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HAN JISOO AESTHETIC BOARD: THE HANS FT @fmdjisung (2/?)

“he is someone i grew up with, so i’m very close to him. i used to follow him around a lot when i was young, and i guess that’s how i ended up wanting to be an idol too. although he tends to bully me a lot, i know i can depend on him, because he’s my brother.“ 

                                                                              — han jisoo, about jisung. 

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YEONA — post-dimensions gala, 12:03am / jisung’s apartment.

patience is a virtue; unfortunately, one that this man severely lacks. his knuckles crack as he stretches his right hand, repeatedly clenching the air to relieve the stress of having had his fists balled up for the majority of the gala. the hypocrisy of the night was torture, but jisung could do nothing but keep his teeth gritted, less he risk the outburst that the press has surely been dying for him to release since 2015. so for hours, he could only sit, tone his heated glare down by a couple degrees, and  w a i t. he was good at this game - playing it as he’s learned after years of misplaced tolerance, but it still didn’t mean he liked it. not in the slightest.

the seconds of the clock perched atop the wall audibly tick by as he finds himself waiting again tonight. although this time, as he sits on his living room couch, scrolling through an ebook on his phone, he finds himself at peace. for a girl who has fire in her lungs and vice on her lips, it’s strange how her storm could bring so much calm to his volatile nerves. yeona - the screen had lit up with her name some time ago with the promise of company. she was a no-bullshit friendship that bordered on the edge of thrill in every touch and talk. she was care in unconventional ways, and he’ll never let her know it always worth the wait—well, at least for another chapter or two.

his loosened tie flops onto his hand as he undoes the first two buttons of his dress shirt. despite how much he’d rather work up a sweat with his self-incited angst, he knows he should do better to keep up with the few he can genuinely tolerate. he turns off his phone at the sound of a knock and stands at a languid pace. tucking one hand in his pocket and opening the door with the other, he leans onto the doorframe with a flicker of light in his tired eyes.

“ hey. ” he lays his head against the doorframe as well. “ come in and wake oppa up. ” making way for her to pass through the entrance, his eyes roam over her figure, familiar, tantalizing curves still wrapped in what she wore for the gala. “ by the way, i found some blue underwear in the bathroom last week. is it yours? ”

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i can’t

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OPEN iMessages.  .  .

[ jisung → jipoo poo ] hey. ya weenie. [ jisung → jipoo poo ] you’re goin on dates w my group members? [ jisung → jipoo poo ] you don’t have food @ home???? ? [ jisung → jipoo poo ] 20 mins. let’s get u food. [ jisung → jipoo poo ] for home.

≫≫ last message SENT 22 minutes ago.

brushing through the building’s sliding glass doors, the end of his black coat whips up with the rush of cold air, billowing with every wide stride of his long legs. his bare fingers play with the keys on his phone as he sends his final message —

[ jisung → jipoo poo ] <33

looking up from the screen, he enters her apartment’s luxurious lobby, delivering a quick nod in greeting at the doorman and then an emotionless wink at the women behind the reception desk. jisung stops, noting that jisoo has yet to arrive, and then proceeds to plops his lanky form into the nearest chair, the leather cushioning his sweet little ass as he settles. he adjusts the mask on his face, the rough material previously constricting his nostrils, then inhales deeply. he leans into the seat with closed eyes.

this moment is needed. inviting his beloved little sister out to a wholesome, midweek afternoon of grocery shopping and bonding, just like the old days by the summer sea in busan... only it’s winter. and it’s snowing. and they’re in seoul. but nonetheless, spending time together, holding onto home is something that he’s been deprived time of for too long, especially as december’s workload for alien increases with gaining momentum. it’s wonderful news for a dedicated leader, but not for an oppa trying his best to keep ties with his dongsaeng. a smile curves behind his mask. he’s a brother - to many, but first and foremost to jisoo. a guy like him needs the reminder before he can lose too much of himself. it helps that the very thought puts his heart at rest after busy days... but hell, he’ll never be the type to rest for too long.

[ jisung → jipoo poo ] ⏳

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hullo luvs ! ♡ lea (19, cst) here, comin’ at ya w my precious, misguided babe HAN JISUNG. as LEADER/MAIN RAPPER for dimensions ent.’s dood group ALIEN, he’s been thru quite...a lot,, heh. his profile’s chillin here & some keywords regarding some plots i’d like for him are chillin here too. feel free to like this post for plotting and i’ll be getting to ims real quick. tysm for the welcomes, and i’m so so excited to start rping w everyone~ *tw: drug abuse* 

PAST —

that cutie joonie ultra sweg beansprout we luv and wanna namswoon all over??? HA, WHOMST?

real-life version of “old taylor can't come to the phone rn why oh cuz she ded” rip lol

buuuuuuuut let’s start at the beginning, ok!

grew up in busan, south korea as v energetic, bright-eyed and sunshine-smiley kiddo

has a loving mom, dad, and lil sis he fawns over and bullies so so much

loved reading, helping his fam out w their korean bbq restaurant, and became obsessed w music

got into the underground rap scene at 13 yrs old, building connections w others and eventually started ghost-writing for independent rappers

unfortunately, also started to abuse drugs, and it wasn’t until he found better influences when he became a trainee at dimensions ent. at 16 yrs old that he started to recover from the raw realities of the underground

officially 100% drug-free at age 18 (!!!), a year before debuting as leader/main rapper for alien

rlly just wanted to be the absolute best and someone the other members could rely on

was also v surprised he was chosen as leader coz he wasn’t the oldest or the longest trainee in dimensions - but tbh it was expected bc of how hard he worked + continuing w his ghostwriting + fighting addiction + dealing w restructure after restructure of alien’s final lineup bLESS HIS LIL HEART UNF

debuted as “nam sungwoo” bc “han jisung” sounded too harsh for the concept he was gonna promote his persona as - aka a gentle leader with a softer name, yet a vicious rapper’s flow and powerful performance

which is so true!! to how!! he was!! even through alien being overworked + being mismanaged by dimensions, he still tried to stay positive and calm for the sake of the members and fans

but after years of being treated like shit by the company, not receiving the pay they deserved, and seeing the rest of the members suffer, he #SNAPPED and instigated the lawsuit scandal

LAWSUIT BEGINS —

delivered the legal notice personally to the ceo’s desk like a Bad Bitch bc *cough* OLDD SUNGWOO CANT COM TO TH E PHONE RN BC HE DED *wheezEs*

1 yr of legal battles = relapse back into drug abuse, hella sexual explorations and abundance, a new self-titled mixtape, and a complete 180 shift in his character

but at the same time he was goin down, his lil sis was goin up!! she was rising in success as an idol, and he honestly luvs her so much and rlly just gained a lot of strength from seein her complete her dreams :’-)

released a lot of pent-up stress bc of that mixtape and was finally able to regain his footing and comeback w alien once the lawsuit was settled

AFTER LAWSUIT —

now he demands respect. he’s self-righteous and lives without fear. he will rise from the ashes and has no problem with burning the world down in the process...

because if he can’t bend heaven, he will make it a point to raise hell.

with that being said.... @ mars members, i am,,, so.. sorry..but.......... he h8s all y’all

a very scary sunbae (pls help me i chose a dimpled squish as a fc and i’m tryna make him Hardcore hA,), but yeah he’s merciless towards other artists but in his mind he’s just keepin it real

was also able to say he recovered again from drug abuse early 2017, so!! congrats bby!!

it’s been a Wildt time, and he’s still trynna cope a bit internally, but he’s a lot stronger than he was before and it really shows in his demeanor nowadays

some positives of his personality are that he’s ( + ) innovative, resilient, passionate, independent, adventurous

some negatives are that he’s ( - ) impatient, aggressive, blunt, hostile, self-indulgent

and das about it for now bc i’m writing toooooo muuuuuchhhhhhh ahhhhhhhh~

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so gorgeous

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Kim Namjoon

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HADES : Tell them that you weren’t hungry, tell them you followed the pomegranates seeds because they tasted like blood, like love.

Pauline Albanese, The Closed Doors  (via antigonick)