fragilealphame

[fragilealphame]

never really fully realized how insecure i am about.. idk how to put it my sexual desires? or needs idk it's complicated. It's like i'm ashamed of being horny. i i like suppress it and hide it. i... i always make it into this small ball and shove it into that little hole in my soul where childhood traumas go. i literally never wanna show it tho i do sometimes, but it always feels awkward and it disturbs my peace of mind. idk whose fault is that or how to deal with it or like tone it down a little bit. I just know i profoundly hate that that's me and who i'll always will be. it's really depressing.

[fragilealphame]

look who’s back

Winter has never been but a dark time. 

[fragilealphame]

separate hearts don’t just fit like a glove. you fool.

[fragilealphame]

someone said to me once that being the bigger person is only short-termed good bc every time you choose the high road some sort of distinctive and unspoken loneliness grows inside of you

[fragilealphame]

why do ppl still miss things when they have absolutely nothing worthwhile to miss?

[fragilealphame]

i did

[fragilealphame]

why is life so fucking hard

[fragilealphame]

if u r a lover fight it. is anything worth it? idk why the fuck do u think u should listen to me

[fragilealphame]

don’t fall in love ppl

[fragilealphame]

i better go write fl bta3 el tany abl mtklm bgd here is not good anymore

[fragilealphame]

i did this to myself, i guess? isn’t everything, at least slightly, our mistake? yeah it is.

[fragilealphame]

one hell of a kid kosom el dehk seriously. a coward. a thief. a straight up loser. a liar. a fraud. fat. ugly. v bad hygiene oh god fucking sickening. kind of a small dick it’s barely enough bs nos el kobbaya el malyan it is enough... but barely depending  on the recieving end. what else? lazy and dull. basically a fucking intolerable sloth. there’s more but that’s enough. for now.

[fragilealphame]

oh my god it’s been so long idek how to do this anymore

[fragilealphame]

it’s complicated. i’m not fine with it.

[fragilealphame]

or maybe i do but i don’t wanna do it

[fragilealphame]

i don’t know what to do

[fragilealphame]

no