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"how to deal with narc crashes" then it's the most useless information ever spewed from someone's mouth

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does anyone else with npd feel the need to prove everything to other people? like, if I tell someone that I'm too tired to do something, and they say that 'I can't be that tired' (or something along those lines), I will purposely not sleep just to show them how tired I can get. or if someone says that something I baked isn't that good. I will be spending my free time for the next 3 days making the perfect baked good, just to show them how wrong they are

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Trying to comfort someone u care ab but you have zero (0) empathy and dgaf like

Sir have we tried “I’m so sorry”

Sir have we tried “gotta thug it out”

Sir have we tried “that must suck”

Sir have we tried “aw are you ok”

Sir have we tired “that’s really bad”

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Gonna be honest. Whenever someone says "it's easy to be nice!!" it just usually tells me that the person isn't a narc and/or they haven't been around narcs. Like yes I agree with the overall message this isn't a post going 'NO GO GO BE A ABSOLUTE ASSSHOLE' but being decent is absolutely NOT easy for me. I feel like it actively drains my energy and it stresses me out if I do it too long. Do u know how many thought processes i have to go through so i don't say something accidently assholish when it's usually simple and straightforward for non-narcs.

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npd is needing everyone to leave you alone because they could never understand, but getting angry when they do leave you alone because that means that they dont care about you and you arent valuable to anyone.

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Today I learned I’m competitive about being nice. Since most of my “niceness” is a mask, when people are nicer to me than I am on a daily basis, I feel like they’re trying to compete with me and I don’t like that because I’m the nicest person. (Spoiler alert: I’m not really the nicest person, but most people who know me and like me, like me because I’m nice)

I always justified hating people who are nicer than me because I thought “there’s no way anyone could really be that nice, they must be fake as fuck” but that’s only because I’m fake. Whaaaaaaaat.

For the record I don’t hate people for being “fake” anymore, I’m just cautious cause I’m fragile and if people are mean when I’m not expecting it I might cry :>

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Unpopular opinion but I don’t think we should be demonizing people who do things for attention. You may find it “annoying” but a healthy person wouldn’t go to extreme lengths for attention. Attention seeking behaviors are really common in many mental illnesses, as well as it being a common trauma response. Attention seeking behaviors are a cry for help and people deserve to get that help instead of getting dismissed or laughed at for being dramatic.

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It hurts how little I mean to someone I hold so highly. Why doesn't he love me too? What do I have to do for him to love me, why does this hurt so bad. Why is it so painful.?

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I Am Incredibly Normal About The Attention I (don't) Receive

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i hope at least some of you are obsessed with me or idolise me to some degree

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Is it my narcissistic delusion or is the vast majority of people I've ever communicated with just simply subhuman

I'm not even joking, I don't think I've met a single person (in real life, at least) who has ever had a critical thought in their entire LIFE

I feel like at this point I don't even have npd I am just factually correct about thinking of myself as superior because it REALLY isn't hard to be intellectually superior than the people I've met

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how much for a gram of love & attention

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daily affirmations:

1. im the hottest bitch in this grocery store

2. i deserve to be treated like a god

3. people adore my fucked up behavior and constant lying

4. no one is as evil as me

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being yourself is good when preschool teachers say it, but when I, a narcissist

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skill issue (you are far more talented than i will ever be. i am worthless compared to you and i hate you for it)