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Sapnap himself had decided to let himself go out recently. He'd been so tense trying to manage so many things that he really deserved a break. And that meant he'd be getting drunk again.

Sapnap was coincidentally out at the same bar as Alaska. How funny life worked.

Lowkey they haven't interacted but Sapnap and Alaska should be put in a room together so maybe they can be a ship HAHA JUST KIDDING UNLESS

(I'm still sick but I am now thinking about Alaska)

Alaska had taken to a bar lounge ever since they'd moved into the new house. It was nice, truly. He got to chat with people he'd never met and he didn't go back to the house looking like a pin cushion. And, he'd get a few drinks in.

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Sapnap hummed softly. "It's not your fault... You're really important to me either way. Even if I don't have you often, or anything like we used to be... as long as I get to see your face, I'm happy." Sapnap faltered a little bit. He hid his face against them, trying not to cry. "I just wish I knew how to help you..." ←

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"Oh... can I spend today, getting to know you?" They questioned, voice soft. Sort of hesitant.

"I'll write everything down- and. And what's the date? I wanna know everything about you. And maybe I'll remember." They murmured, more hopeful now, as they also pulled out their phone. "And we can take pictures- that way I know what you look like!" -🌌📚

Sapnap's cheeks took on a bit of a flush at that. He nodded softly. "Oh, yeah..."

He pulled out his communicator to show Karl the date, feeling shy. They really wanted to do this...

Sapnap smiled nervously up at Karl. "I'd like that... yeah. We can spend the day together... I'd really like that..."

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Sapnap sighed softly, lips pulled into a tight frown. He shook his head a little. "... Karl's not so good now. His memory is really... wonky and I'm trying my best to take care of him. He disappears a lot, and I wouldn't say he's even a partner anymore... even though I do love him."

He paused. "... I don't talk to Quackity. He hasn't been here, and wouldn't let me explain last time, so I... I just... Even when I don't have to take care of Karl, I never see him."

Sapnap hesitated largely. "... am I supposed to do something... like... I don't want to even talk to him. I'm not sure if Quackity is really a good person..."

Sapnap did feel reassured at the noises Bad let off, relaxing. He kept himself fully tucked into Bad's side, just trying to stave off the aching in his throat- the threat of tears. He nodded softly, finally.

"Yeah. We're tough. I'm just glad I can have a small break with you..." Sapnap finally did pull away, sniffing. His eyes were averted, not wanting to show Bad how much he was struggling.

"Thanks, dad..." He muttered, voice quiet. "You're good at morals, aren't you? Can I have your opinion on if I'm doing the right thing?"

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Sapnap went quiet for a long moment. Puffy. Yeah, she could... His eyes glowed orange, anger bubbling up in his chest. He was starting to look more demonic as his emotions took over.

"Shut up. Shut up. No- No fucking dying. You're getting out of here." He promised, hands balled into tight fists. His nails dug into his palms, but he barely noticed the pain.

"I don't wanna hear about you dying, or your limbo, or anything. I don't want to-" He huffed, body relaxing enough to lose the horns.

"... Okay. Okay. I'll talk to your mom. We'll get you out..." Sapnap held his breath. "... I'm sorry I haven't been here for you. You understand why, don't you? But this isn't what I wanted at all."

Sapnap winced. He clenched his teeth and reached up to cover his ears. This wasn't fair. After everything he'd gone through with Dream, all the stupid heartache, the fucking vault, and now he had to be the one to help the other?

He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to ignore the ache in his throat. He couldn't cry, not in front of Dream and especially not with XD in his head. No, no. He shook his head.

"That doesn't matter!" He yelped finally. "It has nothing to do with Tommy or anything, it has everything to do with Quackity being-" He huffed.

Sapnap didn't love Quackity any longer. Not after everything that had happened. Not after this. That didn't mean he was suddenly going to do something drastic. No, he'd find someone else to- to...

His expression faltered.

"But yes. Tommy went through hell too. I'm not going to compare them like Sam and Quackity are. Leave Toms out of it."

Sapnap swallowed thickly. "Dream. Look. I'll figure something out. I'll find someone who'll- watch you and shit. I... I can't keep- I mean... I'll figure something out. So... So don't worry..."

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Sapnap sighed softly as Karl's chin rested on his head, eyes shutting. He nodded softly, listening to them speak. "Yeah... I'm Nick... or Sapnap..."Sapnap rubbed their back slightly, trying hard not to cry. "I promise I'm not upset with you Karl... you don't have to apologize. I know it isn't your choice to forget." ← (this helps me write a decent response and not try to memorize what you wrote, lol)

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"Can I.. Mm. I wish I could stay here more often.. I'm sure you're sweet, and take great care of little ol me.." they felt bad. Like. Really really bad.

"And I try to journal everything but- I just. I should be able to remember the most important person in my life.. I shouldn't need to?.." -🌌📚

Sapnap hummed softly. "It's not your fault... You're really important to me either way. Even if I don't have you often, or anything like we used to be... as long as I get to see your face, I'm happy."

Sapnap faltered a little bit. He hid his face against them, trying not to cry. "I just wish I knew how to help you..."

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Sapnap did feel reassured at the noises Bad let off, relaxing. He kept himself fully tucked into Bad's side, just trying to stave off the aching in his throat- the threat of tears. He nodded softly, finally.

"Yeah. We're tough. I'm just glad I can have a small break with you..." Sapnap finally did pull away, sniffing. His eyes were averted, not wanting to show Bad how much he was struggling.

"Thanks, dad..." He muttered, voice quiet. "You're good at morals, aren't you? Can I have your opinion on if I'm doing the right thing?"

Sapnap felt genuine happiness when he saw Bad, his own tail curled around his waist protectively. He was just just so relieved to see someone who wasn't such a strenuous and confusing relationship. This was just his dad and he could relax.

Sapnap didn't have the energy to smile though. But the offer of a hug, the open arms... he darted forward and hugged onto Bad, burying himself against his father.

"Just so tired..." He muttered. "I'll be okay. We'll be okay..."

Sapnap didn't know if he would spill his guts to his dad- he shouldn't just complain... but at least he could just take a break for a moment. Just a little one.

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Sapnap winced. He clenched his teeth and reached up to cover his ears. This wasn't fair. After everything he'd gone through with Dream, all the stupid heartache, the fucking vault, and now he had to be the one to help the other?

He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to ignore the ache in his throat. He couldn't cry, not in front of Dream and especially not with XD in his head. No, no. He shook his head.

"That doesn't matter!" He yelped finally. "It has nothing to do with Tommy or anything, it has everything to do with Quackity being-" He huffed.

Sapnap didn't love Quackity any longer. Not after everything that had happened. Not after this. That didn't mean he was suddenly going to do something drastic. No, he'd find someone else to- to...

His expression faltered.

"But yes. Tommy went through hell too. I'm not going to compare them like Sam and Quackity are. Leave Toms out of it."

Sapnap swallowed thickly. "Dream. Look. I'll figure something out. I'll find someone who'll- watch you and shit. I... I can't keep- I mean... I'll figure something out. So... So don't worry..."

Sapnap knelt down next to Dream, staring at him in disbelief. His breathing was a bit shaky as he listened to the other's traumatized ramblings, trying to make sense of what he was being told.

His hand slowly, slowly reached out, before tapping Dream's shoulder a bit. He recoiled like touching the other burned, jaw clenching softly.

"Shit. Don't-"

Sapnap felt his own panic surging, choking himself out. Bile rose in his throat, mouth snapping shut as he stared at Dream.

Quackity.

On one hand, he should have known. Quackity had become a real bitch recently- but this- this was different. This was way different. His breathing stuttered, shaking his head a little. "That- fucking-"

Sapnap felt a part of his heart die, shoulders slumped and body shaking. He'd already lost so much, and now he had to contend with he'd lost Quackity again, and Dream wasn't even his friend anymore.

"Quackity. Fuck. Fuck!"

Sapnap stood quickly and turned away from Dream, hand covering his mouth. His breathing was labored. "I- I can't just- God, I don't know what to do..."

Sapnap swallowed thickly. "... what am I supposed to do, Dream... what..."

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Mmmm eggpire Sapnap... maybe I will make a verse....

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Another Sapnap design haha

He's still a boy. He's just pretty.

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Sapnap was happy to get drunk with the other. "Yeah? I feel you... drinking buddies?"

Sapnap waved awkwardly. "Huh... uh... I'm not gonna fight you or anything."

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She stared at him, her eyebrow raised. “Mhm? What are you doing here?”

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Sapnap felt genuine happiness when he saw Bad, his own tail curled around his waist protectively. He was just just so relieved to see someone who wasn't such a strenuous and confusing relationship. This was just his dad and he could relax.

Sapnap didn't have the energy to smile though. But the offer of a hug, the open arms... he darted forward and hugged onto Bad, burying himself against his father.

"Just so tired..." He muttered. "I'll be okay. We'll be okay..."

Sapnap didn't know if he would spill his guts to his dad- he shouldn't just complain... but at least he could just take a break for a moment. Just a little one.

Sapnap quietly knocked at Bad's door, lips pulled into a tight frown. His tail twitched, body language tight and standoffish. The half demon seemed exhausted, but it was really time to see his father. He exhaled in almost relief when the door finally did open, eyes dull and shoulders slumping a bit.

"Dad-" He muttered, before going quiet. "... realized it's been a while. How are you?"

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Impromptu Inbox Ask (not really since I asked for it lol) || ALWAYS ACCEPTING // @flamxd

😇The netherborn had been... dealing with quite a bit since everything. He had been in the process of feeding Rat when they heard the knock at the door. Replying with a 'one moment please!' He finished up what he was doing before making his way to the front door. The demon approaching the door, pausing as they caught scent of a familiar scent.

Opening the door, their white eyes widening a bit behind the slim white frames of their glasses upon seeing that their nose had been correct rather than playing tricks on them. "Sap! Hi!" They retorted, their tail swaying slightly to the side as they studied their son; their gaze softening a bit at their words.

"It... definitely has. But I am always happy to see you. I've been... better that's for sure. But enough about me, how are you doing? You... look like you could use a hug." The demon lightly opened the arms, offering the option to them as they could see... just how tired and worn down the other looked. Especially in their tone too, and honestly... maybe Bad needed a hug too.

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Sapnap stiffened when he felt Karl wrap their arms around him. His own arms moved to hug around their waist, shaking a bit. A deep breath. Hold for a few seconds. Release.

"It's okay. I know it's not your fault." Sapnap mumbled, ignoring the strain in his own voice. He tried not to feel embarrassed.

"It's okay Karl... don't worry..."

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they rested their chin on his head, sighing softly. Fingers rubbing at his shoulders.

"I should try harder.. I'm sorry.. you said.. your name is Nick, right? Nick. And you're my partner. And caretaker.." Their voice sounded sort of bitter at that. They were young. Or they thought they were young. They couldn't remember how old they were.

Or how old Nick was.

Or his favorite color.. or favorite flower..

They didn't like those thoughts.

"I'm sorry.."

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Sapnap sighed softly as Karl's chin rested on his head, eyes shutting. He nodded softly, listening to them speak. "Yeah... I'm Nick... or Sapnap..."

Sapnap rubbed their back slightly, trying hard not to cry.

"I promise I'm not upset with you Karl... you don't have to apologize. I know it isn't your choice to forget."

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”It worked though.” She smiled.

"Were you trying to cheer me up?" Sap rubbed the back of his neck. "Hah... thanks. I guess we could be probably-friends instead of maybe-friends." He joked.

Sapnap waved awkwardly. "Huh... uh... I'm not gonna fight you or anything."

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She stared at him, her eyebrow raised. “Mhm? What are you doing here?”

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Send me “Where she stops...” for a starter using the whump wheel 

(credit X)

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Muses who never or rarely ask for support... Going Through It, just having an Awful day, and at the end they're tired and wrung out and tired and did they mention tired, and so they turn to their friend and they ask, "will you [x]?" because really. Really they just need it. They just do

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hurt/comfort starters!! trigger warnings: blood, injury, vom*t, panic attack

❝ lay down. you need to lay down. put your head in my lap. ❞

❝ i think i’m about to pass out. ❞

❝ what happened to you? come inside. come inside. ❞

❝ i know it’s late, but… i need you here. ❞

❝ [name]. you’re bleeding. ❞

❝ the more you freak out, the faster you’re going to bleed. just take it easy. ❞

❝ just keep talking to me. ❞

❝ you’re safe. it’s just a panic attack. just squeeze my hands, okay? ❞

❝ can you talk? ❞

❝ stay with me— hey. [name]? oh my god, please don’t do this. ❞

❝ please don’t leave. ❞

❝ you’re not gonna die. i’m not gonna let you die. ❞

❝ i know you want to sleep, but you need to stay awake for me. ❞

❝ it’s okay. just go to sleep. i’ll be here when you wake up. ❞

❝ it hurts. oh my god, it hurts— ❞

❝ it’s not as bad as it looks, i swear. ❞

❝ i know it hurts. just hang in there, okay? ❞

❝ i’ve got you. you’re safe now. ❞

❝ i need you to tell me what’s wrong. what are you feeling? ❞

❝ it’s okay. it’s alright. let it out. ❞

❝ there’s nothing to be embarrassed about. you’re sick. ❞

❝ let me make you some soup. ❞

❝ let me make you some tea. ❞

❝ i didn’t want to worry you. ❞

❝ it’s okay to cry. i know it hurts. ❞

❝ wrap your arms around my neck. i’m gonna carry you. ❞

❝ i’m gonna take good care of you. don’t you worry. ❞

❝ please help me. please. ❞

❝ stop moving, just let me hold you. ❞

❝ breathe with me. in and out… good job. just keep doing that. ❞

❝ i can’t feel my hands— ❞

❝ i can’t move it. i think it’s broken. ❞

❝ i can’t see. ❞

❝ i’m not gonna let anything happen to you. ❞

❝ don’t look at it. just keep your eyes closed, and breathe. ❞

❝ thank you for being here with me. ❞