [no]

Reason: this used to be an issue for my in high school because I was undiagnosed with ADHD at the time, but since my diagnosis I’ve learned a lot more about myself and the way I think and how to effectively communicate with others.

Are you quick to anger when your expectations are not met? [yes]

Reason: I really dislike this about myself, and I know it’s because of my mother who was the same way. It’s just an artifact of my childhood that I’m still working on improving. Hopefully I can change this about myself because I hate being angry.

Do you intentionally injure yourself, for instance by cutting yourself or taking too many pills? [yes]

Reason: This one was hard for me to answer, because what I do I don’t think of as self harm but many psychologists I’ve had have told me it is a method of self harm. I pull my hair when I am anxious, afraid, or stressed. It’s called trichotillomania and it fits most of the criteria for self-harm so I’ll be honest here and put yes.

Do consider yourself having a strong love for approval and praise? [yes]

Reason: Who doesn’t? I don’t know I think that this is only natural for humans.

Do other people accuse you of being manipulative? [no]

Reason: I’ve never even once been accused of this, so this was a clear no for me.

Have you had recurrent thoughts of suicide? [no]

Reason: When I was depressed in high school I thought about it like once, but not really seriously, and I never think about it any more.

If you answered yes to the previous question, do you tend to have these suicidal thoughts during and after a break-up with someone? [no]

Reason: Didn’t answer yes to the previous question, plus I’ve never had a breakup!

Do you tend to be critical of loved ones, sometimes holding them to higher standards than you hold yourself to? [yes]

Reason: I’m sometimes very hypocritical, another bad habit I hope to fix at some point.

Are you very afraid of being alone? [yes]

Reason: I don’t think I could function if something happened to my boyfriend, we both love eachother very much, we are going to be married within a year and I can’t imagine living my life without him. I hate to be honest, but yea, I would hate to be alone without him.

Are you focused on order and perfection? [no]

Reason: I’m not a perfectionist, which is what I think this question is asking.

Do you feel that you are depressed a lot? [no]

Reason: most of the time I just feel chilled out, not happy just normal, but definitely not depressed.

Do you always feel the need to have a story to tell? [yes]

Reason: I just love telling stories, and I think people love hearing stories!

Have you ever been in jail or done something that you could be put in jail for? [yes]

Reason: I feel like once anyone gets old enough and lived enough they’ve committed at least a misdemeanor at least once in their life. There are a lot of rules, I’m sure I’ve probably broken at least one. I think it’s kind of silly to say otherwise.

Do other people accuse you of being self-centered? [no]

Reason: I’ve never been told this, or something similar even.

Do you occasionally or often dress or act provocatively to gain attention? [no]

Reason: After my sexual assault in high school, I stopped dressing provocatively and I kind of hate it when men look at me like that. I usually just wear ultra baggy clothes.

Do you have a big fear of rejection (of any kind, not just romantic)? [no]

Reason: If it happens, it happens, I’ll move on. I hate it, but I’m not afraid of it.

Do you often second-guess yourself? [no]

Reason: Sure it happens sometimes, but not often enough to warrant a “yes” to this.

Do you find yourself exaggerating your achievements to win the respect of others? [no]

Reason: I’ll exaggerate things, but not to win respect of others, It’s more just to make a story more interesting, more entertaining.

Do you frequently alternate between feelings of high self-worth and self-disappointment? [no]

Reason: Usually I have pretty high self-worth. I can’t even remember the last time I thought I felt like a heaping pile of garbage. Even when things are going poorly, I’ll still think I can do it.

Do you tend to lie a lot? [yes]

Reason: Not a lot on my spectrum, but probably more than the average person I think, so I’ll put yes for this.

Do you frequently reassure yourself that you are deserving of praise? [yes]

Reason: Fuck, I’ll even praise myself inside my head. Not sure if that’s normal, but yea I really love praise.

Do you frequently reassure yourself that you are self-sufficient? [no]

Reason: I’m definitely not, but I’m okay with it.

Do you often feel uncomfortable in social situations? [no]

Reason: I’m not uncomfortable and I think I can perform well in social situations honestly.

Does your concern for doing everything "right" interfere with your productivity? [no]

Reason: I don’t care if some things are wrong, I just want to get shit done mostly.

Do you have trouble not taking criticism personally? [no]

Reason: I might hate criticism, but I don’t take it personal either.

Do you feel the need to always be in a relationship? [no]

Reason: Before I was in the 4 year relationship i’m in right now, I didn’t feel this way and was quite comfortable with staying single. I actually kinda liked it.

Are you quiet in social situations, often out of fear of saying something stupid? [no]

Reason: I say lots of stupid shit, but in the end I know it doesn’t really matter much.

Are you often critical of weakness in others, particularly classmates or coworkers? [yes]

Reason: I’ll keep it in my head, but I often criticize others about the smallest things.

Do you exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations in order to convince yourself not to try out new activities? [yes]

Reason: I definitely have anxiety about new situations, and will try to exaggerate what could go wrong. Sometimes I go anyways, but left to my own devices I would probably avoid it.

Do you yearn for intimate relationships yet feel that you are too socially inept to obtain them? [no]

Reason: I have a boyfriend.

Do you ever steal things from stores or people's houses? [yes]

Reason: I’ve done it in the past out of necessity.

Do you suffer from low confidence? [no]

Reason: I’m probably more confident in myself than I should be to be honest.

Have you ever exaggerated illness or other weakness in order to get attention? [yes]

Reason: In high school I exaggerated my feelings and home life to get pity from my peers. Not so much anymore but it asked if I’d EVER done it and I gotta answer honestly.

Do you have an intense fear of separation from those you love? [yes]

Reason: Who the fuck doesn’t? Nobody wants to lose the people they love. When I think about losing the people I love it scares me a lot, and that fear is intense. It’s not like an every day fear, but it is there.

Have others accused you of being arrogant? [no]

Reason: I’ve never heard this or any claim like it against me.

Do you avoid working in teams because you are convinced that others are too careless and will not work to your standards? [yes]

Reason: yes. fuck yes. I hate working in teams because the past has shown me that this is true. The outcome is always shittier than if I’d just done it myself.

Do you often let others make important decisions for you? [no]

Reason: Sometimes I ask for other people’s input into important decisions, but the final choice is always my own.

Do you have intense feelings of inadequacy and helplessness? [no]

Reason: I feel adequate and I know I’ve got people who can help me through shit.

Do you often get stuck on the details while missing the larger picture? [no]

Reason: Often I miss the details because I’m too focused on the larger picture, so exactly the opposite.

Are you very concerned with your appearance and how others perceive you? [no]

Reason: I don’t wear makeup, have a shaved head, and wear baggy clothes. Does it sound like I care to you? (Hint: I don’t)

Do others accuse you of being rigid or stubborn? [yes]

Reason: I’ve definitely heard this one before, and I can be very stubborn sometimes.

Do you have a hard time throwing things away, even if they are old and worn out? [yes]

Reason: I’m not a hoarder by any means, but I do put lots of sentimental value into things others might just consider trash.

Do you engage in any obsessive or compulsive behavior? [yes]

Reason: Trichotillomania is defined to be compulsive behavior.

Were your parents cold and distant or treated you negatively when you were growing up? [yes]

Reason: My mother was a narcissist, and treated me very poorly. My father while he was very loving, was often not there. He worked every day almost all day, and I didn’t see him very much.

RESULTS:

Borderline : HIGH

Paranoid, Antisocial, Histrionic, Narcissistic, dependent, obsessive-compulsive: MODERATE

Schizoid, Schizotypal, Avoidant: LOW

I think that most of the MODERATE results, if not all of them can be determined by only 2-3 questions, so they might not be the most accurate. The only interesting result here is the HIGH borderline result.

So, maybe I have BPD, but all I know for sure is I do have some bad habits or behaviors that I wish to sort out.

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Ask me, you have nothing to lose!

1: Full name. Won't tell you!

2: Zodiac sign. Gemini

3: 3 fears. Ignored, forgotten, alone, sudden death

4: 3 things I love. Patrick, math, caffeine

5: 4 turn on’s. masturbating, muscles, weird porn, sexy voices

6: 4 turn off’s. skipping legs day, weird faces, vanilla sex, know-it-alls

7: My best friend? Patrick!!

8: Sexual orientation? Bi-curious/bisexual, hetero-romantic

9: My best first date? Russian dumplings

10: How tall am I? 5'3''

11: What do I miss? Playing music

12: What time was I born? 2am

13: Favorite color? red

14: Do I have a crush? a boyfriend, but yes, brock o hearn

15: Favorite quote? Failures are just successful discoveries of what does not work.

16: Favorite place? Don't have one yet

17: Favorite food? Maybe sushi, probably steak

18: Do I use sarcasm? No. I'm just bluntly rude

19: What am I listening to right now? Rhett and Link

20: First thing I notice in new person? In new person? you mean in new people? probably what their face looks like, then if they are crass or straight edge

21: Shoe size? 8? maybe?

22: Eye color? hazel green in center

23: Hair color? light brown

24: Favorite style of clothing? I'm lazy but i do like grunge.

25: Ever done a prank call? I wish

26: What color of underwear I’m wearing now? I'm not

27: Meaning behind my URL? I like shit like this

28: Favorite movie? 2001 a space odyssey, but recently deadpool

29: Favorite song? the whole pink floyd dark side of the moon album.

30: Favorite band? com truise possibly

31: How I feel right now? content

32: Someone I love. Patrick.

33: My current relationship status. Patrick.

34: My relationship with my parents. dad: great. Mom: bad

35: Favorite holiday. halloween

36: Tattoos and piercing I have. no tats, used to have nose piercing but currently none of those either.

37: Tattoos and piercing I want. possibly a re-nose ring

38: The reason I joined Tumblr. i like it

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? dont have any exes

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night” texts? nope

41: Have I ever kissed the last person I texted? yes

42: When did I last hold hands? a couple days ago

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? 15 minutes

44: Have I shaved my legs in the past three days? nope

45: Where am I right now? my bedroom

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? Patrick

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? Loud in earbuds reasonable otherwise

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? no.

49: Am I excited for anything? currently, no

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? yes.

51: How often do I wear a fake smile? never

52: When was the last time I hugged someone? today

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? It's happened before. It was ok

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? nope. I throw those people out of my life.

55: What is something I disliked about today? I was kind of a rude bitch today.

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Stephen Hawking.

57: What do I think about most? My future.

58: What’s my strangest talent? I can lick one elbow

59: Do I have any strange phobias? I used to, not anymore.

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind the camera. although I dont mind either

61: What was the last lie I told? "Yea i set up that appointment" I got caught though

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Talking on the phone, but I chat online all the time also

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Ghosts, not really. Aliens, yes - but not the type that have ufos and visit earth.

64: Do I believe in magic? Possibly, still studying it and learning about it, I might believe but I'm not sure yet.

65: Do I believe in luck? yes. Luck is just coincidence, but the more luck you notice, usually the more luck you will "get"

66: What’s the weather like right now? cold and sunny

67: What was the last book I’ve read? His Dark Materials book 1

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? Not particularly.

69: Do I have any nicknames? Yes. I'm not telling though, and they aren't used very commonly anyways.

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? Broke my arm, had a kidney infection.

71: Do I spend money or save it? I wish I could say save it, but right now I've been spending it. Once I have real money to save though I probably will.

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue? If I push my nose down a bit, yes.

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? My socks!

74: Favorite animal? Deer possibly.

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? Playing games on my computer, namely cookie clicker. Actually, probably sleeping.

76: What do I think Satan’s last name is? Don't care. But just to be funny - Claus.

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? Wake me up before you GO GO. It's so annoyingly upbeat.

78: How can you win my heart? Be patrick.

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? My name.

80: What is my favorite word? Eunoia

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr? Don't have top 5

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? 'Sup.

83: Do I have any relatives in jail? Not that I know of

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? The power to control time and while time is frozen not age.

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? My mom asking: Do you love me? Because the answer would be no. I don't hate her, I just can't truthfully say I love her either.

86: What is my current desktop picture? Three dudes it looks cool - pretty psychedelic hard to explain, sorry

87: Had sex? yes.

88: Bought condoms? no

89: Gotten pregnant? no

90: Failed a class? no but I have dropped a course.

91: Kissed a boy? yes

92: Kissed a girl? yes

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? yes

94: Had job? yes

95: Left the house without my wallet? yes

96: Bullied someone on the Internet? yes

97: Had sex in public? yes - in a public spot, not in front of nonconsenting individuals or people not involved with the sex where they could see.

98: Played on a sports team? not really? I played on sports teams as a 10 year old but never in school.

99: Smoked weed? yes

100: Did drugs? yes

101: Smoked cigarettes? no

102: Drank alcohol? yes

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? not currently. I tried being a vegetarian for 6 months once but failed.

104: Been overweight? no.

105: Been underweight? slightly, yes.

106: Been to a wedding? yes.

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? yes.

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? yes

109: Been outside my home country? yes

110: Gotten my heart broken? no

111: Been to a professional sports game? no

112: Broken a bone? yes

113: Cut myself? accidentally with a knife, yes.

114: Been to prom? nope. Was too poor to buy the dress.

115: Been in airplane? yes

116: Fly by helicopter? no

117: What concerts have I been to? I have seen lots of bluegrass concerts, and saw Adam Lambert live once.

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? no

119: Learned another language? sort of? I took 4 years of spanish in high school.

120: Wore make up? yes, I dont anymore though

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? nope! Lost it at the age of 18

122: Had oral sex? yes

123: Dyed my hair? yes. Once dark brown, once blonde.

124: Voted in a presidential election? yes. I voted for obama the second time.

125: Rode in an ambulance? yes

126: Had a surgery? yes - 4 wisdom teeth removed.

127: Met someone famous? - sort of? I met a bluegrass star, but that's not like super famous.

128: Stalked someone on a social network? Not really, no.

129: Peed outside? yes.

130: Been fishing? yes.

131: Helped with charity? yes.

132: Been rejected by a crush? no.

133: Broken a mirror? I don't think so.

134: What do I want for birthday? Money to buy new glasses.

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? I think I want two kids, but not now by any means and oh god I don't have names picked out.

136: Was I named after anyone? Yes. My mother's best friend as a child who turned out to be a literal crack whore.

137: Do I like my handwriting? Sometimes? Sometimes its very sloppy but it's ok.

138: What was my favorite toy as a child? Buttons.

139: Favorite TV Show? I love House MD

140: Where do I want to live when older? The east coast could be interesting.

141: Play any musical instrument? I used to play upright bass then electric bass.

142: One of my scars, how did I get it? Taking the garbage out a metal can scraped my arm.

143: Favorite pizza topping? I like salami, but anchovies are my guilty pleasure.

144: Am I afraid of the dark? slightly.

145: Am I afraid of heights? slightly.

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? hehe yes.

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? no.

148: What I’m really bad at. Writing good essays. Art.

149: What my greatest achievements are. I've gotten this far, and in something I always thought I was bad at (math)

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me. You will never be loved, you don't deserve it.

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery. Pay off all my student loans, pay off all the money my parents have given me to go to college, save the rest.

152: What do I like about myself? I'm honest.

153: My closest Tumblr friend. Don't have one.

154: Something I fantasies about. Not telling.

155: Any question you’d like Stupid.

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