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It's ♡

getting ♡

bad ♡

again ♡

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*goes from depressed to overwhelmingly anxious to affectionate to angry to suicidal to neutral in a grand total of 0.2 seconds* life is beautiful

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i started the gym thinking it would help but i put on 5 kg!!!!!!!!!! what?????????

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im done putting on weight pls hold me accountable

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who knew i could drink a bottle of wine every night and still lose weight

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i have no job, i’m divorced at 21 n all my friends moved to europe BUT i weighed in at 60kg this morning for the first time in years and i am ✨THRIVING✨

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Me: fuck this disease, I’m gonna have three brownies cuz I want them and they taste good and I know better my favourites. Yasssss recovery ✨✨✨

Me, after swallowing the last bite: fUCK

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I want people to know that I don’t eat

But I won’t tell them.

I don’t want to tell them.

I want them to watch as I bring in baking for the class potluck, not eating anything myself, and they’ll start to take notice.

I want them to listen as I walk beside them in the halls, just floating across the floors as my footsteps fade lighter, and they’ll wonder how much I weigh.

I want them to be concerned as I sip away at a black coffee at a restaurant, making pleasant conversation while everyone else eats a meal.

I want them to watch as I hide in baggy sweaters that grow baggier and skinny jeans that grow loose and they’ll finally start to worry.

I want to be so small that I don’t have to tell people I don’t eat, they’ll see it.

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was really upset because i’ve been getting the worst headaches every singe day n i thought there was something wrong with me

then it clicked that i’m restricting again and now i’m happy lmao

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Rules to prevent it from going too far

🌹Don’t lower your goal weight. Ever. Don’t forget that it’s enough.

🥀 When your stomach passes the flat point and starts caving in you’ve gone to far and you need to stop that shit.

🌷If you’re passing out at work you need to eat more.

🌺 If it’s too hard to lift normal things such as milk jug, PlayStation, table chairs, you need more calories.

🌸 Don’t work out every day of the week.

🏵️ When you find yourself saying “fuck this” and eating everything in your house, you’re restricting too hard.

🌻 Always drink lots of water throughout the day whether or not you’re fasting.

🌼 Keep in mind that you may gain and loose the same 3 lbs of water or food weight throughout the week and it’s not fat.

💮 If you really feel the need to eat, eat. And don’t feel bad about it.

Please add more 💐

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i want to be TEENY TINY

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no offense but my obsession w being beautiful is literally going to get me killed

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One taught me love

One taught me patience

One taught me pain

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The next few months of my life I’m dedicating to becoming the skinniest, hottest, smartest, prettiest and kindest version of myself that there is.