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Mahal ko o Mahal ako?

I've been watching clips or short videos regarding "Mahal ko o Mahal ako", I reflected on my own.. like I think of my friends then asked myself if Mahal ko sila or Mahal nila ako.

Wala lang, I'm so thankful to have friends like that and regarding sa "mahal ko" I dont think it's bad, or hindi nag rereciprocate but siguro nasa "ate mode" lang siguro kaya ganun and na i dont mind.

There's this one video, sinabi niya si ganito mahal niya then si ganito mahal siya. Pero may isa talaga siya sinabi na ïts both. like love niya yung tao then love din siya like equally. Siguro yun yung tinatawag na platonic soulmate? it doesnt need to be the opposite sex, it can be same sex and yet mag soulmate kayo. Like love niyo yung isat isa, gets niyo how your mind works, ano yung mga needs niyo or wants niyo, you know each other and I think its one of the best thing to met someone like that. <3

Wala lang nakaka happy malaman yung ganun kahit di sakin, but knowing that people have that is very touching for me. <3

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Random Topic

Lately, I was so invested with Bini Ppop Group, but to be exact is with the Mikhaiah. I like the friendship because of the following:

>They know and complement each other's love language. Like si Aiah is very outspoken na #selflove daw siya pero we all know naman na when someone says that is they need love pa din naman, but ayun they dont want to be needy or hindi nila gusto yung feeling na asking for love and care. But with Mikha, Act of Service yung love language niya, so by being a Silent Angel or yung mga simple acts niya is very appreciated na ni Aiah. Tapos nirereciprocate ni Aiah sa way na vocal siya with her feels to the point na umiyak siya just because feel niya galit si Mikha.

>I love that honest sila sa feelings nila. Like si Mihka clingy siya pero kay Aiah lang usually like the tight hugs and kiss. Pero pag sa iba ayaw niya. hahaha kaya nabibigyan ng meaning pero for me kasi may certain level or trust and feels kasi kaya piling tao lang nila ginagawa yun. Kumbaga dapat bestfriend levels na or sobrang deep na ng pinagsamahan ganun.

Pero yung closeness na yun is because naging roomates sila, by spending that much time together can strengthen the friendship talaga. Like you know each other's habits na, or favorites ganun, na even silence may meaning kasi gets mo na sila ganun.

Wala lang nung unang nalaman ko yung about them naka smile lang ako like very genuine may iba namang vid na nakakilig and very touching yung ganap. Kaso nung palapit na ko sa recent ganap, wala na pala? I mean "lowkey"na daw yung Mihkaiah kasi nga nababash yung Bini or sila mismo. Nakaka sad lang na need mo pigilan self mo sa mga gusto mo gawin or ikilos just because people wont understand it. Hindi naman pwede dedmahin kasi mas mag cause ng problem.

Dahil don, nanotice ko na after nung nag lowkey sila, hindi na sila ganong kaclose ni Aiah plus sad na siya lagi yung parang hindi na siya interested sa kahit ano. Wala na siya energy or gana ganun.

I just hope and pray that matuto makaintindi ang mga tao, and na get it out of your system and mind if hindi na within your area of responsibility. Lols. Like hindi mo na kontrolado so let it go.

Sana din bumalik na silang dalawa sa dati. They both need each other. :)

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Uhm

Bakit kaya ganun, kapag yung naka move on ka na at you're doing okay naman na without the certain people that left you before, suddenly babalik. No direct approach but may notifs of them stalking you. Ano yun? bored lang?

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Start again

I don't know what version I am now of myself but I'm glad that I have the courage or energy to start again. Somehow nagsusunod sunod yung blessings and minsan overwhelming na din but sobra ko naaappreciate and it helps that there are people who can help you or just be there for you para di mo mafeel na alone ka. Also, i've tried being honest with the state of mind or state of my life right now and it feels so good to be that honest, to tell directly na ganto ganyan ako now or how I feel without feeling guilty or i-overthink if it's alright for me to share that. It feels good kasi hindi ko agad dinedepensahan kung ano man ang pwede mangyari.

Kaya ayun, thank you Lord. That I can move forward with my life. Thank you kasi yung mga napagdaanan ko, mas narealize ko ano yung mga bagay na gusto ko at deserve ko. Hindi ko man fully knows yung "worth"ko but i'm sure naman na I am worth something and hindi yung babalikan lang kung kailan trip.

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I want to say my side regarding the Maris Anthony and Jam issue. Actually hindi naman sa I dont trust guys, but I think it is possible na Maris didnt know na sila pa ni Jam. It is because before ganon din ako, hindi ko alam na may gf pala yung dinedate/bf ko that time. I was too ashamed and embarass kasi hindi na nga gwapo, sobrang ma effort na pero two timer naman. Like wtf?? So my point is, it is possible na hindi siya aware. Also when you are infatuated to someone, nagiging blinded ka. But it doesnt mean na meant mo to hurt someone.

Why am I saying my side? It is because grabe yung pang babash. Like the girl lang yung may mali because they expect from her too much. Na dapat si guy ang mas accountable also yung “Gf” din kasi ikaw na nga yung nagpaka martyr anong makukuha mo for ruining someones life? I know 7 years kayo ni Anthony, may emotional attachment pero hindi tama na manakit at mambully ka just because sikat yung pinalit sayo. Ang kalat lang to be honest. Tapos ieend mo yung post mo sa you dont mean any harm or to hurt someone, pero ginawa mo.

Kung kinausap mo in private, kung nagpaka tao ka at hindi nag hanash on socmed. Di naman na lalaki yung issue. If i were Maris, i will sue you, Emotional pain doesnt give you the rights to ruin a life. Hindi kayo kasal, niloko ka ng bf mo pero yung bf mo yung naging collateral damage at hindi si Maris. Bat ganun?

I was also betrayed by my 9 years boyfriend. Do i have to ruin his life also para lang maging okay at masabi na ako yung tama? I dont think so. Bugso ng damdamin yung ginawa mo? I really dont think so ulit.

Sa dami ng nambubully kay Maris anong gusto niyo? Mawala na siya sa earth? Grabe ang lilinis. Keyboard warrior yan. Ginawa pang promotional post yung mga part ng chats. Grabe this earth.