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You know, when I see fictional characters who repress all their emotions, they're usually aloof and very blunt about keeping people at a distance, sometimes to an edgy degree—but what I don't see nearly enough are the emotionally repressed characters who are just…mellow.

Think about it. In real life, the person that's bottling up all their emotions is not the one that's brooding in the corner and snaps at you for trying to befriend them. More often than not, it's that friendly person in your circle who makes easy conversation with you, laughs with you, and listens and gives advice whenever you're upset. But you never see them upset, in fact they seem to have endless patience for you and everything around them—and so you call them their friend, you trust them. And only after months of telling them all your secrets do you realize…

…they've never actually told you anything about themselves.

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shuffle your favorite playlist and post the first five songs that come up. then copy/paste this ask to your favorite mutuals <3

Oooh okay (searching through my 20 playlists to discover my favourite)

I'll just pick the one I'm playing rn lol.

In My House (Natasha, Pierre, and the Great Comet of 1812)

La Vie Boheme (Rent)

What You Own (Rent again)

Naive (The Kooks)

Sorry (Nothing But Thieves)

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it's so funny how kevin "you better be straight for the sake of the game" day sees jeremy as his exy hero sport prodigy and nora describes him as Just a Beach Blonde Surfer Dude Service Top

kevin's gonna lose his fucking mind when he learns jeremy is fucking jean

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“I’ll just rest my eyes” is the biggest lie you’re going straight to snorkmimimi land

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tsc spoilers!

the end of the sunshine court was an emotional rollercoaster, but neil putting a hit on jeans abuser while sitting next to him and then managing to say the one thing that could probably get through to jean about who he is by bringing up his sister, while also continuing his beef with the FBI by antagonizing them, all in the span of one chapter is CRAZY. the chaos that neil brings to the book is incredible

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Jerejean this, Neil ordering a hit that.

There's one thing I need to know. Was if Nora's intention to reference the ancient Greek myth Paris with Jean being given that as a nickname from Thea? Or is it just about the city? I need to know I need to know.

Paris being thrown out as a little child by his parents due the prophecy that he is going to be the reason for a kingdom's collapse. Paris becoming a Prince of Troy.

Jean being sold off by his parents due to their debt to the Moriayamas. Jean being blamed for the fall Edgar Allan Ravens took. Becoming a Trojan.

Paris being tempted by three goddesses promising him great things.

Jean being fucked over by a pretty face mentioned three times.

Paris and Jean being the scape goats of their stories when acting from love and due to powers stronger than them.

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I’m rereading some old Trojan fics and honestly what keeps hitting me is that a lot of folks predicted Jean would be all mysterious and avoid the whole team but instead he’s like their little buddy who follows them around and casually drops his trauma into regular conversation

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I think the most endearing thing about Jean is that he just cares. So fucking much. Not to say that Neil doesn't but Neil had to learn to care and I think it's widely accepted that he cares about a select few people and cares about them fiercely; to the point of kill or be killed.

Jean though? He cares for almost everyone regardless of what they have done to him. He cared for Zane, the man who betrayed him in the most horrifying way for a number, for something Jean had no control over. He cared enough to save his life. He cared for Lucas who brought Jean's abuser right to his gate where he had believed himself to be safe. Not once did he lash out at him because he understood that his actions came from a desperation to know his brother again, the ache of having him near again but not having him at all. He cared for Cody, someone he doesn't even really know; cared enough to ensure they were safe and not being forced into something.

After being beaten down every day, holding on to life out of sheer desperation and perhaps a promise made to a once? friend, Jean still hasn't had his ability to care beaten out of him and it's such a beautiful miracle. He's a little like Andrew in this I think, in that he pretends so desperately to not care under the guise of barbed words and cold shoulders because that's a weakness, a chink in his already dented armour that the monsters can and will exploit with glee. He knows that yet he can't choke that tenderness out of himself.

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love how jean is like i might be a nuisance but at least my attitude is not as rotten as neil’s and kevin’s. real bitches those two.

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“that fandom is so annoying” i hate to break it to you but every fandom is annoying. all of them. if you’re in a fandom you’re annoying. i’m in several fandoms i’m extra annoying. everyone on this website is annoying.

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This is asking about your opinion on your personal diagnosis status, NOT your opinion on formal/self diagnosis in general, and NOT whether you're happy to be autistic or not. Just whether you're happy to have that information on paper or not.

We ask your questions so you don’t have to! Submit your questions to have them posted anonymously as polls.

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The fact that this man manages to be more evasive than NEIL ABRAM JOSTEN even in his own POV is amazing. Truly astonishing levels of avoidance going on here

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this may or may not be a fantasy writing exercise for me. please reblog

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reblog to give the person you reblogged this from a fucking break

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this is my only thought right now thank you

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where you go, i go. that's the deal.

lyrics from "work song" by hozier

click for higher resolution. close ups and progress shots under the cut!

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you can think someone's an idiot and not hate them. anyone who doesn't understand this has never had a coworker