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@nurserywitch @iwanttoknowalltheloveivegot-blog @icysweeet @cheezbot 

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My mamma thinks I’m puuuurfect 😸

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Summer time calls for bright colours 🌞

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It’s quite warm today, so chillin out with phoebe fox in my nappy is the best way to cool down 🦊✨

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Having a snooze in my @babybeeprams Comet Plus is the best 😴

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Hello! My name is Finn, I was born on the 9th of December 2017 I am 6 weeks old, I have figured out my hands can grab onto things and punch my mummy in the mouth when i have to wait 10 seconds for my bottle to heat up I can nearly hold my head up all by myself I smile all the time, and can nearly laugh properly I love my @obdesigns Phoebe Fox & strolling in my @babybeeprams Comet Plus I sleep like a star fish & pull on my daddies beard every morning 🦊✨

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My Birth Story

13/12/17

5am Friday 8th December After hardly sleeping all night from being super wired I found myself sitting on the couch watching Josh sleep, and contractions; although irregular, gradually got stronger and stronger

2 hours pass and I ended up using Josh’s mother; Brooke’s spa bath to try and alleviate some of the grown period like pain for a couple of hours waiting for my mother to arrive for moral support

6 hours pass and we arrive at the hospital and I am monitored to see if I am actually in labour, after the pain increases and we get the all clear I head to my birth suite I get settled in and strapped to different monitors for both Finn & my heart Another couple of hours pass and my pain begins to increase and I decide to start using the gas it works almost too well and my family end up in fits of laughter as I kept saying how funny I was but any time they would laugh I would tell them to shut up

Finn was very wriggly and the heart monitor was struggling to pick up her heartbeat, so they decided to monitor her heart internally

With every contraction I got, Josh would be forced to hold my hand while I puffed away on the gas He didn’t have much of a choice, no matter how asleep he was.. i’d get a little bit cranky (understatement) when he wouldn’t respond instantly I begin to get extreme pain in my hips and legs and decided to also get the morphine injection, which also worked wonders and I was off with the fairies on an even higher level I had reached 4cm dilated A couple of hours pass with slow deep pain, I reached 6cm dilated and had another morphine injection 12 hours pass and I still have not changed from 6cm and the possibility of caesarean arises I became quite upset as I wanted to avoid one as much as I could and the thought of it made me extremely uneasy, only because I wanted to try my hardest for a vaginal birth, not because there is anything wrong with that option The pain in my legs becomes agonising and I find myself hysterically crying for around an hour, upsetting my poor family I decide halfway through my moment of crying to have an epidural, they, unfortunately, took quite some time to get to my suit as it was shift change at the hospital which made the next half hour hell due to the pain of waiting, which works almost instantly and I can no longer feel any of the pain

Another few hours pass and I am checked and I am still at 6cm, and Finn is not positioned ideally so we decide that I am to lay on my right side as I am about to fall asleep and we hoped that  she would turn in the correct position 2 hours pass and I am awoken by my midwives for an internal check and I had fully dilated and had begun crowning We position me to start pushing, forceps & an episiotomy were involved I pushed for under an hour and my beautiful daughter was placed on my chest

She had unfortunately relieved her bowels while still inside me and had to have her throat cleared Finn is then brought back to me and latches to my breast for the first time, I notice the doctor was still doing a lot of work between my legs and midwives began to rush around frantically a few moments pass and I began to feel extremely nauseous and Finn is taken out of my arms as they are trying to change my sheets as I had haemorrhaged 1.5L of blood and bleed through my episiotomy stitches As they were lifting me to put more sheets back on, I vomited all over myself and things took a dark turn I became manic and my heart rate hit a dangerous height, I started shaking which turned into convulsing and doctors swarmed into the room

I became extremely triggered by all the people and noise and started to panic more struggling to breathe

My mother held my ears trying to block out the noise and my vision from all the people and my blood pressure hit a dangerous height and it became apparent that I had an extreme infection that was triggered by the shock to my body from the haemorrhage My vitals were extremely low, and my body was beginning to shut down the most I remember from here was seeing Josh and Brooke leave the room with Finn and hearing my mum tell me to breathe in and out.. Once I had slowly come to, after multiple doctors held down my arms as others try and get cannulas in each side, I still kept shaking and was extremely agitated sinking in and out of psychotic fits of anxiety They began to pump antibiotics of all kinds into me to try and slow my heart rate and I slowly became more and more stable Finn was in the nursery and she had a minor fever which after a few days finally went away with antibiotics and she is now thriving

There isn’t a lot else I remember from this, but it’s somehow embedded in my brain now They still cannot work out where the infection came from, but I’ve finally fought it off Recovery will take some time as my iron levels are so low, my body is still extremely sensitive and my mind is still rather scattered As traumatic and scary as it was, I would do it all over again if it meant I could meet my miss Finnley Lachlyn Anderson