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Somethings are not what they seem-

The waning moon, a sinister smirk on the horizon, and I, unable to differentiate the darkness from the space behind my eyes. It's not the witching hour, though the chilled night air disturbs me, and I think if stars could spill their secrets, the sun may never rise again.

In the wee hours monsters lurking, in the depths all shadows hide. In the morning you may meet them and their teeth won't seem as sharp or white as if you'd met with them at twilight in the dusky depths of night.

Beware the early mornings and the fickle human mind. In the daylight monsters go to bed and men come out to hide.

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A Clear Night-

Underneath the dark night sky, creeping feet move softly toward muted candle light- through your window faintly lit, we see you sleeping, wrapped in linens and repose, fleeting feelings soon dissolve

Through the glowing midnight embers, the stone I threw? Mine eye remembers. Pale grey it was, with flecks of black, the sound a sudden, thunderous crack! As shards and bits of glass explode, the barriers between us close

Out to the shadowed woods we drag you, struggling, gnashing, nails and teeth, an animal filled up with fright, not ready yet to see the light! But time you see must end for all, God is dead, your lies are false, and we must answer Satan’s call. “Burn the heathen witch,” he cries, so as you weep, you too must die.

Witchy, witchy did you die? Underneath the pale dawn sky? Your blood was spilt, dark rivers run, creeping deep into the soil to hide its rot-the putrid stench of evil plots, and though not many know your sins, you cannot hide from a reborn sun. My soul rejoices that your days are gone

And yes, they too, heard you howl in grief and terror-the children of the devils clan. They danced and danced in exaltation as in your death, lay their fixation. The moon was witness to your plight, but did not stop them with his might.

The demon king has called you damned. Why would he save a son of man? He hath no need for your amends. He doth not call you to repentance, neither to a life of penance. You have no use so you must go, the Devil hath proclaimed it so.

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A Luxury-

“No light, no light in your bright blue eyes, I never knew daylight could be so violent. A revelation in the light of day You can choose what stays and what fades away"

No Light, No Light-

Florence and the Machine

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I buy lamps like they're selling out for life. Not for the color or for the style, purely for the illumination.

The yearning to belong to a nation of people. Instead, I am the satellite circling overhead.

Forgotten in the darkness of space. No distinction between night and day.

My heart is a black hole, constantly searching-forever alone, sewing destruction wherever I go.

Your soul could have lit up the world for an eon, without you here there is no way to see on.

You were my sunshine, now I'm just night, so I have had to come up with my own source of light.

It's a little dimmer than one might want. But it gives me the strength to keep holding on.

The future is dreary, there's no end in sight. That's why I keep buying my own source of light.

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Sometimes people lie.

H-"My trap worked too well, now you can never leave me!"

K-"Awesome, perfect!"

H-"Finally something we agree on!"

K-"Yes indeed."

He left me three days later. Sometimes people lie. Some people lie about loving you.

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Hollow. I want to cry, or puke, or scream, but I can't. My hearts to numb to feel a damn thing.

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Multiple Intelligences

I originally predicted that two of my strongest intelligences would be language and self. I was half correct because my strongest intelligence is self, but language didn't even make the top three. I think the extent you utilize your multiple intelligences is entirely dependent on how frequently you personally choose to exercise them. I feel like mine are being utilized fairly regularly here at college because I've been putting myself in situations and taking classes that require me to use them. I think it's good because I can grow them and expand my ability to think mathematically or do things that make me happy like surrounding myself in nature if I exercise my intelligences more. I think the most detrimental thing I could do to harm the quality of my education currently is quit trying. If I were to stop pushing myself to do things like socialize, even if it doesn't always make me feel as comfortable as I would like, then college would become a place of pure, comfortable misery and there is no potential for growth in that.

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Lord.

Pull me close and hold me tight, everything hurts in my soul tonight.

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Toxic

How do you fill the void inside when your heart is on fire and you're trapped in your mind?

He doesn't want me. He never will. He's got a girlfriend. I've got a hole. My lips he's not kissing. His hands don't hold mine. So why is he tattooed in the space behind my eyes?

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Silly

We're having a beard growing contest. I think he might win.

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In Too Deep

What do you do when the world splits in two, and the one that you want is not the one that wants you?

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A thought I had today-

I don't think boring places exist. Just people who lack the creativity to find adventure in ordinary places.

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Dollface.

He calls me dollface. I don't know what to do, so mostly, I just blush.

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Tonight.

You know how sometimes you think about death, and you're like, "Man, I hope I don't die alone at McDonald's at 3 AM on a Wednesday?” Tonight is one of those perfect moments I'd be pretty okay with. Not that I would choose to die, just that I'd prefer tonight over others.

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Is Love At First Sight Real?

I say nay to love at first sight. I believe that you can form instantaneous connections with people, but love is something that takes continual and constant work. It develops over time. Every relationship will inevitably fail if two people give up on each other.

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What Keeps You Awake?

Autophobia. The fear of being alone at the end of my life, without anyone that cares about me or that I love. This is super cliche, but something that keeps me awake at night is the fear that I'll never find someone I'm compatible with and I'll die without ever falling in love. Honestly, it's more than the desire to have a boyfriend or something silly. More than anything, it's the idea that I'll miss out on important life experiences.