floralmilkbutterfly

[floralmilkbutterfly]

September 15th, 2007

Okay, this is starting to freak me out. Yesterday, I saw Jeanine and she was just wandering around Main Street. She wasn't going anywhere, she just stood there in front of her store. I went up to talk to her, but I might as well have been invisible. She just stared at me. I asked her if she was okay. She asked me if I had seen her husband. She started getting really weird about it and kept asking me over and over again.

I didn't really know what to do, so I just went to the other side of the street and made sure she didn't do anything stupid like walk in front of a truck or something.

After about an hour, she went inside the café, closed the door and disappeared into the back. I went over there and knocked on the door, but she never came out. I thought I heard some yelling inside, but then it just stopped.

I took off and went straight home, up to my room and closed the door. I didn't know where my mom was, so I just stayed in my room the rest of the day. I was scared to even come to the library to write this, but I knew you would find it all very thrilling! I do this for you.

Maybe tomorrow, aliens will land in front of the town hall and take me on board. Doubt it. That would almost be a relief.

[floralmilkbutterfly]

September 14th, 2007

Hi.

I'm not sure how long it's been since my last post. Feels like it's been a while, but it could just be that the clock in my head is all screwed up. Maybe I need to start crossing off days in a calendar, like someone shipwrecked on a deserted island.

Ladies and gentlemen, let's give a big hello to Elle, the drama queen!

So, something pretty crappy happened today. I went down to Solar for my usual fix and it was closed! No sign of Jeanine either.

I'm going to go back there now and see if she showed up. What the hell are people supposed to eat around here?

[floralmilkbutterfly]

September 12th, 2007

Okay, I wanted to organize all the thoughts I had about the day things changed for me, so I went back and put it all in order so I wouldn't just ramble on and on (like I normally do, yes I KNOW!).

Right, so Alex and I were having a great time that summer, blah, blah, blah. After the summer, our town had this big anniversary party. There was something actually FUN happening where we lived! Everyone was there. My mom and I worked a dunk tank together, and Alex did safety guard for the petting zoo - you know, making sure the animals didn't attack the children!

And then, that whole week, Alex didn't come by and he didn't call me. It was weird, so I went over to his house. No one answered the door. I could hear Alex's mom crying. I banged and banged forever. I thought something bad had happened. His dad came out and told me that Alex had left. HE LEFT? I was like, where did he go? I could tell that his dad was angry. I asked if Alex was okay and he said he was fine. He just shut the door on me. I didn't know what was going on. I banged on the door again, but Alex's dad just told me to go away and leave them alone.

I went home to tell my mom, but she was gone and so was my dad and my sister. I just went up to my room and fell asleep hoping that I would wake up and it would be back to normal.

That was a few years ago and I still haven't forgiven Alex for just leaving like that without even calling me. That's when everything in my life started to suck. I can't talk to anyone around here like I could with him. No one here has any perspective. Alex and I could talk for hours about whatever.

At least I have you to talk to. Are you listening?

[floralmilkbutterfly]

September 11th, 2007

So about that Alex guy I just happened to mention last time. I know you're all dying inside for some juicy gossip on my personal life.

Okay, twist my arm.

Alex was a guy from my school (obviously). First he totally ignored me when we got into high school, which was really annoying since I've known him forever and he acted like he had never seen me before. But then we started hanging out again. He was over at my house a lot during the last couple of years because his dad was always working and his mom pretty much didn't care less where he was. Funny thing is that my mom, of all people, actually talked to him like she cared. That was a pretty great time for all of us. Alex and I hung out every day and during our summer vacation after graduation, he would stay over at our house when he got off from work. I don't think his mom ever called or came over to find out where he was, which was fine with us because everyone just left us alone.

I'm not sure I want to talk about all of this right now. I promise I will - just not today.

[floralmilkbutterfly]

September 10th, 2007

I’m so bored. I went down to Solar today and tried to spice things up and NOT order the same thing. Woo hoo!

I went by school today. The place was empty but the door to the gym was unlocked. I snuck inside. It’s amazing how creepy the place is when no one is around. I stopped by Alex’s locker. He used to have all these stickers, but they must have scraped them off. It’s like he was never there. I was hoping there would be something left of his I could have kept.

Then it started to get pretty scary being there alone and I thought I heard some people talking from the classrooms upstairs, so I ran out of there pretty quick. I never saw anyone.

My boredom is going to get me into trouble one of these days.

[floralmilkbutterfly]

September 8th, 2007

Weird thing today - my mom actually stopped by my room, woke me up and asked me how I was feeling this morning.

Huh, what, huh? This woman hasn’t spoken a word to me in months and now she’s taking an interest in my feelings?

I said to her, “and you are?”

She didn’t think that was funny. She rarely finds the things I do or say funny. She used to.

I’m not sure what has happened, but my mom and I used to be friends. Not like hang out at the mall friends, but at least she acted like a mom who had a daughter.

[floralmilkbutterfly]

September 7th, 2007

I got an idea a few days ago. I thought that from now on, I would try to run at least twenty minutes every morning. I’ve been pretty lazy, just sitting around waiting for something to happen (and to be honest, chili fries five days a week are taking their toll).

So, today I got up really early and ran. And I saw the funniest thing. I saw the mayor, the actual mayor of Shepherd’s Glen passed out in front of his mansion. No one was around! I thought about taking a picture, but that would be too mean, don’t you think? I went up there to make sure he was okay. He was really out of it and smelled like a case of wine. I found a stick and poked him to make sure he was still alive. He was. I felt bad for the guy. I’ve never been THAT messed up.

But seriously, no wonder everything has gone to hell around here. The freaking mayor is sleeping on his own front lawn like he’s some high school freshman who didn’t make it home from a party. How embarrassing.

Alex would have found that funny. Too bad he’s not around.

[floralmilkbutterfly]

September 6th, 2007

You know what I found taped to my door this morning? That note that I left on the fridge for my mom with a twenty dollar bill taped to it!

Talk about lazy. At least she’s paying attention.

[floralmilkbutterfly]

September 5th, 2007

I’m back!

Don’t all applaud at once.

I’m not sure why I’m back. The last time I was just testing to see if the computer actually worked, but it does. And it’s still here waiting for me. This computer is officially my new best friend!

If someone told you they had a computer for a best friend, would you think they were crazy? I would. But then again, good friends are hard to come by.

So who wants to read about another exciting day from the pages of my life?

Okay, I woke up. No one was home. Looked outside and it was another beautiful foggy day. I opened the fridge and there was about half a glass of old apple juice and a jar of mustard. Seriously, THAT’S WHAT WAS IN THE FRIDGE. I wrote a note to Mom on the door. It said, “Hey! Can we PLEASE buy some food? There are humans in need of nourishment still living in this house!” Think she’ll get the message?

I went down to Solar (best chili fries). Luckily, they’re still open. Jeanine (who owns it) took mercy on my starving self and fed me. But she seemed all weirded out the rest of the time, which in turn weirded me out. She kept asking me all these questions about my mom and what she was up to. As if I’ve seen her in days. I stuffed my face as fast as I could.

And then I dragged my bloated ass over to the library to write this.

And THAT is what my day consisted of. Hopefully yours was a little bit more fulfilling. Do tell.

[floralmilkbutterfly]

September 4th, 2007

"What does your username mean?" (yes I know no one cares) the words "floral" and "milk" were the first words that came to mind when thinking of a username, which I thought sounded funny and then I added on butterfly because of milk butterflies. (I like butterflies, okay?)

[floralmilkbutterfly]

September 4th, 2007

I’m just going to start writing and see what happens here. I apologize in advance if I come off whiny, bitchy, stupid, lame, annoying, weird, creepy, or a drama queen.

Another great day in my house! Mom barely spoke a word to me, which is about five words more than usual. Dad locked himself in the bedroom all day. He’s found the best way to deal with life is just to pull the covers over your eyes and pretend no one can see you. I wish it were that easy.

But for me, something actually happened. I managed to get one of the old computers in the library to work! See, typing works!!!! I CAN TYPE IN CAPS TOO!!!

For anyone reading this (not sure why), then you might be asking yourself “just who is this girl and why do I care?” Well, for one, yes I’m a girl (note to creepy stalkers: stay away, I’ve got enough weirdoes around me). My name is Elle. I live in the smallest place in the world, Shepherd's Glen.

Haven’t heard of it? Big surprise.

If you got in your car, drove to the most unused road near your house, then took it for 100 miles, then turned off on a dirt road with no name, drove on THAT for a whole day, you would still never get here.

So what’s the big deal with the computer in the library? (Yes, I’m still excited about that!) Well, everything around here is either broken or from before I was born. So finding a computer that actually makes the letters appear on the screen when I type is a miracle of modern science.

Okay. Rambling. (I should have added that to the list above.) I could go on for about a thousand hours, but then I wouldn’t have anything to write about next time.

And then what would you do with yourself?