forwonandjeonly

[forwonandjeonly]

Chapter 49

1:28

it’s been a while since i last wrote you an entry.

i’m really sorry if i’m not around all the time. i’m sorry for letting you feel that way. i’m sorry kung marami na akong pagkukulang sayo. sorry, baby. sobrang sorry.

mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal kita at hindi ko kayang mawala ka sakin. promise, babawi talaga ako. basta antayin mo lang ako ha? promise yan ha? nagpromise kang hintayin ako. nagpromise ako na babalikan kita kahit anong mangyari. just wait for a little longer, baby ko. malapit na akong umuwi. malapit na tayong mag babytime. malapit na tayong magkaroon ng oras na makapag date ulit, makipagharutan at magkalampagan.

just endure this a little longer, i’ll be home soon.

i love you so so so so much baby ko. sobrang mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal kita! from day 1; from chapter 1.

sayo lang haharot at sayo lang kakalampag.

good night baby ko. i love you so so much!

[forwonandjeonly]

Chapter 48

11:11

alam kong hindi tayo nakakapag usap nang maayos for the past days tapos nag away pa tayong dalawa. gusto ko lang sabihin sayo na sorry. sorry kung wala ako at sorry kung mawawala ako sa mga susunod na mga araw.

hindi ko alam kung ano man ang iniisip mo habang wala ako. naiinip ka ba o naiinis. gusto ko lang sabihin sayo na babawi ako pagkatapos ng lahat na mga gagawin ni op. babawi ako kaya maghintay ka lang ng konti. antayin mo lang ako. sobrang miss na kita kaya kinakausap kita from time to time dahil namimiss na kita at ayokong iparamdam sayo na binabalewala kita o kung ano man. alam ko naman na ayaw mo lang naman maging istorbo ka sakin. alam ko naman yun.

sorry kung nagalit ako kagabi at pinapamukha sayo na ayaw mo talaga akong kausap. sorry. sobrang sorry. nainis lang ako at sa pagod narin siguro. pero salamat sa pag intindi sakin. sobrang sorry sa lahat baby ko. hindi ko alam kung naka log out ba tele mo o ano dahil naka last seen recently ka lang sakin eh. haha. sa sobrang inis mo siguro sakin kaya mo yan ginawa no? 😔 sorry baby ko. 😔

i’ll be back. babalikan kita. promise yan. just trust me on this, okay? hindi kita ighoghost. ghosto kita eh. bakit kita mumultuhin. 😔

basta alagaan mo nang maayos si eggy at si sushi.

i love you baby ko. mahal na mahal na mahal na mahaaaaal kita. sobra.

i’ll be back. promise.

[forwonandjeonly]

Chapter 47

3:50

hi, baby!

good morning!

i’d just like to thank you for being my rock for the past days. thank you for being so understanding. i really do miss you so much. i miss our babytimes, i miss our date nights, and other things that you and i used to do way back.

just wait for me, okay? we’ll do those things again soon. i love you so much, my baby. i really do.

you will always be my 11:11, 11:43 and my 1:43. always and always. ikaw lang, wala na akong hahanapin pang iba.

i love you, my babubear.

i hope this would make you smile once you wake up. i might still be asleep when you get to read this. :)

[forwonandjeonly]

Chapter 46

1:43

hi, baby. it’s been a while since i last wrote you an entry. i would like to thank you for staying and sticking up with me despite everything. i do appreciate the things that you do for me. even the littlest things that you would do.

this entry of mine is short but it is the thought that counts.

i love you so much, baby. to more harutan, kalampagan, and babytime with you.

i hope this would make you smile, my love. :)

[forwonandjeonly]

Chapter 45

12:00

September 19, 2019.

Happy 5th Monthsary to us, my Jeoniki!

thank you for sticking up with me since then no matter how tough the ride was with me. thank you for understanding me as always. thank you for always making time with me even though everything gets busy for the both of us.

i do miss the old times where we would just cuddle and have our babytime. but time has to continue, that’s why we have reached our 5th month together.

i am always thankful for you everyday and with the love that you are giving me since day 1; since chapter 1.

you will always be my 11:11, 11:43, and 1:43. always and always. always remember that.

happy 5th to us, my love! i love you so so so much!

[forwonandjeonly]

Chapter 44

supposed to be a 1:43 entry but i’m too sleepy to wait for the clock to tick at 1:43. hence, a 1:15 entry.

hi, babubear. i couldn’t stop thinking about you. thank you for understanding me for the past days. i know you’re still having a hard time with that. same goes me as well, too. i couldn’t help but to miss you every second of the day. i promise that i would really make it up to you. it may take a long time for me to do so, but i assure you that i will.

i know there may be times that you may doubt yourself, but please. don’t. you are always worth it. as much as possible i’d talk to you continuously rather than talk to you in breaks. i do not want to leave you hanging.

i love you so much, jeoniki. always, always, always keep that in mind. you are always worth it, my love.

come high or hell water; amidst chaos and uncertainties; to the moon and back; it would always be you.

at the end of the day, i would always, always come home to you. since day 1; since chapter 1.

i’ll see you in the morning, my love.

good night, my baby. i love you so much.

[forwonandjeonly]

Chapter 43

1:43

i know things between us are not okay for the past days. i’m really really sorry if i’m not always around. i really hope you do understand. please know that i really love you so much. i am really trying my best to balance everything. i am really trying my best to make time with you because i do not want you to think that you would have thoughts of being not worth it and whatnots.

please, please, please understand me like the way how i understood you for the past months. all i’m asking is for you to be patient with me. please?

i’m really sorry if i’m like this right now. ayoko talaga na nag aaway tayong dalawa o kaya nagkakatampuhan. it makes me feel like i am not doing my best as your boyfriend. kahit wala ako, sinisigurado ko talaga na i would leave traces of myself in the private account that i’ve dedicated solely for you because if you’d be missing me, you’d just scroll down and read the notes, the quotes that i have left for you. kaya ayokong i-public yun. because those are for your eyes only. kaya siya forwonandjeonly because it’s only for you... my one and only.

never forget why we started, why we have this relationship and have been together for 4 months... going 5. almost half a year na tayo, baby. you’ve been putting up with my crap for half a year already. we’ve been through ups and downs and i swear i have been falling in love with you more and more each day. i couldn’t ask for more with you being by my side.

i just love you so fucking much and i don’t want to lose you.

you will always be my 11:11, 11:43 and my 1:43.

i hope this would make you smile when you wake up. i hope we’d be okay when you wake up.

[forwonandjeonly]

Chapter 42

1:43

it’s been a while since i last sent you an entry with a timestamp of 1:43.

i’ve realized that we have been missing each other so much for the past days. i did miss you so much. i’m sorry if i’ve become too busy because of my op’s schedules. but please do know that i am going to make it up with you as soon as everything is well and done.

always remember that at the end of the day, i’d always come home to you and nobody else. you have always been my home since the start; since chapter 1.

whenever you are down, just check out @forwonandjeonly, okay? from now on, i would be dropping off notes, quotes, or whatever to cheer you up.

i love you so much baby ko. i really do. it will always be you, i promise.

i hope this will make you smile once you wake up, my love.

you will always be my 11:11, 11:43, and my 1:43.

[forwonandjeonly]

Chapter 41

11:11

it has been a while since i last wrote you an entry. i’m sorry i wasn’t able to write you one.

anyway, i have been officially with you for 4 months. time flies, doesn’t it? you have been dealing with my matampuhin ass for 4 months. and i have been dealing with your sleepy ass for 4 months. see? we all have our differences, my love. and i could see that we are handling it pretty well. we have mastered the art of understanding each other and making sure that we always end the day in good terms by talking through things out no matter how bad it could actually get.

for the past 4 months, i have realized that my love for you keeps on growing and growing — despite your flaws, despite your differences; despite the odds. i have realized that life without you beside me is dull and boring. you make life so colorful and exciting. and i am always up for adventures when i am with you, mon amour. you know that very well.

i am just thankful for you each day — for loving who i am, despite my flaws, and despite everything that could start off a fight between us.

i have no regrets messaging you that night nor giving you off these entries which serve as somehow a diary that someday we could look back on it and remember all the memories that we have been through together.

i do love you so much, my jeoniki. and i am happy that you are my boyfriend — my won and jeonly.

you will always be my 11:11, 11:43, and my 1:43. regardless of day, time, and of our differences.

happy 4th monthsary to us, my love!

i love you so so so much, baby ko.

[forwonandjeonly]

Chapter 40

1:00

it’s been a while since i last wrote you an entry. it’s late and i could not stop thinking about you — you being away and you being not beside me as i sleep tonight.

i just want to let you know that i really miss you. i miss the way you kiss me. i miss the way you hug me. i miss the way you call me. i miss how you would snuggle your head on my neck. i miss how you like to have some babytime with me. i miss everything about you.

i just want to remind you of how important you are to me. i just want to remind you that i would choose you over and over again — no matter what the circumstances are, i would always choose you. in a sea of many people, my eyes would just look for you and only you.

again and again, i’d always choose you. i love you so much, baby ko. i miss you so much.

i hope i was able to let you smile despite our distance. i’ll see you soon, my love.

[forwonandjeonly]

Chapter 39

00:00

finally! i no longer have to indicate what time zone it is since we are back here in manila.

anyway, it was a great 15-day vacation with you, my love. 15 days of happiness. 15 days of quality time. 15 days of seeing you asleep beside me.

we have seen a lot of beautiful places as we travelled half across the world — from paris to japan, but i could still say that you are still the most beautiful i have ever seen and you still remain as my world!

ah, i could not stress enough how i had fun with you for the past days. we have built so much memories to be added in each chapter of our lives — from dancing under the moonlight at the eiffel tower to surprising you a ring necklace at the tokyo tower. you see, i have a thing for towers because it would mean that i would love to see the world with you beside me.

i would just like to thank you for going with me in paris and in japan. thank you for spending your time with me.

i definitely love each moment with you as you always make me feel that i am the happiest man on earth.

i did learn new things in this trip of ours. you taught me how important quality time is. we spent most of our days in our hotel room cuddling, hugging, kissing, and telling our i love you’s to each other. we may get to see these establishments again in our next trips but the time we have spent for each other cannot be brought back. hence, i would always choose to spend each time with you. another thing that i have learned is that i have love you a little more. i just realized that a person like you is definitely a need in my life. i would always make sure that i shower you with love and care because you deserve nothing less. and lastly, you made me realize that i am always myself when i am with you. i no longer care if others would judge me of who i am. i may have lots of flaws, but there you are... still loving me for who i am.

i guess i really have no regrets with everything that has happened between us. life gets better and better when i am with you.

thank you for sticking up with me, baby. come high or hell water; through thick in thin; to the moon and back; forever and always.

i will always choose you over and over again because there is no one like you in this world. it’s just you and no one else.

i love you so much, baby. i really do.

i know you are sleeping soundly right now and you are not feeling well. but i do hope that the moment you wake up and read this entry, you would feel better.

i’ll see you in the morning, my love.

and... baby? i kissed your forehead a lot of times for the past hour to scare that headache away.

i love you, always.

[forwonandjeonly]

Chapter 38

1:43 PST

it has been a while since i last sent you an entry with a time stamp of 1:43.

anyway, 9 days in paris was amazing. you spent your birthday in that city. we spent our monthsary in that city. countless memories we have made in that city. and i will always treasure all of these in my heart.

as we were in paris, i couldn’t help myself think of the what if’s as i look at you being so giddy each moment we were together.

what if i did not message you that night? what could have happen?

what if i did not agree to the terms that we would still keep our relationship after you have left koyas? what could have happen?

what if i agreed to let you go when you told me that i deserve someone better? what could have happen?

what if our paths did not cross? what could have happen?

too many what if’s inside my head. but there is one thing that is certain — that is you. amidst the what if’s inside my head, the only thing that i am sure of is you. yes. it’s you, baby. it has always been you.

i guess i would always find myself going back to you. you have always been my home. a home where i find peace and comfort when you are around. my tranquility amidst chaos; my hope amidst uncertainties.

i guess you have taught me a lot of things for the past months. one of them is to be more patient with myself. i know that i have a matampuhin ass but you’ve taught me how to be more patient with things. hence, leads to the next thing you have taught me which is to understand you better. i know that we have lots of differences and it pushed me to become more understanding with you and also with myself. with understanding, it leads to the next thing you have taught me is to love more. you have also taught me to love you more as i continue to love myself too. of course, i am not capable of loving you if i do not love myself first. i was able to fully accept and fully find myself as i have this journey with you.

well the bottom line of all of these is that... i am always up for adventures when i am with you — literally and figuratively. literally is to travel around the world with you; figuratively is to further seek ourselves by growing together.

thank you for everything, mon amour. i love you so much. never did i regret anything since day 1; since chapter 1.

as always, i hope this will make you smile the moment you wake up.

i’ll see you in the morning, my love.

i love you. :)

[forwonandjeonly]

Chapter 37

1:00

it’s one o’clock and it’s been like 2 hours since you went to sleep. i just want to let you know that i am at my happiest for the past few days because i am with you here in the city of love.

i just realized that i have been the happiest man on earth when i am with you. imagine... i am with the man that i love the most. i am loved by the person that i love the most.

everything is so beautiful when i am with you. ugh. i just want to let you know that i love you so much... and you know that.

i don’t know. there are just days that i have nothing to say but just i love you and just want to cuddle with you all day long.

i’m just thankful for your presence. your mere presence just make me sane and at peace. you really are my home. a home that i will forever keep in my heart and forever cherish.

i just hope this will make you smile the moment you wake up.

i love you, my jeoniki. so. much.

i’ll see you in the morning, my love.

[forwonandjeonly]

Chapter 36

11:11 PST

you might be probably wondering why i haven’t given you a 1:43 am message the moment you woke up. it’s because everything is here in this entry page, my love.

there is also a reason why it is Chapter 36.

surprise!

i didn’t forget that it is our monthsary today. hehe. : D

my gift is here: http://twitter.com/forwonandjeonly

you’ll see. :)

happy 3rd monthsary, my jeoniki!

i love you so so so so much. :)

[forwonandjeonly]

Chapter 35

1:43 PST

kudos to you for handling this matampuhin ass of mine for the past months. i am just thankful for you each and single day for making me happy — for keeping me sane, for keeping me grounded, for being my shock absorber, for being my rant buddy, for being my food buddy, for being my cuddle buddy, and a whole lot more.

your mere presence gives me peace and makes me feel that i am loved every single day.

i swear, i love you so so much, jeon wonwoo. and you are the only person i’d like to be with in this cruel world. let’s suffer together, right? your fight is also my fight because i would like to face all these circumstances together. as i said, i am always up to adventures even if it would take forever. as long as i am with you, all is well.

come hell or high water, let’s face it together, okay?

i love you so much, my love.

happy 3rd monthsary to us! you know the rest. ❤️

[forwonandjeonly]

Chapter 34

1:43 PST

yes. i am writing two chapters for the day because i would like you to start off your day reading this entry of mine.

like i said, all i want to see being happy not just today but every single day. seeing you happy makes me happy as well. it always brings me joy to see that smile of yours. and that smile of yours was one of the reasons why i fell for you. your smile was one the main reasons why i am always giddy and always happy. to cut it short, your happiness is my happiness.

i love you so much, jeoniki. i really really do. mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal kita. please don’t ever forget that.

i could see that you are currently hugging me so tight as you are sleeping so soundly. seeing you in this state of yours brings me comfort and peace. you are my home. i will always find myself going back to you, my love. always.

i love you so much, my jeoniki.

good night, mon amour.

[forwonandjeonly]

Chapter 33

00:00 PST

happy birthday to my won and jeonly!

i am so happy that you are spending your day with me here in the city of love. i love you so so so much.

everything is here: babubear.carrd.co

i really hope that you would love this birthday gift of mine. i was working on it the whole week last week. :)

my only goal today is to make you happy on your special day.

i love you so much, mon amour.

i love you

to the moon and back,

forever and always.

love,

gyuniki.