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Tumblr is bugged out, I do know who sent the ask and I’ll bother you tomorrow

I don’t agree with the blog it’s coming from but I’m not the type of person to go attack mode anymore on that sort of stuff. ..(or in general really) I view things with heavy nuance, that asides, I will try to figure out what’s going on without involving myself too deeply best I can

I have a new important job I’m starting tomorrow so it’s going to be pushed as the last priority of the day so it may be a good 24 hours from now

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hi i was scrolling through your blog and found some stuff about snuffk1t.

he came into my posts saying that i was harassing him including bringing up some things i have said during a dark period in my life around 2022? (i can't remember anything due to how serious my trauma was) and accused me of doxxing among sending an confession anon to a btd/tpof confession account.

i don't even have a recollection of interacting with snuffk1t at all with their current account or a previous account he mentioned that went by the user H3LLC1RCUS. i even tried to talk to them privately about whatever the reason on why they're doing this and i got an angry message from them prompted by being blocked.

i didn't even know this person had a track record of this behavior and they plan on leaking my private information which unfortunately isn't private anymore no thanks to someone else doxxing me. i just feel like if i post about it, he'll try to harass me or send his group of friends to do so. i'm already under enough stress with having to deal with the doxxing scandal that happened just of august of last year.

i don't know why snuffk1t is targeting me or what i did to set them off, however i feel like i can come to you about this since you've also had gone through their bullshit as well.

i'm sorry if this is rude or something abrupt, i don't have anyone else to talk about or trust with this information.

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“If the thoughts are intrusive why are you scared of acting upon it” is throwing me because that is literally how ocd works and the fear of doing certain things, depending on how ocd forms in you, can literally make said fear ridiculous and crippling + there are instances of people receiving financial aid and being recognized as officially disabled because of well. How dehabilitating it can be

I lived with someone who had ocd of the house burning down and killing his family; he couldn’t get sleep and he would obsessively check fire alarms, smoke detectors, etc every night even when power would be out etc. he would also unplug things and the family would find it unplugged later and it would be a huge inconvenience

I also have someone who has a tech ocd and is afraid of links. He thinks that if he SEES a link (no matter how safe) he will somehow slip and click it and get his identity stolen and his accounts taken. We have to spoiler links to not give him a panic attack

Removing urself from kids gives you a peace of mind that xyz won’t happen even though like the instances above, you’re in complete control and you know you wouldn’t

the recent climate on social of how people perceive intrusive thoughts has resulted in misunderstanding and ableism towards it pretty badly. You got that and then the cringe old boomers who think it means “obsessive cleaning disorder” lmao. It manifests differently in many.

The images have recently caught my attention and I must express my deep concern. I find it extremely disturbing and unacceptable. It is appalling to even consider that such behavior or thoughts could be deemed permissible. If an individual is experiencing fear or anxiety about being around children due to inappropriate impulses, it is a matter that requires serious attention and intervention. It has come to my knowledge that Spencer (or Snuffk1t) has mentioned struggling with p-ocd, which stands for p3d0phili4 obsessive-compulsive disorder. This is particularly alarming given their involvement in a community that specifically prohibits the presence of minors. The fact that they openly express fear of being around minors, as evidenced by statements such as 'P-ocd is acting up today,' is deeply concerning.

This is not a matter to be taken lightly. It is not something that should be normalized or accepted. If Spencer genuinely experiences these worries, it raises the question of why they have not sought professional help. The admission of having negative thoughts in the presence of a minor is deeply troubling. In my opinion, individuals with such inclinations should not be in the vicinity of children, and it is concerning that there seems to be any level of acceptance or support for this behavior. It is imperative that these impulses or urges are addressed and not dismissed. They are indicative of pedophilic tendencies, and the lack of serious attention to this matter is deeply troubling.

This is more than just a personal grievance; it is a call for awareness. This issue should not be trivialized or overlooked. It is a serious and potentially dangerous matter that demands significant attention and intervention.

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Hey it’s my stupid ass rearing my head again but I just want to give my thought and defend here for once lmao. Misunderstanding of ocd really pisses me off sorry

This is dumb and pocd is NOT the same as being attracted to kids, at all, it’s an obsession about avoiding it . and if anything you expressing that you have it lets people have ground to trust you more and be wary JUST in case. Pedophiles wouldn’t dare express this as it would get them caught, etc. There are worse people out there to worry about holy shit

I understand the concern and the need to say something, because it mentions pedophilia I guess. but OCD is obsessing over *not* wanting something to happen, it doesn’t mean “you think about it and have the urge to do it” and in todays world where pedophilia and drawn cp is rampant it’s going to manifest as pocd in others often. Avoiding kids to prevent this is realistically true in just how it works. I have a friend with tech ocd who has a fear / panic attack when he sees a link in discord even when it’s safe because he thinks he will slip and get hacked for example. And the thing in question could be safe with an embed.

Lovely energy here but please redirect it to someone who’s more of a threat bcs this is not it

The images have recently caught my attention and I must express my deep concern. I find it extremely disturbing and unacceptable. It is appalling to even consider that such behavior or thoughts could be deemed permissible. If an individual is experiencing fear or anxiety about being around children due to inappropriate impulses, it is a matter that requires serious attention and intervention. It has come to my knowledge that Spencer (or Snuffk1t) has mentioned struggling with p-ocd, which stands for p3d0phili4 obsessive-compulsive disorder. This is particularly alarming given their involvement in a community that specifically prohibits the presence of minors. The fact that they openly express fear of being around minors, as evidenced by statements such as 'P-ocd is acting up today,' is deeply concerning.

This is not a matter to be taken lightly. It is not something that should be normalized or accepted. If Spencer genuinely experiences these worries, it raises the question of why they have not sought professional help. The admission of having negative thoughts in the presence of a minor is deeply troubling. In my opinion, individuals with such inclinations should not be in the vicinity of children, and it is concerning that there seems to be any level of acceptance or support for this behavior. It is imperative that these impulses or urges are addressed and not dismissed. They are indicative of pedophilic tendencies, and the lack of serious attention to this matter is deeply troubling.

This is more than just a personal grievance; it is a call for awareness. This issue should not be trivialized or overlooked. It is a serious and potentially dangerous matter that demands significant attention and intervention.

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Disclaimer real quick I’m not trying to keep things going btw, just answering asks that i get and spitting what’s on my mind in that moment, in the end all i truly wish for is that bro grows and tries to be honest

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It’s actually funny how many people you could be. Like, how many enemies does he HAVE?

I change my mind they should keep guessing

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But as a note I’m not trying to hide how I type at this point and I would give up the guessing on who this is, cus the more u do the more you guys stray it seems, again, I think only he would know

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Also deleted that ask cus I don’t want another random person involved

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I just checked bros blog, I do not type like bro

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idk why hes poking at u for being childish and edgy lol. bro has no place to be like "hurrr ur edgy" when he's a stereotypical gore-loving sanrio and gloomy bear edgelord

Big unintentional tangent coming up, i've got nothing to do this hour so I ended up spilling feelings/reminescent thoughts from the day But yeeeeeeeah I mean there's nothing wrong w/liking said things, I AM edgy and proudly cringe to be fair but i tend to flip flop between dark aesthetics and then weird angelic surreal aesthetics because. It's cool. It's what I identify with personally for a variety of reasons. As for the roblox + childish quip, I never got to enjoy dumb games/stuff like roblox as a kid and I think there's smth nice with indulging in little happy stuff as an adult, like yea i have my dumb happy indulgent side but I also am heavily focused on self-improvement outside of this, obviously like everyone else im also flawed but I really like tackling it and im finally doing better in life now after my own escape with abusive family, but it was hell to get out of and I also got lucky. I might complain about my past (it was bad and ofc i have residual problems, its still fresh) but i do acknowledge that besides the problems said past has loaded me with mentally, im doing much better for myself now and almost completely individualized, I drive, work, and am pretty independant despite how childish i may appear, sure. But on this topic again iirc Spencer age regresses and stuff + plays roblox too. A LOT of adults play fortnite, minecraft, roblox ect nowadays they're just stupid fun games, idc. As long as ur not being weird on the platform cus good grief roblox is bad with that.

People will hound and pick apart anything for insults-sake just because they dont like you despite anything ironic about it, and it really shows here. I can dig into him if i wanted to and embarass the fuck out of him w/what I know, but it's old and I dont think reflects his current persona despite him playing down how big it actually was to look better. You can tear just about anyone down if you know how to depending on what material you have to go off of, all I did was change my desc to a link to a song I liked, threw on a pfp, and bam they rip into it.. which despite how tame / relaxed my main is, it just goes to show that I was right to remain anon. Regardless I won't go out of my way to insult like that, just bluff about it (obviously). There's truly nothing constructive in insulting that kind of thing and anyone who has eyes can see the hypocrisy even if they like the guy but won't say it. That itself is embarassing to anyone watching. This is off topic, but while I'm here im still cringing at the "if you wanna talk to him you'll have to go through me ):<" big baddie viktor persona or friend or alter in his account whoever that was attempting to intimidate me. Wow. Now IRONICALLY the problem to me is that if I spoke directly, i'd be chill + almost too chill despite how harsh i've been here. I have a side of myself that is very, very dedicated to helping the right people if they listen and genuinely wish to help themselves. I helped myself escape my situation ofc, helped my partner, I helped 3 people deemed irredeemable elsewhere, (arguably who didnt need help, and I understand why theyd be hated for xyz plus i'd emphazise to them that if they want to change, they have to see what others hate about them and agree its rational. I dont believe in people becoming the worst versions of themsleves and hurting others in the future if it can be stopped) I generally know how to help people look for resources but sometimes it is really hard depending on your personal case. That said as well i can also be rage bent and chase anyone who I think escaping, identifying with the same behavior after knowing better, and choosing to be miserable. I LOATHE people like that and it absoloutely shows. I'll reiterate on this but I used to be similar to him until my 4th and most effective therapist called me out on it. I was pissed initially but then overtime i learned that damn ok, she's actually right. I blame a lot of my own personal growth on her help. Sometimes being 100% gentle isn't going to work but neither is beating someone to death ofc. I also think there's a difference between sugarcoating vs. dead-honest critisism, I like the latter. This is going to sound harsh but generally; I dont want you to prove to me how inhibited you are or how bad you have it to make a point to me and garner sympathy from those around you. There's been enough of that. It's def good to vent but theres a difference here im trying to make clear - after a select few instances, its very obvious for me and others that Spencer has learned how to profit and gain a following from acting pathetic, lying, and playing up what he seems to go through to garner an overprotective circle in a way. Its good to have a support group, always, but this feels different. IM NOT SAYING HE WILL REMAIN THIS WAY. I HOPE HE DOESNT. Im simply calling it out and im sure despite the song and dance on main he knows what i mean.

I want to see motivation to grow instead of choosing to wallow in misery, it might suck for awhile to brave through what you're enduring but you'll thank yourself later for sure. My talk with ybt also showed to me that I dont think these people know what they're doing w/resources, honestly. But again what I want to see self respect and TRUE admittance to ones mistake. People do not know how actively damaging it is to choose to play up their misery to a level thats unrealistic and isnt actually reflecting what they're going through for pity/donations/etc. (disclaimer, I will say a lot of the time you dont even know you're doing it but i have reason to believe he should know) i've been that way myself before, so I do know what it's like. I just got very lucky with my resources last year and someone irl who helped me out. I have a bad habit of also suddenly becoming way too soft when communicating with people like this. Probably bcs due to [insert disorder here] and i'd take on the "oh everything is ok now!" type of tone and regretting it later like i have before bcs I will fail to really hammer in what I need to, thus rendering the conversation ineffective and possibly being taken advantage of. I'd go on but itsssss.. intricate and tedious to get into. I can ramble forever if im given the stage. Whoops.

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I didnt know you were chill like that

thanks

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Also to clarify I am not directly stalking his blog, he could stop and post about random stuff right now and I will not continue.

I’m not checking notifs for the sake of my own panic bcs yes I am stressed too, but literally everything that I’ve responded to has been brought up to me separately on discord because others find it necessary to highlight

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Hopefully that’s all, for those wondering in the following days I might randomly reach out to speak directly because despite everything I can and there’s still no idea of who this it it seems

I need time to think on whether that’s both safe for me at this point or necessary bcs of how everyone is acting (which is everyone being cracked out on stress) and I feel like my point has been made and rests on him regardless if I do or not

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The 3-4 callout posts that I’ve made in my life years ago btw were on extreme pedos/abusers who’ve hurt multiple people that I’ve tried to reason with at various points, who have had track record of taking advantage of trust, I despise callouts that highlight petty stuff and waste everyone’s time

Notice: I didn’t even write a callout here bcs I don’t find it necessary. I’m just some vague random who has spoken to you before and pointing out continued flaws I see that I hope rests on your subconscious and serves as a warning for others who aren’t dense and white knighty

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Sorry this is petty among all things but a.

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Also no publicizing the escape attempt doesn’t need to happen, what I’m on about is an issue with how he mostly carries himself and the problems it leads to. Many fail to understand that I highlighted multiple times his current friends aren’t going to see it so the interference really isn’t helping

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Every time I say I’m leaving I get dragged back so at this point this stands or whatever