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2017: dumb bitch

2018: sad bitch

2019: bad bitch

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Dirty dutch

Spite to all that have me wronged. extracting all of my revenge so near.

But how would I feel? Righted? Slighted?

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Has a perfectionist attitude

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jealousy

and hate, spitefully I waste away

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Well we all want to be loved.

It’s a primal instinct, we’re conceived in a womb where we feel warm and safe. And at birth all of that is stripped away. From that point on you’re finding ways to get that same sensation back. The lucky ones do

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Photography by ♡ʾʾ☆*:ʾʾMinako ♡ʾʾ☆*: ＊From Shizuoka,Japan🇯🇵

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latin word of the day: nemoricultrix, forest-haunting, she that dwells in the woods

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Amen

i hate when ppl make fun of me for trying 2 be positive and spread good vibes like fuck your bitter ass i spent a good portion of my short life being bitter and angry and suicidal if i wanna shoot sunshine out of my ass then i fuckin will 

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Just after lift off

a perfect aerial view of my city. It brings tears to my eyes feeling so full of love and this lingering sense of nostalgia I hadn't known before. Breathe. In an instant of altitude climb, it's gone beneath a blanket of clouds. I am onto the next chapter.

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the rush the thrill

my heart beat speeds…racing thoughts,

ultimate anticipation– a high. right before.

getting ready I think about the crush and the reeel.

I can feel my throat burning already

i tremble a bit. i can't wait 

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Self portrait of a friend, " it's boyfriend season... and i'm cold". 2015

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I had a solo show this year titled Battlefield of Flowers. I set out to make these 4 futuristic altars meant to channel healing energy to help us heal from the pain inflicted on us by masculine energy and patriarchal rule.

In January when I started, the optimist in me saw hope in the trajectory that we as a species were on. Then I saw the hateful/angry/violent rhetoric that played out in global politics, and now, more than ever, I see the need for this thought process to play out.

This floral sculpture was made by the brilliant @bloomandplume out of LA, and I photographed it over one of the 4 energy vortexes in Sedona.

Altar 34°50'12.9"N 111°49'18.3"W (Dying played forward and then in reverse)