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Writing Advice that Will Save You from Crying over Chapter 3 Again

☽ Sometimes “writer’s block” is actually just your story being broken and your brain knowing before you do. Respect the vibes, go back. Something stinks.

☽ If you’re stuck in the middle, skip to the part you’re excited to write. Chronological writing is a suggestion, not a law.

☽ “Kill your darlings” is not about deleting every cool thing you love. It’s about not hoarding scenes like a dragon with dialogue you wrote in 2017 that doesn’t even make sense anymore.

☽ You do not need to write like your favorite author. You need to write like you, caffeinated and slightly unstable.

☽ Talking to yourself in the mirror as your character is not weird. It’s called method writing. You’re not unhinged, you’re dedicated.

☽ Aesthetic Pinterest boards and playlists are writing progress if they make you feel like a god again.

☽ You can write the climax before you finish Act 1. You can rewrite Chapter 1 thirty times and then delete it anyway. You’re not behind, you’re in hell with the rest of us.

You’re allowed to write stuff that’s not “marketable.” You’re allowed to be weird. Write the story that would make you feel seen. The niche finds its freaks.

☽ Beta readers are not gods. Take what resonates, ignore what doesn’t. If five people say your story drags at Chapter 8? Maybe listen. If one person says “make it all about the dog,” maybe don’t.

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#affirmations

Don’t kill yourself that shit kills you

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i reposted this like two months ago and he fucking died this morning.

i guess not this morning because it’s 1am the next day but like he was alive yesterday. he was alive in the morning. i was awake when he died in the morning.

i found out six hours ago and i have been crying on and off ever since. my friend called me immediately after she found out—didn’t even process her feelings just immediately was like “i have to call sol”. we were on the phone four and half hours. i’ve tried to fill the silence. i don’t want to be alone. or sober. but alas.

like what the fuck do you do when your favorite professor dies?

i will miss him forever. i am so beyond devastated.

this is the most pain i think ive ever been in.

he was fucking 47. he has a wife and three kids. he drove a stupid little blue car he was way too fucking big for and he’s a fucking nerd. he’s the professor the upper classmen tell you to never take a class with because “he’s mean” or whatever but he gave me so much grace and patience and showed me so much kindness and i will never be able to tell him that he fucking saved my life this year. i will never see him again. i was supposed to have him again in the fall. i was supposed to see him in two months. i haven’t seen him in over a month. i will never see him again.

i will miss him for the rest of my life. i don’t know how im supposed to just fucking do college after this. he fucking carried me through my whole freshman year and now i’m supposed to just do the rest of college without him. i feel like time has stopped moving.

Currently using the idea of "he will be proud of me" to study

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chronic pain diagnoses are all like yeah we don't know what this is or why it happens. we also don't know how to treat it. good luck out there soldier

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Currently using the idea of "he will be proud of me" to study

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tagged by @mostremote to post gifs from ten of my favorite films without mentioning the titles!!!!

tagging @deathgrippp @mo0nagedaydr3am @certifiedgrrrlkisser

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attempted to get a number ticket thingy or some bullshit for an apartment on campus for next year/semester/in the fall,,, stayed up til 7 am (it started at 5:50 am and was quick, i just couldn’t fall asleep), but i didn’t have class today so it was fine,,,, YEAH SO IT DIDNT WORK!! i have to stay up AGAIN but this time i have class at 11 so im NOT going to take my sleep aid otherwise i’ll zonk out til like 4pm and not go to class!!

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i know who i ship me with this valentine’s day!!

me x a good night sleep!

(impossible, it’s 7 am, i’ve been awake since 8:30 am yesterday after i woke suddenly from a nightmare)

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i got into my university’s cabaret! not only did i get into my university’s cabaret, BUT IM PERFORMING FIRST. NOT ONLY AM I PERFORMING FIRST, but i’m the only one on the setlist whose act is categorized as a “cabaret song” so the one part of my ego is like oh work, but rest of me is like WHY AM I FIRST

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i saw go before me, a great impossible thing

sensual and concrete

splitting me open

renders me obsolete

i’ve slain greater

and moved on

make room in hell

make room in hell

make room in hell

they cry, you don’t have to go

they cry, you don’t have to go

my love

i know

i know

i know

i know

i know

i know

i know

i know

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rip tiktok, hope u come back soon

like why am i gonna cry 😭😭 im going to get so much work done now but it’s just odd to lose all of my videos. that’s where i record *everything* so it just hurts a lot.

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fourth update:

i’m a witness :((

my only goal this semester, so said me for the last two weeks:

to not be a witness!!!!!!!

MY ONLY GOAL

IT IS DAY 2

stupid tangent abt being overwhelmed:

i move back into school tmr and i think i am friends w too many people. this is the craziest shit in the world cause like WHO DO I HANG OUT WITH FIRST????? my cousin??? (who i don’t want to see but is fucking dying to see me)

like i want to see all my friends in my one friend group, but i really want to first spend time with my main four ppl friend group. i have all week and all semester to see everyone else but i just want to see my people first.

i’m overwhelmed and i’m not even there yet.

i can’t do another semester of police at the dorms til 8 am again. like that was ridiculous and i am tired. i just want to worry abt my classes. i’ll talk things out w people but i cant be a live in therapist again. i cant do that shit another time.

anyways!! first world problems, why am i overwhelmed about having friends

(i’m not used to having this many friends. i had a solid two for like five years and now i have so many)

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third update

my best friend & ra typed up a departing goodbye never speak to me again type shit text to my cousin who i found out is actually a horrible horrible person but i’m not shocked either so that says a lot i think anyways

i’m high, scared, and very awake

i hope they’re alive in the morning, and i hope they don’t try to kill me!!!!!!

(it’s not that bad but it’s like enough that i am actually afraid for my physical and emotional wellbeing)

stupid tangent abt being overwhelmed:

i move back into school tmr and i think i am friends w too many people. this is the craziest shit in the world cause like WHO DO I HANG OUT WITH FIRST????? my cousin??? (who i don’t want to see but is fucking dying to see me)

like i want to see all my friends in my one friend group, but i really want to first spend time with my main four ppl friend group. i have all week and all semester to see everyone else but i just want to see my people first.

i’m overwhelmed and i’m not even there yet.

i can’t do another semester of police at the dorms til 8 am again. like that was ridiculous and i am tired. i just want to worry abt my classes. i’ll talk things out w people but i cant be a live in therapist again. i cant do that shit another time.

anyways!! first world problems, why am i overwhelmed about having friends

(i’m not used to having this many friends. i had a solid two for like five years and now i have so many)

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first night back,,, everything was fine ;-;

rant again tho

i knew that would be the case but i am still dreading my cousin. i avoided seeing them today, i told them i’d see them tomorrow.

i’m just nervous to enforce boundaries, which is silly, but i don’t want them to freak out.

it’s only silly because i am an adult (not with a capital A but still im grown enough to be emotionally mature in situations where people are not, like my cousin).

i don’t want to ask for space and then have to call a well check on them. like. that shouldn’t have to be the plan.

and now it’s 3:15 am & my first alarm is going off at 7 for my 9 am!!!!! (i have three WICKED sleep disorders, rant for another time)

anywayyyyyssss goodnight!!!!

(picture of my new friend that hangs above my bed, and never before seen on here picture of how fuckin awesome my hair is)

stupid tangent abt being overwhelmed:

i move back into school tmr and i think i am friends w too many people. this is the craziest shit in the world cause like WHO DO I HANG OUT WITH FIRST????? my cousin??? (who i don’t want to see but is fucking dying to see me)

like i want to see all my friends in my one friend group, but i really want to first spend time with my main four ppl friend group. i have all week and all semester to see everyone else but i just want to see my people first.

i’m overwhelmed and i’m not even there yet.

i can’t do another semester of police at the dorms til 8 am again. like that was ridiculous and i am tired. i just want to worry abt my classes. i’ll talk things out w people but i cant be a live in therapist again. i cant do that shit another time.

anyways!! first world problems, why am i overwhelmed about having friends

(i’m not used to having this many friends. i had a solid two for like five years and now i have so many)

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stupid tangent abt being overwhelmed:

i move back into school tmr and i think i am friends w too many people. this is the craziest shit in the world cause like WHO DO I HANG OUT WITH FIRST????? my cousin??? (who i don’t want to see but is fucking dying to see me)

like i want to see all my friends in my one friend group, but i really want to first spend time with my main four ppl friend group. i have all week and all semester to see everyone else but i just want to see my people first.

i’m overwhelmed and i’m not even there yet.

i can’t do another semester of police at the dorms til 8 am again. like that was ridiculous and i am tired. i just want to worry abt my classes. i’ll talk things out w people but i cant be a live in therapist again. i cant do that shit another time.

anyways!! first world problems, why am i overwhelmed about having friends

(i’m not used to having this many friends. i had a solid two for like five years and now i have so many)

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my pookie bear (grown ass man)

TOM HIDDLESTON in the LOKI S2 BLOOPERS